Keep the Faith part 15

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

“He asked me out…” Nino breathed shakily as he unearthed the remains of a china cup with had the cheap and cheerful picture of a bowl of fruit on it. It wasn’t a real find but it filled him with the same sense of excitement that he had felt as a child digging around in his back garden “…It was cheesy and stupid but…It happened…And I ran away…I should have just told him that I couldn’t…That…I didn’t want…But I didn’t I ran away like a coward…”

“Because you didn’t want to say that…That’s why you didn’t…” Takenaka smiled as if he had just solved the meaning to life the universe and everything. It was the truth, there was no doubt about that, he loved Jun and would continue to love him until his dying day but there was little to no chance that he could ever date him. He was far too messed up in the head and he knew that if they started dating all that would happen would be that he would end up hurting Jun and then the other teen would hate him and if there was one person on this planet that he didn’t want to end up hating him it was Jun. “Nino…I know what that fucker did to you…” His boss said gently now and Nino swallowed deeply keeping his eyes fixed on the cup that he was slowly freeing from its mud prison feeling sick to his stomach as images he had tried hard to forget rose to the surface of his mind “And I know that you’ve spent god knows how long trying to punish yourself for it…For reasons that I won’t understand but…This time…Just this once how about you don’t do the worst thing you could possibly do to yourself and just put the poor guy out of his misery…”

“He’ll hate me…” Nino looked up reluctantly from the cup staring directly into his boss/teacher’s eyes “He’ll find out about it and he’ll wind up hating me…”

“If you really think that low of him then you probably don’t deserve him…” Takenaka growled flicking soggy mud into his face causing Nino to glare and pout before replicating the action and flicking a huge wad of mud directly at the professor’s forehead. “Hey…I told you I would tell you when you’re being an idiot and you’re being an idiot…Seriously…That kid…He came by on your days off you know…Last year…”

“Why?” Nino asked never having heard about this before and the older man rolled his eyes sarcastically as if it were obvious why Jun would come and see him.

“To talk…About you and what we did…It drove me mad…He definitely doesn’t have the skill that you have…”

“You made him work?” Nino muttered horrified as he tried to imagine Jun working in the lab. He loved him and he knew that one day Jun was going to be sexy self-confident but he was completely clumsy. Takenaka shrugged carelessly tossing his trowel down into the mud and sat back onto his boots staring at him down his long nose a smirk playing on his lips.

“Of course I did, I’m not a nice guy or haven’t you figured that out yet?”

“It’s kind of hard to work out that you’re a nasty guy when you’re here giving me relationship advice…”

“I’ve been where you are…Not all of it…But there was someone…We dated when I was at uni…But I thought he was holding me back…So I walked away from him…I still think that it was probably the single biggest mistake of my life…I…Know it’s not the same as you and I know that there is a lot of stuff that you have bottled up inside but…for fuck sake I don’t want you to end up an embittered guy like me…You deserve happiness so go and take it…”

TBC
A/N: I hope that this is okay ^_^

Comments

[jtaytt.livejournal.com]

Poor Nino. What happened to him in the past? I wish he can just accept Jun and have some happiness.

[denyclamp.livejournal.com]

I think I love this guy, he acts all tough but is actually nice and caring.. I see myself in him x'D <3