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Mr 6:35 part 62
Sakurai and Yamapi stared at the table that was almost groaning under the dishes that were on top of it. It looked fine and edible but they were still worried, or at least Sakurai was Yamapi was looking completely calm and composed though the smear of soy sauce over his cheek and chin ruined the affect somewhat. They had tried their best and had gone so far as to calling up Aiba’s father begging him to give advice. Sakurai had been surprised at how happy the man had been to help him staying on the line for an hour going over everything that he could possibly ever need to know even though he must have been busy himself.
Thankfully with Yamapi being with him he hadn’t managed to burn the place down and he had gotten almost giddy when pulled out the stuffed chicken pancakes out of the oven and they were only slightly brown but smelt amazing.
“I think he’s going to be impressed…They’ll be back in a minute…Want a beer?” Yamapi asked grapping one from the collection at the side of the table and Sho nodded with a thankful smile.
“Thanks…And thanks for the um…Well you know…” He said blushing brightly as he took off the lid and moved to the bench where he and Aiba made everything seem small. He had wanted to go to the house today, flushed with the success of last night, but panic had gotten to him once again and he had spent most of the morning here making things seem small and practice the meditation that he had learned with his lover. He had no doubt that Aiba would make their new garden into a paradise but he couldn’t deny that he was going to miss this place when they were gone.
“Did they come in handy?” Yamapi chuckled coming to sit beside him his legs crossing and he leant back against the bench looking up at the stars in the sky. Sakurai flushed just a little at the question and gave a nod swallowing down more of his beer.
“Yeah…Though Masaki was a little angry that I was taking drugs just to…Um…Sleep with him…”
“Of course he was…I did tell you to talk about it with him first…But I promise there would be no side effects…”
“Yeah…Well we’ve decided to go without them…” Sakurai mumbled regretting bringing the subject up, they had managed to get through the rest of the day without mentioning it once and now he was just feeling embarrassed “But…Thanks…It was good…”
“You really should just be thanking yourself, you know?” Yamapi chuckled swigging on his beer before explaining himself “It was just a placebo…A sugar pill…”
“What?!” Sakurai half shouted his mind filled with images of his stamina last night wondering how all that could have just been because of a placebo. He had felt so much calmer able to please Aiba in ways that he had only ever been able to dream about how could that have been just a placebo?
“Sorry…You needed something to relax you so I gave it to you…” The young doctor shrugged looking completely oblivious to the thoughts and confusion that was running around and around in Sakurai’s head “But I promise you that whatever you did last night was all you…There was nothing in those pills that you wouldn’t find in a tic-tac…”
“I…You…But…I was so much calmer…There had to have been something…” He whispered unable to believe that what had happened last night was the result of a sugar pill and Yamapi gave another warm sounding chuckle gulping at his beer once more before getting up from the bench and pacing a little in front of him as he gave a small lecture looking like he was preparing for life as a teacher;
“Your issues wasn’t physical, Sho, it was mental…You are so worried about under preforming that you made yourself under preform…I gave you something that took away that, you felt for sure that the pill would work so it did…But I promise you that it was all you…So…Congratulations…”
“How could you be sure that it was all just mental…?”
“Because I’ve seen your medical files…I knew that there wasn’t anything physically wrong with you, I also knew that it was a long time before you had been with anybody on a physical level and I suspected that you…You haven’t wanked in some time…” Yamapi mumbled with a shrug his hands moving a little as he talked and Sakurai had to admit that what he said made sense, or at least right up until that last sentence and he managed to ask;
“How did get that from my medical records?”
