krystalkatzficz | The Phone Call part eighteen

“Kazu…About earlier…I’m sorry…” Jun whispered in the dark to Nino’s back, wondering why he had bothered paying for two rooms when Nino had just messed up the bed and shower room in the second and then climbed into his bed anyway. Things had been tense between them though, throughout the meal Nino hadn’t been silent but he hadn’t been talkative either and just kept his eyes on the burger and brushed away any of Jun’s attempts to apologise to him. Even now he was tensing before his eyes as he pulled at the single cover forcing Jun to move closer so he wasn’t uncovered and exposed to the elements. His body brushed against Nino’s his hand sliding onto the hip and Nino gave a shaky sigh pressing his face into the softness of the pillow before he whispered in a muffled voice;

“It’s not your fault…You…You’ve been amazing…My head is messed up…”

“And it’s not your fault…” Jun pressed again determined to get that message across to his friend wanting him to believe him “It’s Yamamoto’s fault…He did this…”

“…Jun…Please…I just want to sleep…I don’t want to think about it right now…” Nino sighed again and rolled over burying his face into his chest his head tucked under his chin. Jun let out a sigh of his own wrapping his arms tightly around the smaller man their legs locking together snuggly.

“Fine…” He agreed reluctantly “Whenever you want to talk…”

“I’ll come to you…I promise…” Nino chuckled finishing his sentence for him and Jun gave a very small smile kissing the top of his head and breathing in the warm scent of his hair. It was possibly a creepy thing for him to do but he couldn’t help it. It was the same hotel brand of shampoo that he had used but somehow it smelt warmer and sweeter when it was on Nino’s hair “Did you just smell me?”

“…Yes…” Jun admitted flushing brightly as he tried to move back but Nino pressed forward pressing his hair into his nose again.

“Weirdo…” The older man mumbled slowly sounding sleepy but somehow managing to press his own nose into his neck and give a loud sniff “You smell like oranges…”

“You do too…” Jun shivered as the nose continued to move over the v of his exposed neck. It was a strange act but like a lot of the things that they had done it was oddly intimate and he could feel happy little tingles of pleasure breaking out over him in the form of goose pimples on his flesh and the stiffening nubs of his nipples. Nino didn’t seem to notice his body’s reaction though as he kept his nose and just the hint of his mouth grazing over the skin until he let out another sigh that was like furnace over his flushed skin almost causing him to whimper more so when Nino mumbled something almost incoherent that he had to strain to hear and was almost convinced that he had heard wrong.

“If only you were gay…”

“Hmm?” Jun hummed but only received a soft snore in answer though he couldn’t be sure if it was real or not. Nino’s arms tightened around his waist though, in the way that they always did when his friend was asleep, so Jun decided that he really was asleep. He settled down into the unfamiliar bed and closed his eyes glad that his brain shut down almost immediately and he was carried away into dream land.

The next morning he awoke to find Nino draped all over him like a second skin again and he gave a groggy smile lifting his hand up to pat at the knobbly back started when all he felt was smooth and warm skin not the cotton of the t-shirt that he had been expecting. A quick glance downward told him that Nino’s night shirt had ridden up in the night while his shorts had shifted down exposing more skin than he had done for a long time. Jun’s first instinct was to pull his hand away positive that there were laws about touching something so intimately in their sleep but even as he thought that his hand was moving over the skin the fingers ghosting over it until he touched something that felt strange. It was like the skin had been made softer and more silky he thought for a moment that it was a stretchmark but after running the pad of his finger over the shape he was surprised to find that it felt like an English letter J had been carved into Nino’s skin. Wanting to investigate further he pushed Nino to one side, smiling a little at the moan of protest he made, and sat up pulling his glasses onto his face so he could look at the small of his friends back surprised that sure enough there was a jagged scar in the shape of a J. It was about as long as his forefinger and almost as thick. It was paler than the rest of him but still lightly pink, a colour which vanished if he pressed on it for too long.

“He burned it into me…” Nino whispered causing him to jump on the bed his heart hammering against his ribs as Nino’s hand reached around and stroked the J before pulling down his t-shirt and sitting up “Five years ago…When I…Tried to leave him…”

“You tried to leave him before?”

“Yes…I…He had been very drunk…Even more so than normal and he accused me of cheating on him with Ohno…” Nino gave him a small smile before dropping his eyes to the bed and Jun remembered that that was when Ohno had been going through rehab and they had all taken it in turns to be with him. Nino had insisted on taking the most shifts refusing to be apart from his OhMiya partner for more than a day at the most. Jun remembered worrying about him then telling him that he was no good to anyone if he was just going to make himself sick, that he was too important to them all to not worry about himself. It had been the first time that Nino had ever cried on him holding him so tightly he thought he might suffocate. It was also around the time that he had started using his greeting to Nino, asking him if he was okay instead of saying hello. “He broke my collar bone…I thought I had to get out of there…It…It was the first time I ever thought that he really wanted to kill me…I ran but…Of course I couldn’t get very far…He rang me straight away…Apologising telling me that he would never do it again…And like an idiot I believed him and I went back…The next day he tied me to the bed and gave me that…”

“Why a…J?” Jun asked and Nino held his gaze for a full minute before he sighed and looked away gripping the bed sheets firmly in his hands as he muttered;

“…To…To remind me what I can’t have…”

“I…don’t understand…”

“Jun…Please…Please don’t push this…Please…Just…Just be here okay? Just be you?” Nino begged a fat tear forming in his eye and clinging to his eyelash in a perfect oval before it felt running down the slightly sleep wrinkled cheek. It was almost like a scene from a movie but it was even more breath taking in real life and without knowing what he was doing Jun reached out and caught the tear before he rolled off of his cheek. It died on his finger tip seemingly soaking into his skin before he whispered;

“I will always be me…And I will always be there for you…I promise…”

“Thank-you…” Nino replied shakily giving a very small hiccup before his cheeks turned pink and he gave a weak embarrassed smile. Jun bit on his lip processing and placing everything together and realising that there was a very real chance that he had gotten the phone call because Nino loved him.

TBC
A/N: Jun’s twigged ne…I really hope that this part was okay!