Mr 6:35 part 12
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krystalkatzficz"You were bullied?" Sakurai asked as they sat on the bench overlooking the streets. They had been playing a game of car bingo calling out all of the cars that they could see forgetting about what had happened in the store while finishing off the bottle of wine from last night. Aiba tensed just a little bit but managed to let out a laugh before sighing and giving a nod.
"I guess that Nino told you?" He hummed making a mental note to punish Nino for it later when he saw the nod of confirmation from the other man. Knowing that there was no point or even reason to hide it he gave another nod sipping slowly at his wine before saying "Yeah it happened a lot when I was younger and then again when I was a teenager..."
"Why? Who could find fault with you?" Sakurai asked in bewilderment and Aiba let out a laugh resting his head on his sloped shoulder watching the cars humming passed the building. It was weird that something like that could make him so happy. The absolute faith that Sakurai in him being the most wonderful person in the planet. He had noticed that before, when they were just friends, little looks that made him feel as if he was standing on a pedestal and sometimes it terrified him that he would fall from it but most of the time it just made him want to make sure that he was worthy of being there.
"Lots of people..." He answered hugging his arm his mind reeling with all of the memories. There had been so many people that were bullying him that he couldn't remember names or even their faces. "...I'm not perfect Sho-chan...People have things that they don't like about me, my voice...the way I look...the fact that I found lessons hard...I still do, to be honest, but it just means I have to work harder..."
"...why didn't you let it...bother you?" Sakurai asked and Aiba shrugged while at the same shaking his head from side to side. It had hurt him, every time he had felt a spit wad land in his hair or somebody punch him in the back it had broken his heart but in his case he knew that it was going to get better. He had Nino to mess around with, his brother, and his parents for what he had learned about Sakurai he had nobody but his grandma and she when she had passed he must have been left all on his own with nothing but the memories.
"It did...it hurt a lot...but I'm different from you Sho-chan you only had your grandma I had my family and Nino...” He said hoping that that wouldn’t be taken the wrong way. It didn’t seem to be when Sakurai rolled his shoulders mumbling;
"I guess” Aiba looked up watching him press his fingers to the plain side of his face whispering very slowly “Before…I was popular...you know? People thought I was handsome...smart...Everybody wanted to date me…”
Aiba was surprised to find himself tensing at that jealousy rushing through him like a bullet, he could easily imagine Sakurai without the scars and he could see how people would think that he was attractive. He still thought that he was attractive with the scars but without them he didn’t even want to think about all of the people that he would have had to fight off. He fought it back that though hearing the bitter tone that was in his boyfriend’s voice and he kissed the scarred cheek and the barely there ear whispering softly;
"You're still handsome and smart Sho-chan..."
"People other than you wouldn't think that..."
"Good then you'll be all mine forever...” Aiba laughed nervously his heart fluttering against his ribs so much that it was almost nauseating. “Nobody will take you away from me…”
“Nobody is crazy enough to want me…” Sakurai grumbled looking embarrassed as he squeezed his hand and Aiba smiled trailing his fingers up and down the scarred hand playing with the joined fingers. It was a strange thing to see but he found it oddly beautiful and cute. Without thinking he brought the hand up and kissed the join surprised when Sakurai said “Thank-you…”
“What for?” he frowned his head tilting to one side the hand still pressed to his lips. Sakurai chuckled bringing his other hand around to cup his face stroking him gently with the very lightest of touches on his cheek as he answered;
“…For…Defending me…Punching that guy…And cheering me up…But mostly for not letting me go tonight…If I had it would have been the biggest mistake I could have made...”
“Sho-chan…” Aiba smiled kissing the hand again “This…It’s new for us both ne? And…We’re both going to make mistakes…But we’ll get free…And that man…He didn’t know what he was talking about though you’re not ugly…I wish I could get you to see you the way I do…I think you’re beautiful…”
“…Masaki…I…Will never…”
“Oh look BMW! Bingo!” Aiba called excitedly getting to his feet and pointing frantically at the car by the traffic lights near them not wanting to hear Sakurai put himself down again. He turned back to face Sakurai leaning against the wall his arms folding across his chest and studying him for a minute or two before letting out a sigh “Sho-chan if I became like you would you still be interested in me? If my face was like yours…”
“Masaki…This…I can’t answer…”
“So…Do you only like me for my face? People tell me that I’m beautiful…But I’m not…I look like my mum but she’s prettier than me…If I didn’t have this face…” Aiba sighed sadly while giving a twisted smile, he didn’t want to be too cruel but he did have a point that he was trying to make. They hadn’t been dating long, they’d only had their first date yesterday but he already knew that he wanted this to be long term and that wouldn’t happen if Sakurai didn’t believe that he didn’t care about his face. “And if you do think I’m beautiful and you only care about my face then…What will happen when I’m old and I have wrinkles?”
