The Reason part 3 of 4
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krystalkatzficz“Are you sure you want me to come in with you?” Sho asked as they stood looking up at the house and Nino grabbed his hand holding it tight afraid that his lover would walk away. He had listened to Jun and asked Sho to come with him to the Ohno's. They had made it as far as their front gate but hadn't been able to get any further. He knew that the older couple knew that he was there as he had seen them looking at him through the window but neither had come out yet.
"Don't leave me Sho, please..."
"I'm going nowhere, Kazu..." Sho told him and Nino nodded sucking up a little more courage to step on to the well maintain led path. It was all eerily the same, with the swing still in the front garden, shiny and new looking, and Nino wondered if Ohno's sister's children used it now trying to get over the main bar like Ohno had.
The walk up the path was slow but they eventually made it to the front door and he rang the bell. The first dong had barly ended when the door was being pulled open and the Ohno's were standing in front of him. They were older and whiter than he remembered and their backs had taken on the curved spine that only old people seemed to have. Their smiles were just as friendly though and when they spoke Nino felt like a teenager again about to ask if Ohno was there.
"Nino-kun! How lovely to see you!" They said together and Nino smiled weakly holding out a gift still feeling sick.
"I'm sorry, that it's been so long..."
"We understand come on in..."
"Ah...I wanted to introduce you...um..." Nino floundered for a minute cursing Jun for making him do this wondering if they were going to hate him for bringing Sho
"Sakurai Sho...I'm a friend of Nino's..." Sho introduced himself giving the older couple bows that were returned with knowing smiles.
"Nice to meet you, Sakurai-san...Come on in..."
All four trooped into the living room where tea and snacks had already been prepared and the older woman smiled at his look motioning for them to sit.
"Jun-kun phoned us and told us you would be visiting today though we weren't expecting you to hover in the garden..." She said and Nino felt his cheeks burn with embarrassment.
"I'm sorry...I should have come to see you sooner...I..."
"You took as long as you needed...but we are glad to see you...always...along with Sakurai-kun..." Ohno's father told him in the same sleepy tone his son used as he poured the tea out. They made small talk for a while and then the older man smiled gently saying "...we have something for you...from Satoshi..."
"I don't..." Nino stammered unsure what to say to that.
"It's a video...One that he made for you while he was in hospital..." Nino blinked slowly unable to believe what he was hearing, he had thought that there was maybe a letter, a few hurried lines but not a video "He made me promise that no matter how long it took I had to give it to you...if you would prefer or you can watch it here...it's on VHS...I'm not sure if you have one..."
"No...we don't..." Nino answered quickly torn between hope and fear that he would be able to see his lover again.
"there's one in Satoshi's old room...if you like..." He was told and Nino's neck almost snapped in two hope outweighing the bad feelings and soon enough he and Sho were being ushered upstairs and into the room that he remembered well. It was completely different now though, it seemed to have been consumed by Ohno's father with tv systems and and computers. On the desk was an old video that was already half way into a TV VHS combo tv. "Just push it in and press play..." He was told and he and Sho were all alone in the room sitting at the desk and staring at the VHS.
The time ticked by in silence until, with trembling hands, he pushed it in and pressed the play button and almost immediately it flickered into life. Nino gave a loud gasp as he saw his lover sitting in the middle of an over sized hospital bed that he didn't recognise and he knew that this must have been after he had left him.
"Hey...Kazu…” The raspy pained voice of his lover filled his ears and Nino felt the tears well up and he stiffened swallowing down the lump that had formed and was cutting off his oxygen supply. “I guess I died ne…I wonder how long it took for you to come and get this…”
“A long time, I’m sorry Oh-chan…” Nino whispered softly sniffing back a tear glad when he felt Sho’s hand come down and take his playing around with his fingertips. The on screen Ohno gave a smile his head nodding the best that he could with his weak body as he whispered;
“I’m sorry too, Kazu…”
“Huh?” Nino gasped in surprise he eyes blowing wide as his mouth dropped open in an ‘O’ of surprise.
