The Winner Takes it All part 6

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

Nino didn't have to have time to even try and find the answer that day. The moment he went downstairs to the moment that he crawled his way back to the apartment he was rushed off of his feet. The good news was he didn't have to think about Sakurai or Jun but the bad news was that every muscle in his body was aching with a slow a steady hum that didn't even leave when he sank down onto the comfortable and stylish sofa. He grabbed the remote from the small wooden table flicking on the 50 inch TV. It was just one of the many extravagances that Jun allowed him here in this apartment even if it was rare that Nino was allowed to actually watch what he wanted on it. As it was Thursday it was one of those rare days but he was so tired that he knew that he wasn't going to be able to enjoy it…then again he wouldn't have been able to enjoy it anyway as his mind was still in so much turmoil over Sakurai. He had seen him again that day peering in through the window trying to get his attention but he had ignored him the best that he could until Jun had gotten the bouncers to remove him. Something inside was telling him that he should talk to him if only so he could hear him out but she knew that he wasn't strong enough for that yet.

Letting out a long drawn out sigh he tried to focus on the pictures that were flashing on the screen but having no luck. With a sigh he switched the TV back off and sat in silence for a minute cursing his mind for not allowing his body to switch off. The only way he knew that he was going to get any peace that night was the package he knew that but it had been so long since he had last needed it and he knew that if he went through with it now he would he disappointed in himself later.  He stood up and took a shaky breath heading into Jun’s bedroom.
A soft warm slightly peppery scent reached his nostrils as he pushed open the door. Jun’s room was much larger than his own with a big leather bed that took up most of the floor space and inbuilt wardrobes that lined the sides. The package was right where he knew it would be, in the bedside table, and without hesitating he sat on the bed and pulled it out of the cloth wrapping.it wasn't long before he felt something hard land on his legs and he looked down at it.

A mirror small with a cheap plastic yellow and purple rim around the edge. It was a strange tool but one that he had found effective. Bringing the mirror up he stared that the pale face that was reflected back at him. He looked worse than he had that morning but for some reason his eyes were strangely alert and bright. It was always the same for him when it came to this. Jun had tried many methods to try any help him. Artificial drugs, sterile knives to cut himself but this was the most effective. They had discovered it together when he had smashed up a mirror in the bathroom, he had found it elevating to destroy his image and when he had felt the overwhelming sense of helplessness raise up inside him again Jun had produced the first of the handheld mirrors.

Scars covered his knuckles but it was worth it for the peace that it brought him. He bunched his hand up now staring at the reflection his mind swimming with pictures of Sakurai all of the feelings from three years ago coming up racing through his body and then inexplicably he thought about Jun and hot chocolate.

TBC
A/N: I hope that this was okay…and I hope that this explains the package ^_^

Comments

[gambitsfox.livejournal.com]

Yes, it does. Will the thought of Jun and hot chocolate be enough this time? And why is Sho stalking him? Did his girl leave him or did he realize she didn't do it for him? So interesting! : )

[leiva21]

"Artificial drugs, sterile knives to cut himself" >>> woah that's pretty heavy. Poor Nino :(
And what is Sho doing?