krystalkatzficz | On Gossamer Wings part 221

Ohno smiled leaning on his side in the small bed his hand slowly moving up and down Kazu’s side. He felt completely and utterly sated after their fantastic bout of sex but he didn’t feel sleepy enough to allow his mind to shut off and go to sleep just yet. He had been expecting a refusal to his proposal at first and he had been formulating arguments in his mind for almost all of the day, at least throughout the very dry graduation speech that he was almost positive was the same one that the head teacher had given when he was a student at the school. Oh he knew that Kazu loved him but he also knew that Masahiko was important and this was a big decision. He had accepted that Kazu would want to talk things over with Masahiko first and he knew that Masahiko would have told him to be cautious but to do what made him happy.

“Are you happy?” He wondered aloud to his sleeping lover who had pretty much crashed into oblivion after three orgasms. A whimpering moan came out of Nino’s throat and he decided to take it as a yes. He was certainly a lot more assured of their relationship than he had given him credit for. It might be selfish of him but he was glad that Kazuko and Jun hadn’t been the ones that had brought up their son. Kazu would have still been beautiful he was sure of that but the spark that he had, the thing that made Ohno love him wasn’t his looks but something else, something much deeper. It was the same thing that he had tried to show in all of the paintings that he had done of the man that was nestled up against him. Something that he had gotten from the Aiba’s. “You make me happy…You tie me down little fairy but…For some reason when I’m with you I feel freer than I ever have before…” Ohno sighed wishing that he could explain it to even himself but it was such a strange thing. “Before it was just a manic thing…Running around like a headless chicken wanting something that I couldn’t put my name on…Now I realise quite clearly that all I’ve ever wanted was somebody like you…I have never shared this with anyone else before but when I was in hospital, it got to the point that I wanted to die…The pain was so intense, I couldn’t move without throwing up and day in day out I had to pretend that I wanted to fight what was in my head…” Ohno paused again aware that Kazu had woken up but was still pretending to be asleep and he was thankful knowing that he wouldn’t be able to finish saying what he was if Kazu was looking at him “But in reality I wanted to scream at it to hurry up and finish me off…On the worst of those days I fell asleep and I had a dream…I remember it because I couldn’t dream…I couldn’t do anything but think about what was happening in my head but that day I dreamt…Would you believe me little fairy that I dreamt about you? Just a glimpse of you sitting on your pedestal when you allowed me to paint you but it was enough…I think I sent myself that dream, fairy…Just to let me know that everything would be okay…”

“…Un…Do you always talk to me when I’m asleep?” Kazu asked sleepily looking up at him know his eyes shiny with tears and Ohno chuckled allowing his lips to ghost over his forehead

“Only when I say things like that…I love you fairy…”

“I love you, Sato…”

TBC
A/N: Hmm…I hope that this is okay ^_^