“I know…what you would say! I know you…So don’t apologise...” Ohno laughed before breaking off as he started to cough his hand moving over his chest and Nino had to admit that he didn’t miss that cough, even hearing the painful rattle now filled him with fear and he squeezed Sho’s fingers to almost breaking point. Blood was clinging to his lip when he looked back up and a hand, one that Nino knew was Ohno’s father, darted out wiping the blood away. “Sorry…About that…” Ohno breathed smiling again “Don’t look so worried…I know you will be but I promise I’m okay…”
“You’re an idiot Satoshi…He was you know…” Nino mumbled to Sho who shuffled a tiny bit closer to him looking apprehensive about doing so but Nino, unsatisfied with the space between them tugged on his hand drawing him closer to him not ashamed of having there.
“He seems to be very brave…” Sho whispered and Nino nodded Ohno had been brave and had taken everything that had been thrown at him with a dignity and bravery that was remarkable in somebody so young. He had never cursed his fate or questioned why me? Or at least never in front of him, he knew that he'd broken down more than once. He had heard his lover crying through the walls of the hospital and in this very room but never in front of him.
“Yeah but he was still an idiot…” Nino mumbled in response to his new lover who was just as incredible but in a different way.
“…Kazu…You’re happy now right? Please tell me you are…” Ohno’s voice said pulling their attention back to the TV screen and Nino noticed that the camera had moved closer showing more of the handsome face. His skin was still dark but Nino could see from where it was patchy around his neck and eyes that it was dark make-up over deathly white. His cheeks were even less chubby than when he had seen him last in the room that he was in now. The room he had just left him sleeping in bed. “…I didn’t want to leave you like that you know…I just knew that I didn’t want you to have to see me like…Well like I am now…”
“So why make the video old man?”
“I guess now you’re wondering why I made the video? Because I got to the hospital and…I realised that I was being selfish, that you might need me to say goodbye…Jun would say that I need to give you closure…He’s right! No matter how much you deny it just because it’s Jun that said it!”
“I wasn’t going to deny it, we’re friends now after all…” Nino mumbled with a chuckle remembering how frustrated Ohno would get by the fact they had taken an instant dislike to each other. He would be amazed at how friendly they had become now but there had been no other option after the death of his lover he needed something to cling to and as he couldn’t bring himself to come back here Jun had been the only option and he had been amazed at how different he was to the person he had created inside his head.
“I wonder how long it’s been now for you watching this…Since I died…Are you with somebody else?" Ohno asked with a thoughtful hum and Nino looked up at Sho who gave him a smile squeezing his fingers "I hope you are…Well I don’t because I’m selfish now but…I will then…You’re time…I mean I would rather you didn’t forget me completely..."
"Not possible..." Nino whispered his eyes going back to the screen again another lump forming in his throat as he tried to pull his hand free but Sho held it fast their fingers linking in a calm and soothing way.
"No...you wouldn't forget me but…I wish that just because you loved me when I was alive you won't not love anyone else...there is somebody in your life now, taking care of you...while you're taking care of them...They're lucky to have you Kazu and if they don't realise it then I promise that I'll haunt him..."
"I realise it Ohno-San, I promise..." Sho murmured his voice thick with emotions that almost caused Nino to blush wondering just what he had done to be worthy of being blessed with both of these men in his life.
“There’s only one thing left for me to say…The real reason that I am making this video...I should have told you before, I don’t know why I didn’t…I wish I could have seen the expression on your face…"
"Oh-chan..." Nino breathed his heart stopping inside his chest as he realised what was coming. Blood rushed and gathered in his brain feeling like it was behind his eyes and his mouth was dry. Unable to look away his burning eyes never left the screen as suddenly he was hearing the words that he had longed to hear for 11 years
"I love you, Kazu, I’ve always loved you and I always will…” Ohno breathed and all Nino's control broke and his tear flowed thick and freely down his cheeks.
“Oh…Satoshi…You idiot…Why…?”
“I am an idiot, ne? I kept telling myself that I didn't tell you that to your face because I didn't want it to hurt you but the truth was...I knew that if I did...I would be angry...Angry that I couldn't have you...but that's why I'm an idiot...I had you wholly and completely even if it was for so short a time..." Ohno smiled obviously predicting what he would say yet again and Nino found him almost smiling along his free hand going to the TV trying to stroke his face but only meeting cold glass. Ohno’s smile faded and his eyes moved to the door that was positioned beside the bed a flash of pain in his eyes “I have to go now, the doctor is coming back…”
“Please don’t leave me…” Nino said without realising what was coming out of his mouth and the on screen Ohno shoot him a sympathetic look his head shaking from side to side and Nino that once again his words had been predicted and prepared for.