“I didn’t, I got that from the way you hate yourself…You have started letting us see your face and you allowed me and the doctor to see your back…But…I know that you hate mirrors and any kind of reflection…” The younger man told him in a now gentle voice causing Sakurai to stiffen and blush, he was starting to get used to mirrors now, he didn’t spend a lot of time ogling himself but he could look at his reflection long enough to comb his hair and put on his creams but he hadn’t managed to stand naked in the full length mirror and see the extent of the scars. He imagined Aiba being there when he did, whispering in that husky voice of his how much he loved him and that none of it mattered in their relationship, “So from all of that I could easily imagine that you haven’t been interested in any kind of self-love for a while…”
“I still haven’t…I haven’t had much need, Masaki is…Always ready to…Touch me…” Sakurai mumbled carefully, always ready to protect himself if Yamapi wanted to pull a face or say something like it was gross. He supposed that it was possible that people would find it disgusting that he was sleeping with their friend but the doctor seemed to be completely at ease with it and just grinned at him with a wink saying;
“The honeymoon stage is always fun but you should try having some arguments…Make up sex is still the best…Toma is always a little more aggressive when we’ve been arguing…Not over anything serious but…You know stuff like forgetting to wash up or not tidying the bathroom…Little arguments...They can lead to a whole lot of fun…”
“…I’ll bear that in mind…” Sakurai chuckled surprised that he was there sharing banter and guy talk the way that he had in college before the accident. There had been a point in his life not so long ago that he had thought that it would never happen, hell he had been convinced that Yamapi and Toma were only putting up with him for Aiba but now…Now it felt as if he was really just one of the guys again.
“Be sure you do…” Yamapi grinned again before changing the subject completely “You into football?”
“…Yeah...A little…” Sakurai admitted thinking about the team that he used to be involved in “I haven’t really followed a game or a team in a while though…”
“When you’ve had your surgery and your over protective lover lets you out, we’ll have to go to a game…None of the others are really into it…I can normally drag Toma with me but…” With a pained expression on his face Yamapi gave an awkward little gesture “…I would rather it be somebody that was actually interested…So what do you say?”
“Um…Sure…I’ll try at least…” Sakurai agreed reluctantly remembering his earlier panic attack that had prevented him from going to his how earlier.
“You’ll do it…”
“Do what?” Aiba’s impossibly bright voice called out across the garden and automatically, like a pet dog, Sakurai turned to look at his lover his heart getting faster as he saw the cutely flushed face and the dazzling sparkle that seemed to be permanently in his lover’s eyes.
“Welcome home…”
“I’m home…Wow! Did you do all this?” Aiba gasped looking at the table as the rest of the group of friends came into the garden behind him.
“We…And your dad did…” Sakurai admitted getting up and hurrying over to the younger man his arms around his waist and his lips finding his neck “I called him for advice…I guess we should eat now…”
TBC
A/N: I know that Toma is probably more interested in football than Yamapi (He looks so hot in football gear) but I needed something to get Pi and Sakurai to bond so I picked that…I wanted Sho to have a friend in the main group and since the others were more Aiba’s friends and Jun is barely in this fic (Sorry Jun) it was Pi that became the lucky guy…Um I hope that this is okay ^_^
Thankfully with Yamapi being with him he hadn’t managed to burn the place down and he had gotten almost giddy when pulled out the stuffed chicken pancakes out of the oven and they were only slightly brown but smelt amazing.
“I think he’s going to be impressed…They’ll be back in a minute…Want a beer?” Yamapi asked grapping one from the collection at the side of the table and Sho nodded with a thankful smile.
“Thanks…And thanks for the um…Well you know…” He said blushing brightly as he took off the lid and moved to the bench where he and Aiba made everything seem small. He had wanted to go to the house today, flushed with the success of last night, but panic had gotten to him once again and he had spent most of the morning here making things seem small and practice the meditation that he had learned with his lover. He had no doubt that Aiba would make their new garden into a paradise but he couldn’t deny that he was going to miss this place when they were gone.
“Did they come in handy?” Yamapi chuckled coming to sit beside him his legs crossing and he leant back against the bench looking up at the stars in the sky. Sakurai flushed just a little at the question and gave a nod swallowing down more of his beer.
“Yeah…Though Masaki was a little angry that I was taking drugs just to…Um…Sleep with him…”
“Of course he was…I did tell you to talk about it with him first…But I promise there would be no side effects…”
“Yeah…Well we’ve decided to go without them…” Sakurai mumbled regretting bringing the subject up, they had managed to get through the rest of the day without mentioning it once and now he was just feeling embarrassed “But…Thanks…It was good…”
“You really should just be thanking yourself, you know?” Yamapi chuckled swigging on his beer before explaining himself “It was just a placebo…A sugar pill…”
“What?!” Sakurai half shouted his mind filled with images of his stamina last night wondering how all that could have just been because of a placebo. He had felt so much calmer able to please Aiba in ways that he had only ever been able to dream about how could that have been just a placebo?
