For the best
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krystalkatzficzTitle: For the best
Author: krystalkatz
rating: PG13
Length: One Shot
Genre: AU, Angst, Slight Non-con elements, Incest
Pairings: Sakurai Sho/Aiba Masaki
Disclaimer: I only own the plot,
“I had another bad dream, can I sleep here with you?” Sakuraiba Masaki asked his voice husky with sleep as he rubbed his eyes and looked at his 8 year elder brother. Sho gave a growl looking up from the mass of paperwork and books that was in front of him. Masaki was 15 now and more than old enough to stay in his own bed and, if Sho thought about it, the dreams that he was having couldn’t possibly be as bad as the dreams that he had. The dreams that he had plagued him night and day and he knew that it was because they reflected clearly the beast like longing he had to take the boy in front of him and push him down onto the bed and have his wicked way with him. The sick desired had, thankfully, only started recently but they were enough to drive him crazy with lust and guilt. During the day he had started to distance himself to the brother that he had always been close to but at night there was still the weakness and temptation.
“Masaki…You’re old enough…” He whined crushing down that thought by gripping his mechanical pencil so tightly that it pinched at the sensitive skin. Masaki dropped to his knees his forehead pressing against the carpet his bottom up in the air. It was not an image that was helping Sho’s resolve and quickly his he closed his eyes as he listened to his brother beg.
“Please…Sho-nii…Just for tonight…I promise…”
“You say that every time Masaki...” Sho sighed forcing himself not to snap and shout at him. It wasn’t Masaki’s fault, it was his, but it was a close thing more so when his eyes ran over the figure that was in front of him. Masaki was tall for a fifteen year old as tall as he was at least when he stood straight but for some reason or another he never stood straight. He lolled her sloughed making certain that there seemed to be a few inches of height difference between them. “What are you going to do next week?”
“What…Why?” Masaki gasped pulling his head up and looking at him with wide almost puppy dog eyes. Sho sighed pinching the bridge of his nose tightly. He’d already explained this to his brother a few days ago but he should have guessed that Masaki wasn’t listening to him, he never listened when it was something that he didn’t want to hear.
“I told you…I moving out…I’m going to live with my friends…” He said very carefully almost wincing when tears immediately came into the big brown pools and his bottom lip started trembling;
“What?! You were serious!? I thought you were joking!” He gasped from his position on the floor looking so much like a lost and frightened child that Sho knew that he was right to leave. He was already going to hell for the desires he was feeling and…The things that he had done but that didn’t mean that he had to drag his sweet, beautiful loving Masaki down with him “You can’t leave! Please…Sho-nii…I promise that I’ll be good! I promise…”
“Masaki, this isn’t about you!” Sho lied snapping angrily as he got to his feet and pulled his brother up with two hands on his shoulders his nails almost digging in to him. It was a mistake to be this close, to feel the boy against him like this, the smell alone was intoxicating and his body pulsed with electricity and desire. Quickly he let him go and took a step away from the boy trying to force both his heart and his cock to stop jumping around “This is what I want, and I’m growing up! I want to be able to spend time with my friends…”
“What? But you can do that here! You can…” Masaki said innocently and Sho shot him a true glare and spat;
“I mean adult friends Masaki, girlfriends…Can you really imagine me bringing a girlfriend here…Where you are?”
“What…But…But…What about what you do to me?” Masaki whispered his head hanging as fat tears rolled down his cheeks and Sho almost fainted. He was saved from doing so by the cold chill that ran down his spine acting like ice cold water on his skin. His eyes bulged and his mouth dropped open with a long audible hiss. The air around them crackled lightly and he was aware of his heart thumping painfully in his ears.
“What…What do you mean?” Sho ground out eventually pulling himself to his full height glad that their parents had gone away for the weekend so they wouldn’t be able to hear them.
“…Noth-Nothing…” Masaki stammered his eyes darting around nervously taking a step backwards towards the door. Sho, should have let him go, he knew that he should have just let him leave but like a tongue probing a tooth he couldn’t just let it go. He strode forward and slammed the door shut covering the body of his brother. It was a sweet torture and one that he wanted to get away from while at the same time he wanted to press himself into his brother and grind against him.