“I already have Kazu, I’m dead where you are but you’re not, you’re still alive and strong and I hope above all that you’re happy with somebody else, that he’s there with you…I love you so much…Thank-you for making what should have been the worst two years of my life the best…Goodbye Kazu…I love you..."
TBC
A/N: seriously I swear that this was meant to be the end but this bit with the video from Ohno just stretched out I really should learn how to make a one shot a one shot but Ohno finally told him ne...I have a lot of doubts about this part but for Nino to heal it was important so I hope you like it >.<
"Don't leave me Sho, please..."
"I'm going nowhere, Kazu..." Sho told him and Nino nodded sucking up a little more courage to step on to the well maintain led path. It was all eerily the same, with the swing still in the front garden, shiny and new looking, and Nino wondered if Ohno's sister's children used it now trying to get over the main bar like Ohno had.
The walk up the path was slow but they eventually made it to the front door and he rang the bell. The first dong had barly ended when the door was being pulled open and the Ohno's were standing in front of him. They were older and whiter than he remembered and their backs had taken on the curved spine that only old people seemed to have. Their smiles were just as friendly though and when they spoke Nino felt like a teenager again about to ask if Ohno was there.
"Nino-kun! How lovely to see you!" They said together and Nino smiled weakly holding out a gift still feeling sick.
"I'm sorry, that it's been so long..."
"We understand come on in..."
"Ah...I wanted to introduce you...um..." Nino floundered for a minute cursing Jun for making him do this wondering if they were going to hate him for bringing Sho
"Sakurai Sho...I'm a friend of Nino's..." Sho introduced himself giving the older couple bows that were returned with knowing smiles.
"Nice to meet you, Sakurai-san...Come on in..."
All four trooped into the living room where tea and snacks had already been prepared and the older woman smiled at his look motioning for them to sit.
"Jun-kun phoned us and told us you would be visiting today though we weren't expecting you to hover in the garden..." She said and Nino felt his cheeks burn with embarrassment.
"I'm sorry...I should have come to see you sooner...I..."
"You took as long as you needed...but we are glad to see you...always...along with Sakurai-kun..." Ohno's father told him in the same sleepy tone his son used as he poured the tea out. They made small talk for a while and then the older man smiled gently saying "...we have something for you...from Satoshi..."
"I don't..." Nino stammered unsure what to say to that.
"It's a video...One that he made for you while he was in hospital..." Nino blinked slowly unable to believe what he was hearing, he had thought that there was maybe a letter, a few hurried lines but not a video "He made me promise that no matter how long it took I had to give it to you...if you would prefer or you can watch it here...it's on VHS...I'm not sure if you have one..."
"No...we don't..." Nino answered quickly torn between hope and fear that he would be able to see his lover again.
"there's one in Satoshi's old room...if you like..." He was told and Nino's neck almost snapped in two hope outweighing the bad feelings and soon enough he and Sho were being ushered upstairs and into the room that he remembered well. It was completely different now though, it seemed to have been consumed by Ohno's father with tv systems and and computers. On the desk was an old video that was already half way into a TV VHS combo tv. "Just push it in and press play..." He was told and he and Sho were all alone in the room sitting at the desk and staring at the VHS.
The time ticked by in silence until, with trembling hands, he pushed it in and pressed the play button and almost immediately it flickered into life. Nino gave a loud gasp as he saw his lover sitting in the middle of an over sized hospital bed that he didn't recognise and he knew that this must have been after he had left him.
"Hey...Kazu…” The raspy pained voice of his lover filled his ears and Nino felt the tears well up and he stiffened swallowing down the lump that had formed and was cutting off his oxygen supply. “I guess I died ne…I wonder how long it took for you to come and get this…”
“A long time, I’m sorry Oh-chan…” Nino whispered softly sniffing back a tear glad when he felt Sho’s hand come down and take his playing around with his fingertips. The on screen Ohno gave a smile his head nodding the best that he could with his weak body as he whispered;
“I’m sorry too, Kazu…”
“Huh?” Nino gasped in surprise he eyes blowing wide as his mouth dropped open in an ‘O’ of surprise.