“…Your smile…” Sakurai muttered quickly and reluctantly “The reason I liked you…Was because of your smile, not because of your face…I thought you were an angel, you smiled at me when nobody had smiled at me for so long…If you had my face I would be afraid that you would never smile…”
“I would, I would still smile Sho-chan because you were there with me” Aiba told him slowly knowing that was easier to say than to prove “…I…I fancied you even when I didn’t know what you looked like and I still fancy you now that I do know...”
“You’re strange…” Sakurai mumbled his cheeks a very deep blood red in the dark but Aiba could see that he was smiling as much as he was.
“I get that a lot…" he whistled before letting out a frustrated groan pulling on his hair "Urgh! This didn’t go the way that I wanted it to! I wanted to tell you that I care about you and that I don’t care what anyone else thinks...."
"Masaki....thank-you..." Sakurai swallowed deeply his eyes on him for a long time before both of their stomachs began to growl like angry caged lions. As if they were both timed to do so both men blushed a little giving small laughs.
“Come on Sho-chan let’s get food!” Aiba said cheerfully after his laughter had subsided marching over to the bench and taking Sakurai’s hand pulling him to his feet as he thought about what was in the fridge. There wasn’t much he had been meaning to his shopping after his shift had ended tonight. That stupid guy, why couldn’t he have stayed away? “I wonder if they’re okay at the store…” he mused to himself as they walked through the garden and to the door that led back downstairs.
“Um…Was Ohno-san angry about the punch?” The older man asked uncomfortably again and Aiba shook his head flashing him a quick reassuring smile as he answered;
“Nope…Well not with me…Ohno-san doesn’t tolerate his staff feeling uncomfortable so he’ll handle it…That guy won’t go near the store again…So you have to make sure you come again…”
“…You’re afraid of him?”
“…Sometimes…Being with Nino has mellowed him out but…He he’s always been a scary person…” Aiba admitted remembering himself as a young child watching as Ohno beat up somebody that had been stalking a very young and cute Nino. By the end of it there had barely been anything of the person left to send to the hospital. He knew that Ohno was only looking out for Nino even then but it had been a scary sight “But a nice one…Come on…Let’s see what we can rustle up!”
TBC
A/N: I hope that this was okay ^_^
"I guess that Nino told you?" He hummed making a mental note to punish Nino for it later when he saw the nod of confirmation from the other man. Knowing that there was no point or even reason to hide it he gave another nod sipping slowly at his wine before saying "Yeah it happened a lot when I was younger and then again when I was a teenager..."
"Why? Who could find fault with you?" Sakurai asked in bewilderment and Aiba let out a laugh resting his head on his sloped shoulder watching the cars humming passed the building. It was weird that something like that could make him so happy. The absolute faith that Sakurai in him being the most wonderful person in the planet. He had noticed that before, when they were just friends, little looks that made him feel as if he was standing on a pedestal and sometimes it terrified him that he would fall from it but most of the time it just made him want to make sure that he was worthy of being there.
"Lots of people..." He answered hugging his arm his mind reeling with all of the memories. There had been so many people that were bullying him that he couldn't remember names or even their faces. "...I'm not perfect Sho-chan...People have things that they don't like about me, my voice...the way I look...the fact that I found lessons hard...I still do, to be honest, but it just means I have to work harder..."
"...why didn't you let it...bother you?" Sakurai asked and Aiba shrugged while at the same shaking his head from side to side. It had hurt him, every time he had felt a spit wad land in his hair or somebody punch him in the back it had broken his heart but in his case he knew that it was going to get better. He had Nino to mess around with, his brother, and his parents for what he had learned about Sakurai he had nobody but his grandma and she when she had passed he must have been left all on his own with nothing but the memories.
"It did...it hurt a lot...but I'm different from you Sho-chan you only had your grandma I had my family and Nino...” He said hoping that that wouldn’t be taken the wrong way. It didn’t seem to be when Sakurai rolled his shoulders mumbling;
"I guess” Aiba looked up watching him press his fingers to the plain side of his face whispering very slowly “Before…I was popular...you know? People thought I was handsome...smart...Everybody wanted to date me…”
Aiba was surprised to find himself tensing at that jealousy rushing through him like a bullet, he could easily imagine Sakurai without the scars and he could see how people would think that he was attractive. He still thought that he was attractive with the scars but without them he didn’t even want to think about all of the people that he would have had to fight off. He fought it back that though hearing the bitter tone that was in his boyfriend’s voice and he kissed the scarred cheek and the barely there ear whispering softly;
"You're still handsome and smart Sho-chan..."