“No, Masaki, tell me what you think I do to you…” He whispered his heart aching, if he could make Masaki afraid of him, make him despise him even then maybe he would finally be free. Masaki trembled against him, lowering his head his eyelashes splaying against his smooth cheeks almost touching the mole that Sho fantasied about kissing. His head shook from side to side and Sho had to stifle a moan at the feel of his brother’s silky hair brushing against his overly sensitive skin.
“…It’s…It’s nothing…” Masaki said taking a step backwards his back smacking against the door with a thunk that must have hurt his arm. Sho resisted the urge to caress his arm and lowered his head almost pressing his lips up to his ear
“No, I’m interested…” He whispered “Tell me what you think that I do to you…”
“You…You touch me…When I’m asleep…” Masaki moaned sounding close to tears again “You…You rub up against me…And…”
“And? What else?” Sho asked his heart thudding painfully twice, he knew his brother knew what he was doing but yet he was still coming into his room and sleeping with him. He was horrified it was the last thing that he had ever wanted. He didn’t want Masaki to know to be corrupted by his perversion. “Come on Masaki what else?”
“You kiss my neck and you cry…You hug me so tightly and keep apologising…You don’t have to apologise…Sho-nii…You…I want…”
“Get out…” Sho growled quickly cutting him off not wanting to hear the words that were threatening to come out of his brother’s mouth. It was too late for him, his soul was corrupted but there had to be hope for Masaki, there just had to be. “You’re dreaming, Masaki, just another one of your bad dreams…”
“No…I never have bad dreams with you…” Masaki whispered his head shaking again, frantically this time and his bottom lip was jutting out looking beautifully defiant as he looked into his brother’s eyes. Sho fought back the urge to kiss the pout away and he finally pulled away forcing away his reaction to his closeness. He let out a long slow bitter laugh and threw his arms into the air before fixing him with a glare and saying;
“Obviously you do, it looks like my power to keep them at bay has ended…”
“No! You do, do that! You do I know you do and I don’t care! I want you…” Masaki protested frantically walking towards him his arms out and Sho dodged them, snorting with anger. He gave a cruel bitter laugh his eyes narrowing;
“Why the hell would I ever want to touch you?”
“Because you love me…You love me the way that I lo-“
“Masaki, get out of my room…Now…If I hear you even say anything like that again I’ll find a way of punishing you…” The eldest said as coldly as possible ignoring the way that his heart jumped at the half confession that Masaki let out. Oh, what he wouldn’t give to hear that confession, he had thought about it so many times, let it haunt his dreams but no matter what he couldn’t hear it. He couldn’t because he knew that he would well and truly be lost and he would have no choice but to take Masaki with him down into the hell that he was going to.
“Sho-nii…”
“Out…I’m leaving tomorrow when mum and dad come back…” Sho told him pushing him to the door his heart breaking as he watched the hurt and confusion flash in his brother’s eyes. There were fresh tears in them and Sho wanted to take him into his arms and make them go away but he couldn’t, he wouldn’t risk that.
“Sho-nii…Please…I love you…Please…” Masaki whispered and Sho’s heart sang lifting to the highest heights. It was choked with tears but he had heard it for a wild moment he lost control and he gave just a tiny smile before he stopped realising what he was doing.
“Masaki…You…You were just a body” He lied his heart screaming at him, hating him for saying such things “I used you to get off that’s all it was, now get out…”
Masaki stared at him in disbelief his eyes wide and swimming with tears and then he turned running for the corridor his sobs loud and pain inducing. Sho waited for the sound of the door slamming closed and then he dropped to the floor hugging his knees and crying silently into his arms. It was for the best, he knew it, and he could protect Masaki like this. Yes, it was for the best so why was it causing them both nothing but pain?
THE END
A/N: Erm sorry…Not the normal happy fluff that I write…I won’t blame you if you hate it…I was just depressed I’m not even certain that there was a plot in this >.<
Author: krystalkatz
rating: PG13
Length: One Shot
Genre: AU, Angst, Slight Non-con elements, Incest
Pairings: Sakurai Sho/Aiba Masaki
Disclaimer: I only own the plot,
“I had another bad dream, can I sleep here with you?” Sakuraiba Masaki asked his voice husky with sleep as he rubbed his eyes and looked at his 8 year elder brother. Sho gave a growl looking up from the mass of paperwork and books that was in front of him. Masaki was 15 now and more than old enough to stay in his own bed and, if Sho thought about it, the dreams that he was having couldn’t possibly be as bad as the dreams that he had. The dreams that he had plagued him night and day and he knew that it was because they reflected clearly the beast like longing he had to take the boy in front of him and push him down onto the bed and have his wicked way with him. The sick desired had, thankfully, only started recently but they were enough to drive him crazy with lust and guilt. During the day he had started to distance himself to the brother that he had always been close to but at night there was still the weakness and temptation.