“I know…what you would say! I know you…So don’t apologise...” Ohno laughed before breaking off as he started to cough his hand moving over his chest and Nino had to admit that he didn’t miss that cough, even hearing the painful rattle now filled him with fear and he squeezed Sho’s fingers to almost breaking point. Blood was clinging to his lip when he looked back up and a hand, one that Nino knew was Ohno’s father, darted out wiping the blood away. “Sorry…About that…” Ohno breathed smiling again “Don’t look so worried…I know you will be but I promise I’m okay…”
“You’re an idiot Satoshi…He was you know…” Nino mumbled to Sho who shuffled a tiny bit closer to him looking apprehensive about doing so but Nino, unsatisfied with the space between them tugged on his hand drawing him closer to him not ashamed of having there.
“He seems to be very brave…” Sho whispered and Nino nodded Ohno had been brave and had taken everything that had been thrown at him with a dignity and bravery that was remarkable in somebody so young. He had never cursed his fate or questioned why me? Or at least never in front of him, he knew that he'd broken down more than once. He had heard his lover crying through the walls of the hospital and in this very room but never in front of him.
“Yeah but he was still an idiot…” Nino mumbled in response to his new lover who was just as incredible but in a different way.
“…Kazu…You’re happy now right? Please tell me you are…” Ohno’s voice said pulling their attention back to the TV screen and Nino noticed that the camera had moved closer showing more of the handsome face. His skin was still dark but Nino could see from where it was patchy around his neck and eyes that it was dark make-up over deathly white. His cheeks were even less chubby than when he had seen him last in the room that he was in now. The room he had just left him sleeping in bed. “…I didn’t want to leave you like that you know…I just knew that I didn’t want you to have to see me like…Well like I am now…”
“So why make the video old man?”
“I guess now you’re wondering why I made the video? Because I got to the hospital and…I realised that I was being selfish, that you might need me to say goodbye…Jun would say that I need to give you closure…He’s right! No matter how much you deny it just because it’s Jun that said it!”
“I wasn’t going to deny it, we’re friends now after all…” Nino mumbled with a chuckle remembering how frustrated Ohno would get by the fact they had taken an instant dislike to each other. He would be amazed at how friendly they had become now but there had been no other option after the death of his lover he needed something to cling to and as he couldn’t bring himself to come back here Jun had been the only option and he had been amazed at how different he was to the person he had created inside his head.
“I wonder how long it’s been now for you watching this…Since I died…Are you with somebody else?" Ohno asked with a thoughtful hum and Nino looked up at Sho who gave him a smile squeezing his fingers "I hope you are…Well I don’t because I’m selfish now but…I will then…You’re time…I mean I would rather you didn’t forget me completely..."
"Not possible..." Nino whispered his eyes going back to the screen again another lump forming in his throat as he tried to pull his hand free but Sho held it fast their fingers linking in a calm and soothing way.
"No...you wouldn't forget me but…I wish that just because you loved me when I was alive you won't not love anyone else...there is somebody in your life now, taking care of you...while you're taking care of them...They're lucky to have you Kazu and if they don't realise it then I promise that I'll haunt him..."
"I realise it Ohno-San, I promise..." Sho murmured his voice thick with emotions that almost caused Nino to blush wondering just what he had done to be worthy of being blessed with both of these men in his life.
“There’s only one thing left for me to say…The real reason that I am making this video...I should have told you before, I don’t know why I didn’t…I wish I could have seen the expression on your face…"
"Oh-chan..." Nino breathed his heart stopping inside his chest as he realised what was coming. Blood rushed and gathered in his brain feeling like it was behind his eyes and his mouth was dry. Unable to look away his burning eyes never left the screen as suddenly he was hearing the words that he had longed to hear for 11 years
"I love you, Kazu, I’ve always loved you and I always will…” Ohno breathed and all Nino's control broke and his tear flowed thick and freely down his cheeks.
“Oh…Satoshi…You idiot…Why…?”
