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[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

I think that I've just had the week from hell and right now it doesn't feel as if it's getting better >.<

Last Friday my younger brother accidentally read a message for a female friend that has resulted in him phoning the police and a whole mess involving suspected paedophiles and my nephew Auron being at risk that started this horrible week.

Last night came the worst of it though when I and the rest of my family received a message from my older brother who has been having some problems at work, the contents of the message was simply "I can't take it anymore, I've left a note I'm sorry for all the trouble xxx' as you can imagine that sent us all into a panic. As he lives so far away from us we had to call the police who were amazing and got there in time. He' was taken to the hospital and thankfully it seems that he's going to be okay physically but mentally... I have no idea what to say, I've been there twice myself but I can't think of anything to say of all my brother he was the one that I've got on the least with I rarely talk to him unless I really have to or it's a family event so I'm completely lost.

sorry for laying all this on you all but I'm in some kind of weird hell right now and I'm trying to act normally but it's really hard.

To be honest I'm not sure if I'm going to be taking a small hiatus or not...you know me by now the more stressed I am the more I write to try and escape so I apologise if I do become a little manic over the next few days. Honestly my life feels like it's become some kind of weird horrible soap opera right now and honestly if I wasn't living it I would be sure it wasn't real
Krys

Comments

[coolohoh]

omg... that's..... really scary! *hugs*
take a break if you want, or keep writing as your form of stress relief, either way we'll still be here waiting and giving whatever little moral support that we can :)

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

It was truly terrifying to see the message I never want to go through it again :)
Thank-you for your support :)
*hugs*

[saffia-me.livejournal.com]

I think you should take a few days break then you continue to write since writing ia ur way to relax..

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

I'm thinking about it :) I have a fic for Jun's birthday that I will be positing late but then I'm not sure now >.<
*hugs*

[leiva21]

omg... I don't know what to say... but I hope you and your family will be okay
Take a break if you need too

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

Thank-you :) hopefully we will be :) We're a close family when we need to be :)
Thank-you :)

[j-sei.livejournal.com]

:(
like other said, we'll still be here either though I'm not really good with moral support.
Hope he can get better soon ^^

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

:)
Thanks :) This message was enough I just felt low :)
me too :)
*Hugs*

[gambitsfox.livejournal.com]

Oh sweetie I wish I could help you some how. That's the curse of having friends in far away places you can't just run over and give them a hug or a shoulder to lean on. I'm so sorry about your brother.....so glad they reached him though. If you need time off then do it. But if you need to use it as an out let then do that too. Just don't be gone so long without sending some word......because you know we worry about you too. I believe that a quiet Krys is not a happy Krys. At least when it comes to the internet. Hugs from afar! Love ya!
: )

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

It means a lot for you to just be there on over the internet *hugs*
I'm glad they reached him to...He's a prat but at the end of the day he's my brother and I'd miss him being a prat :)
Not a quiet Krys is never a good sign >.< I promise I won't vanish completely :)
*Hugs tightly*Love you too Thank-you :)

[abs-vanness.livejournal.com]

Be positive...your brother help u, then help him...prove to him that there are more good things in life amd it will be waste if he couldn't try and feel it.
Be with him...make time to be together once a week.
Have a family vacation...not too much fun but a very good memorable times.

Talk to us if u can't keep it to yourself.
We are not just people only read your fic, we are some kind of a family.
Never met but knew each other for so long.

I am here! Arashist is a family too...

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

I'm trying...:) He's going to be joining my ghost hunt group for the weekends...A little strange as a bonding activity but it gets him out and about once a week...
Thank-you its nice to know that I have support :D
hehe Arashi brought us together...I'm so glad that I posted that first story and was able to talk to you all :D
^_^

[matsuaurore.livejournal.com]

you really spent a week in hell :( I'm so sorry for your brother and I'm happy to know he is fine, at leats, physically, it takes a long time to get better when you feel bad mentally and I hope you will help him to find some help. Honestly, my mother is a psychologist and when someone tries to commit sucide, the best you can do is to be here for him and to make him see a psychologist or another specialist because your brother suffers from traumatism or other things he didn't go through well. I hope he will get better and even if you feel you have nothing to tell him, just being here for him is already big and he will feel good if he knows he can rely on someone :) he needs not to be alone and I guess your family will be here for him :) Ganbatte in this so hard moment, life can trick you sometimes and can make you go through very hard things but the best is to stand up and to fight for a better tomorrow :) I hope you will find the courage the go through all that and don't mind us, your family is the first priority :)

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

It feels like it >.< I know I've been in the same place twice myself, I know that it can take a lot for somebody to come back out of it >.< He's making an appointment to speak to a psychologist on monday and I promise that he will have support...He's come to stop with me this week and next he'll be with our parents and every week he'll be joining me on the weekends for a ghost hunt so he won't feel so alone. Honestly though he and I have never been close...We have very few similar interests and we've always argued but I think that this is a good time to forget about that :)
Thank-you :)

[yumi-usagi.livejournal.com]

Let me give you a big hug my dear
I hope everything will be ok soon.
I'm sorry I've never been good with words so I can't think of anything better to say. But if you need someone to listen to you, you know who to find.