“Masaki…You’re old enough…” He whined crushing down that thought by gripping his mechanical pencil so tightly that it pinched at the sensitive skin. Masaki dropped to his knees his forehead pressing against the carpet his bottom up in the air. It was not an image that was helping Sho’s resolve and quickly his he closed his eyes as he listened to his brother beg.
“Please…Sho-nii…Just for tonight…I promise…”
“You say that every time Masaki...” Sho sighed forcing himself not to snap and shout at him. It wasn’t Masaki’s fault, it was his, but it was a close thing more so when his eyes ran over the figure that was in front of him. Masaki was tall for a fifteen year old as tall as he was at least when he stood straight but for some reason or another he never stood straight. He lolled her sloughed making certain that there seemed to be a few inches of height difference between them. “What are you going to do next week?”
“What…Why?” Masaki gasped pulling his head up and looking at him with wide almost puppy dog eyes. Sho sighed pinching the bridge of his nose tightly. He’d already explained this to his brother a few days ago but he should have guessed that Masaki wasn’t listening to him, he never listened when it was something that he didn’t want to hear.
“I told you…I moving out…I’m going to live with my friends…” He said very carefully almost wincing when tears immediately came into the big brown pools and his bottom lip started trembling;
“What?! You were serious!? I thought you were joking!” He gasped from his position on the floor looking so much like a lost and frightened child that Sho knew that he was right to leave. He was already going to hell for the desires he was feeling and…The things that he had done but that didn’t mean that he had to drag his sweet, beautiful loving Masaki down with him “You can’t leave! Please…Sho-nii…I promise that I’ll be good! I promise…”
“Masaki, this isn’t about you!” Sho lied snapping angrily as he got to his feet and pulled his brother up with two hands on his shoulders his nails almost digging in to him. It was a mistake to be this close, to feel the boy against him like this, the smell alone was intoxicating and his body pulsed with electricity and desire. Quickly he let him go and took a step away from the boy trying to force both his heart and his cock to stop jumping around “This is what I want, and I’m growing up! I want to be able to spend time with my friends…”
“What? But you can do that here! You can…” Masaki said innocently and Sho shot him a true glare and spat;
“I mean adult friends Masaki, girlfriends…Can you really imagine me bringing a girlfriend here…Where you are?”
“What…But…But…What about what you do to me?” Masaki whispered his head hanging as fat tears rolled down his cheeks and Sho almost fainted. He was saved from doing so by the cold chill that ran down his spine acting like ice cold water on his skin. His eyes bulged and his mouth dropped open with a long audible hiss. The air around them crackled lightly and he was aware of his heart thumping painfully in his ears.
“What…What do you mean?” Sho ground out eventually pulling himself to his full height glad that their parents had gone away for the weekend so they wouldn’t be able to hear them.
“…Noth-Nothing…” Masaki stammered his eyes darting around nervously taking a step backwards towards the door. Sho, should have let him go, he knew that he should have just let him leave but like a tongue probing a tooth he couldn’t just let it go. He strode forward and slammed the door shut covering the body of his brother. It was a sweet torture and one that he wanted to get away from while at the same time he wanted to press himself into his brother and grind against him.
“No, Masaki, tell me what you think I do to you…” He whispered his heart aching, if he could make Masaki afraid of him, make him despise him even then maybe he would finally be free. Masaki trembled against him, lowering his head his eyelashes splaying against his smooth cheeks almost touching the mole that Sho fantasied about kissing. His head shook from side to side and Sho had to stifle a moan at the feel of his brother’s silky hair brushing against his overly sensitive skin.