“I am an idiot, ne? I kept telling myself that I didn't tell you that to your face because I didn't want it to hurt you but the truth was...I knew that if I did...I would be angry...Angry that I couldn't have you...but that's why I'm an idiot...I had you wholly and completely even if it was for so short a time..." Ohno smiled obviously predicting what he would say yet again and Nino found him almost smiling along his free hand going to the TV trying to stroke his face but only meeting cold glass. Ohno’s smile faded and his eyes moved to the door that was positioned beside the bed a flash of pain in his eyes “I have to go now, the doctor is coming back…”
“Please don’t leave me…” Nino said without realising what was coming out of his mouth and the on screen Ohno shoot him a sympathetic look his head shaking from side to side and Nino that once again his words had been predicted and prepared for.
“I already have Kazu, I’m dead where you are but you’re not, you’re still alive and strong and I hope above all that you’re happy with somebody else, that he’s there with you…I love you so much…Thank-you for making what should have been the worst two years of my life the best…Goodbye Kazu…I love you..."
TBC
A/N: seriously I swear that this was meant to be the end but this bit with the video from Ohno just stretched out I really should learn how to make a one shot a one shot but Ohno finally told him ne...I have a lot of doubts about this part but for Nino to heal it was important so I hope you like it >.<
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Date: 2014-05-18 09:59 am (UTC)I am just glad that finally Kazu can have his closure and that oh+Chan knew him so well to predict his answers!
Now Kazu can move on with Sho and be happy.
Thank you, you are the best and amazing writer!!!
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Date: 2014-05-19 10:10 am (UTC)Yup he finally heard the words that he wanted to hear and he can move on with Sho and they' can be happy ne xD
I'm happy you enjoy it xD
thanks for reading ^_^
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Date: 2014-05-18 10:02 am (UTC)I'm so sorry for Ohno ;o;
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Date: 2014-05-19 09:57 am (UTC)Yup he really wanted to be the one that loved Nino ne ><
Thanks for reading ^_^
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Date: 2014-05-18 10:13 am (UTC)Wonderful ! Perfect ! Saaaaddd !
I'm glad for Nino, he got these important words, and, Oh'chan has made
a gorgeous video.. He really know Nino, just in two years, more than Sho can do
in 7 years, not because he can't but.. Because for Nino it will never be the same with someone else.
Well.. I will Hug my "Divine" (cat), and cry again ;__;
Thank you for this amazing story,
See ya'
XOXO *sobs*
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Date: 2014-05-19 10:34 am (UTC)Yup he was able to hear them and he has the video to remind him that he was loved now he can move on with Sho and be happy ne xD Nino didn't let him in ne but I think he will now xD hehe I love hugging Aiba-chan when I'm upset he always makes me feel better xD
Thanks for reading ^_^
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Date: 2014-05-18 10:42 am (UTC)There he said those 3 words, I hope Nino will be able to say those words to Sho too before it's too late...
I don't know what to say, I love you Krys!
*will soon reread happy ohmiya fanfic of yours as palette cleanser*
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Date: 2014-05-19 10:00 am (UTC)Yup he finally said them ne? Nino will be able to move on and love Sho like he deserves :D
Hehe I'm happy xD
Lol I'm going to be writing a happy fluffy one soon just to clear my mind!
Thanks for reading ^_^
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Date: 2014-05-18 11:01 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-05-19 10:28 am (UTC)Yup the ones that leave have it easier ne? I'm sorry for making you cry but I'm happy you liked it xD Ohno really knew his lover but now Nino can move on with Sho and they can be happy xD
Thanks for reading ^_^
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Date: 2014-05-18 11:15 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-05-19 10:07 am (UTC)Thanks for reading ^_^
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Date: 2014-05-18 11:55 am (UTC)How could you????
That's the reason it took me so long to start reading this fic, I knew it would make me melt just like this...
Oh-chan is simply perfect, I totally understand Nino's attachment to his memory...
I just hope he can go on now, he really deserves to be happy, ne?
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Date: 2014-05-19 10:14 am (UTC)Happy that you decided to read it and enjoyed it! He really was incredible ne and Nino was lucky to be with him but Sho is also incredible so he can be very happy xD
Thanks for reading ^_^
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