“Sorry…You needed something to relax you so I gave it to you…” The young doctor shrugged looking completely oblivious to the thoughts and confusion that was running around and around in Sakurai’s head “But I promise you that whatever you did last night was all you…There was nothing in those pills that you wouldn’t find in a tic-tac…”
“I…You…But…I was so much calmer…There had to have been something…” He whispered unable to believe that what had happened last night was the result of a sugar pill and Yamapi gave another warm sounding chuckle gulping at his beer once more before getting up from the bench and pacing a little in front of him as he gave a small lecture looking like he was preparing for life as a teacher;
“Your issues wasn’t physical, Sho, it was mental…You are so worried about under preforming that you made yourself under preform…I gave you something that took away that, you felt for sure that the pill would work so it did…But I promise you that it was all you…So…Congratulations…”
“How could you be sure that it was all just mental…?”
“Because I’ve seen your medical files…I knew that there wasn’t anything physically wrong with you, I also knew that it was a long time before you had been with anybody on a physical level and I suspected that you…You haven’t wanked in some time…” Yamapi mumbled with a shrug his hands moving a little as he talked and Sakurai had to admit that what he said made sense, or at least right up until that last sentence and he managed to ask;
“How did get that from my medical records?”
“I didn’t, I got that from the way you hate yourself…You have started letting us see your face and you allowed me and the doctor to see your back…But…I know that you hate mirrors and any kind of reflection…” The younger man told him in a now gentle voice causing Sakurai to stiffen and blush, he was starting to get used to mirrors now, he didn’t spend a lot of time ogling himself but he could look at his reflection long enough to comb his hair and put on his creams but he hadn’t managed to stand naked in the full length mirror and see the extent of the scars. He imagined Aiba being there when he did, whispering in that husky voice of his how much he loved him and that none of it mattered in their relationship, “So from all of that I could easily imagine that you haven’t been interested in any kind of self-love for a while…”
“I still haven’t…I haven’t had much need, Masaki is…Always ready to…Touch me…” Sakurai mumbled carefully, always ready to protect himself if Yamapi wanted to pull a face or say something like it was gross. He supposed that it was possible that people would find it disgusting that he was sleeping with their friend but the doctor seemed to be completely at ease with it and just grinned at him with a wink saying;
“The honeymoon stage is always fun but you should try having some arguments…Make up sex is still the best…Toma is always a little more aggressive when we’ve been arguing…Not over anything serious but…You know stuff like forgetting to wash up or not tidying the bathroom…Little arguments...They can lead to a whole lot of fun…”
“…I’ll bear that in mind…” Sakurai chuckled surprised that he was there sharing banter and guy talk the way that he had in college before the accident. There had been a point in his life not so long ago that he had thought that it would never happen, hell he had been convinced that Yamapi and Toma were only putting up with him for Aiba but now…Now it felt as if he was really just one of the guys again.
“Be sure you do…” Yamapi grinned again before changing the subject completely “You into football?”
“…Yeah...A little…” Sakurai admitted thinking about the team that he used to be involved in “I haven’t really followed a game or a team in a while though…”
“When you’ve had your surgery and your over protective lover lets you out, we’ll have to go to a game…None of the others are really into it…I can normally drag Toma with me but…” With a pained expression on his face Yamapi gave an awkward little gesture “…I would rather it be somebody that was actually interested…So what do you say?”
“Um…Sure…I’ll try at least…” Sakurai agreed reluctantly remembering his earlier panic attack that had prevented him from going to his how earlier.
“You’ll do it…”
“Do what?” Aiba’s impossibly bright voice called out across the garden and automatically, like a pet dog, Sakurai turned to look at his lover his heart getting faster as he saw the cutely flushed face and the dazzling sparkle that seemed to be permanently in his lover’s eyes.
“Welcome home…”
“I’m home…Wow! Did you do all this?” Aiba gasped looking at the table as the rest of the group of friends came into the garden behind him.
“We…And your dad did…” Sakurai admitted getting up and hurrying over to the younger man his arms around his waist and his lips finding his neck “I called him for advice…I guess we should eat now…”
TBC
A/N: I know that Toma is probably more interested in football than Yamapi (He looks so hot in football gear) but I needed something to get Pi and Sakurai to bond so I picked that…I wanted Sho to have a friend in the main group and since the others were more Aiba’s friends and Jun is barely in this fic (Sorry Jun) it was Pi that became the lucky guy…Um I hope that this is okay ^_^
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