"People other than you wouldn't think that..."
"Good then you'll be all mine forever...” Aiba laughed nervously his heart fluttering against his ribs so much that it was almost nauseating. “Nobody will take you away from me…”
“Nobody is crazy enough to want me…” Sakurai grumbled looking embarrassed as he squeezed his hand and Aiba smiled trailing his fingers up and down the scarred hand playing with the joined fingers. It was a strange thing to see but he found it oddly beautiful and cute. Without thinking he brought the hand up and kissed the join surprised when Sakurai said “Thank-you…”
“What for?” he frowned his head tilting to one side the hand still pressed to his lips. Sakurai chuckled bringing his other hand around to cup his face stroking him gently with the very lightest of touches on his cheek as he answered;
“…For…Defending me…Punching that guy…And cheering me up…But mostly for not letting me go tonight…If I had it would have been the biggest mistake I could have made...”
“Sho-chan…” Aiba smiled kissing the hand again “This…It’s new for us both ne? And…We’re both going to make mistakes…But we’ll get free…And that man…He didn’t know what he was talking about though you’re not ugly…I wish I could get you to see you the way I do…I think you’re beautiful…”
“…Masaki…I…Will never…”
“Oh look BMW! Bingo!” Aiba called excitedly getting to his feet and pointing frantically at the car by the traffic lights near them not wanting to hear Sakurai put himself down again. He turned back to face Sakurai leaning against the wall his arms folding across his chest and studying him for a minute or two before letting out a sigh “Sho-chan if I became like you would you still be interested in me? If my face was like yours…”
“Masaki…This…I can’t answer…”
“So…Do you only like me for my face? People tell me that I’m beautiful…But I’m not…I look like my mum but she’s prettier than me…If I didn’t have this face…” Aiba sighed sadly while giving a twisted smile, he didn’t want to be too cruel but he did have a point that he was trying to make. They hadn’t been dating long, they’d only had their first date yesterday but he already knew that he wanted this to be long term and that wouldn’t happen if Sakurai didn’t believe that he didn’t care about his face. “And if you do think I’m beautiful and you only care about my face then…What will happen when I’m old and I have wrinkles?”
“…Your smile…” Sakurai muttered quickly and reluctantly “The reason I liked you…Was because of your smile, not because of your face…I thought you were an angel, you smiled at me when nobody had smiled at me for so long…If you had my face I would be afraid that you would never smile…”
“I would, I would still smile Sho-chan because you were there with me” Aiba told him slowly knowing that was easier to say than to prove “…I…I fancied you even when I didn’t know what you looked like and I still fancy you now that I do know...”
“You’re strange…” Sakurai mumbled his cheeks a very deep blood red in the dark but Aiba could see that he was smiling as much as he was.
“I get that a lot…" he whistled before letting out a frustrated groan pulling on his hair "Urgh! This didn’t go the way that I wanted it to! I wanted to tell you that I care about you and that I don’t care what anyone else thinks...."
"Masaki....thank-you..." Sakurai swallowed deeply his eyes on him for a long time before both of their stomachs began to growl like angry caged lions. As if they were both timed to do so both men blushed a little giving small laughs.
“Come on Sho-chan let’s get food!” Aiba said cheerfully after his laughter had subsided marching over to the bench and taking Sakurai’s hand pulling him to his feet as he thought about what was in the fridge. There wasn’t much he had been meaning to his shopping after his shift had ended tonight. That stupid guy, why couldn’t he have stayed away? “I wonder if they’re okay at the store…” he mused to himself as they walked through the garden and to the door that led back downstairs.
“Um…Was Ohno-san angry about the punch?” The older man asked uncomfortably again and Aiba shook his head flashing him a quick reassuring smile as he answered;
“Nope…Well not with me…Ohno-san doesn’t tolerate his staff feeling uncomfortable so he’ll handle it…That guy won’t go near the store again…So you have to make sure you come again…”
“…You’re afraid of him?”
“…Sometimes…Being with Nino has mellowed him out but…He he’s always been a scary person…” Aiba admitted remembering himself as a young child watching as Ohno beat up somebody that had been stalking a very young and cute Nino. By the end of it there had barely been anything of the person left to send to the hospital. He knew that Ohno was only looking out for Nino even then but it had been a scary sight “But a nice one…Come on…Let’s see what we can rustle up!”
TBC
A/N: I hope that this was okay ^_^
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Date: 2014-10-01 10:10 am (UTC)thank you!!
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Date: 2014-10-01 01:31 pm (UTC)Sho's right his smile 's so cute!!
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Date: 2014-10-02 09:56 am (UTC):D Aiba's smile makes the world a better place ne :D
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