“…It’s…It’s nothing…” Masaki said taking a step backwards his back smacking against the door with a thunk that must have hurt his arm. Sho resisted the urge to caress his arm and lowered his head almost pressing his lips up to his ear
“No, I’m interested…” He whispered “Tell me what you think that I do to you…”
“You…You touch me…When I’m asleep…” Masaki moaned sounding close to tears again “You…You rub up against me…And…”
“And? What else?” Sho asked his heart thudding painfully twice, he knew his brother knew what he was doing but yet he was still coming into his room and sleeping with him. He was horrified it was the last thing that he had ever wanted. He didn’t want Masaki to know to be corrupted by his perversion. “Come on Masaki what else?”
“You kiss my neck and you cry…You hug me so tightly and keep apologising…You don’t have to apologise…Sho-nii…You…I want…”
“Get out…” Sho growled quickly cutting him off not wanting to hear the words that were threatening to come out of his brother’s mouth. It was too late for him, his soul was corrupted but there had to be hope for Masaki, there just had to be. “You’re dreaming, Masaki, just another one of your bad dreams…”
“No…I never have bad dreams with you…” Masaki whispered his head shaking again, frantically this time and his bottom lip was jutting out looking beautifully defiant as he looked into his brother’s eyes. Sho fought back the urge to kiss the pout away and he finally pulled away forcing away his reaction to his closeness. He let out a long slow bitter laugh and threw his arms into the air before fixing him with a glare and saying;
“Obviously you do, it looks like my power to keep them at bay has ended…”
“No! You do, do that! You do I know you do and I don’t care! I want you…” Masaki protested frantically walking towards him his arms out and Sho dodged them, snorting with anger. He gave a cruel bitter laugh his eyes narrowing;
“Why the hell would I ever want to touch you?”
“Because you love me…You love me the way that I lo-“
“Masaki, get out of my room…Now…If I hear you even say anything like that again I’ll find a way of punishing you…” The eldest said as coldly as possible ignoring the way that his heart jumped at the half confession that Masaki let out. Oh, what he wouldn’t give to hear that confession, he had thought about it so many times, let it haunt his dreams but no matter what he couldn’t hear it. He couldn’t because he knew that he would well and truly be lost and he would have no choice but to take Masaki with him down into the hell that he was going to.
“Sho-nii…”
“Out…I’m leaving tomorrow when mum and dad come back…” Sho told him pushing him to the door his heart breaking as he watched the hurt and confusion flash in his brother’s eyes. There were fresh tears in them and Sho wanted to take him into his arms and make them go away but he couldn’t, he wouldn’t risk that.
“Sho-nii…Please…I love you…Please…” Masaki whispered and Sho’s heart sang lifting to the highest heights. It was choked with tears but he had heard it for a wild moment he lost control and he gave just a tiny smile before he stopped realising what he was doing.
“Masaki…You…You were just a body” He lied his heart screaming at him, hating him for saying such things “I used you to get off that’s all it was, now get out…”
Masaki stared at him in disbelief his eyes wide and swimming with tears and then he turned running for the corridor his sobs loud and pain inducing. Sho waited for the sound of the door slamming closed and then he dropped to the floor hugging his knees and crying silently into his arms. It was for the best, he knew it, and he could protect Masaki like this. Yes, it was for the best so why was it causing them both nothing but pain?
THE END
A/N: Erm sorry…Not the normal happy fluff that I write…I won’t blame you if you hate it…I was just depressed I’m not even certain that there was a plot in this >.<
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Date: 2014-01-16 12:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-01-17 11:22 am (UTC)Thanks, I'm trying :D
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Thanks for reading ^_^
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Date: 2014-01-16 05:32 pm (UTC)Poor Masaki for not knowing the truth :'(. If only Sho explained to him what he actually feels and make him understand that they can't be together :'(.
I actually just cleared a problem with my friend, and finally I gave the honest answer to that person. Though it hurts but I was relieved :)
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Date: 2014-01-17 11:20 am (UTC)yup, but if Sho had told him I'm sure Masaki would have talked him into agreeing and that would have just hurt them more >.<
I'm really glad that you've sorted your problem with your friend, honesty is always the best policy ne, even when it hurts :D
Thanks for reading ^_^
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Date: 2014-01-16 06:42 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2014-01-17 11:18 am (UTC)Sorry for writing something so sad!
Thanks for reading ^_^
Yeah I really hope so, but the more days she's missing the less I think I'm going to get her back >.<
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Date: 2014-01-18 07:57 am (UTC)