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

Thank-you *hugs back*
Me too...:)
Me neither...In fact when I saw him today I shouted at him so that's not a very good start but I was so angry with him for being so stupid >< Thank-you it means a lot :)

[nate-02.livejournal.com]

I wish for you that everything gets fine :(
At least, tell yourself that your readers loves you !

You've brighten up all our days and i can't wish anything more that your life gets better for you and your family :( keep fighting, that's what life is all about ! good times comes after the bad ones !

French readers team all with you ! <3

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

so do I :)
yup :D I will do :D Thank-you :D
hehe I'm very happy that I brighten your days and hopefully things will become brighter here soon :)
Thank-you :D
*Hugs*

[lilisan31.livejournal.com]

I can't sens you a nice message Where I am but I'm here for support you, I'm glad he's okay (physically) even if It's hard in the end.
You must to be there for him or sometimes the family is like a poison so, he need some help from à psychologist.
Arg sorry It's à creepy mess but here the 3G sucks !
I'm always here anytime Dear *Hug*
Take care of you ~

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

Thank-you for you your support...:D
he's getting help I promise and we're trying to get him to see the good stuff :D
Thank-you *hugs*
^_^

[nino1711azuki.livejournal.com]

Krys, I'm so sorry to hear that. Hang on, dear. Hopefully you could pass those things soon. It's OK for saying all your feelings out. Don't hold it if you feel like wanna cry, just let it out.
I am really sorry for hearing this.
Wishing for anything good to be happened soon.
/hugs you/

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

Thank-you :) I hope so to :)
I will I we won't let him feel alone any more :)
*Hugs back tightly*
^_^

[helenmaldon.livejournal.com]

I'm truly sorry to hear that and I hope things get better <3 Do whatever you need to do for yourself to feel better. Take care! <3 <3 <3

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

Thank-you and I hope so too :D I'm trying :)
^_^

[renchan27.livejournal.com]

If the drama comes to be too much I'd rather you take a break hun, really.
Take care of yourself before anything else. I hope your brother gets a bit better. It'll never go away but I think being with his family may help him a bit.... Sorry to hear this.

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

I'll see how it goes :)
Yup...It's a hard thing to get over but he's come to stay with me for a bit and then he's staying with our parents we're going to meet up once a week from now on :)
Thank-you *Hugs*
^_^

[br-arashi.livejournal.com]

Whatever decision you take, be sure I'll be here supporting you.
You see, usually the most fragile person is the one that seem not to need anyone at all... Maybe this was his cry for help.
And don't worry about what to say... It's your own blood, you'll know it when it's timew

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

Thank-you :D
Yup he's always been the most independent but for now we're doing our best to make him realise that he's not alone :)
I just ended up shouting at him for a long time >.<
^_^

[abs-vanness.livejournal.com]

That's a good step of bonding even though is weird, but wth as long as u get him out of his problems~

Hehe...u can always count on me for support. Sorry for not always commenting on your fics, but I still read it, many times as u think bcuz I really loved your Matsumiya (bias) fics.

And your right, thank u for writing fics for My Matsumiya...bcuz, u've became a friend to me!

Hope you and your families will be good onwards!

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

Yup...He's first meeting was last night and he's already convinced he saw a ghost :) he seemed to have fun :)
It's okay I understand that people get busy :D hehehe MatsuMiya is the best Arashi couple ne :D
I'm so glad for arashi because I made lots of friends :D
thank-you :D
^_^

[aimalsyauqiyah.livejournal.com]

Hug and love from afar <3

You know you have lots of love and prayer from around the world!

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

Thank-you *hugs*
Yup lots of support :D
^_^

[littlebadlei.livejournal.com]

oh my.... i don't know what to say...
i was already with you when you said that this week has been from hell, since i do think that way too, but....... i didn't have that hard week....

umm.. it's hard to say what you should do with him.. because it's different with every people and i don't really know him.. but i think you just should try to be with him...

gaah, i hope i could help you more xS
well i can... if you want to talk to someone, you can talk to me and i can... talk back :D i don't mind :)
*HUGS TIGHTLY FROM AFAR* i hope this warmth and some happiness from somewhere here would reach you!!
(why afar? well i'm sick so i don't want you to get sick xD)

[ralatoindah.livejournal.com]

Oh dear, I sorry to hear that... You've been through a lot this past week ne... I'm also sorry for not being around lately, I feel like I took all your hard work for granted and I apologize for that... I promise to stay around after this.
I don't think I should say ganbatte to you because you're trying to do your best already ne..Please hold on and stay strong ne.
And I'm really sorry to hear about your brother. I hope he'll get better and soom realize that his life worth a lot.
I wish I could be there to support you... Take care, Krys...
Much love...