Our First Summer part fifty-eight
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krystalkatzficzMasako hurried back through the park glad to know that her papa was safe. She hadn’t actually thought that he would do anything stupid but she had never seen him that upset. It wasn’t though she couldn’t understand why he was upset; his head must have been a whirlwind with what Ohno had confessed to him. She was half angry with him for saying it at all and half upset that he hadn’t been able to confess because of his fear. In her heart she hoped that her dad didn’t pick Ohno. They were both too broken for them to be healthy together but she would understand and support him if he did.
“Ma-Ma...” Sho called as she ran up the small flight of stairs of the hotel and Masako smiled at her fiancée opening her arms for him and sighed happily when he tugged her against his chest
“Is he okay?” She asked and Sho nodded kissing her cheek his arms tightening around her waist squeezing her tightly
“Yes, he’s still confused and a little upset he’s gone to his room...” he answered and Masako gave a nod kissing him over the heart tugging out of his arms
“I should go and see him...” She mumbled straightening herself back up and clicked out her back needing to see her father.
*~*~*~*~*
Jun was sitting on the centre of his and Nino’s bed, his heart pounding. Painful tears were in his eyes as he stared down at the picture of him and Nino. There were so many emotions that were running around in his head and heart. He didn’t know who Nino was going to pick. In his heart he didn’t think that it was going to be him, Nino had too much history with Ohno he was just a summer fling. They didn’t even have a week together how was he going to compete with that? He knew that Masami wanted him to fight and he wanted it too. He didn’t want to give Nino up, not after getting him to admit that he was his boyfriend and the way that he had calmly sent his sister the picture of them.
He let out a sigh his hand gripping the bars of chocolate that he had brought up from the shop. He had been holding them for so long that he knew that they were more than likely chocolate spread instead of chocolate bars now but he didn’t know what else to do, how to fight for Nino. Never before had he hated the fact that he was a teenager so much as he did right now. If he was older then maybe Nino would have felt more comfortable with them being in a relationship in the first place. He closed his eyes about to flop back into the pillows and see if he could still smell Nino on the pillow when he heard the sound of the door opening. His heart did a few summersaults and he tried to straighten himself out smoothing out his hair and tugging at the t-shirt, not once letting go of the chocolate.
Nino walked into the room looking pale and confused, if anything he looked like he had a bad case of flu, his face was glistening with a slick sheen of sweat and he had obviously chewed his lips so much that they were bruised and slightly bloody to look at. His shoulders were hunched like he was carrying the weight of the world on them and his feet shuffled over the carpet. He didn’t look up once and Jun doubted if he had even realised that he was in the room with him, not wanting to startle him too much he cleared his throat before saying
“Kazu-san...” Nino jolted visibly his whole body rocking from one side to the other and for a while he looked like a rabbit that had been caught in the headlights “Sorry...”
“JJ...You’re here...” he breathed and Jun’s heart tightened at the sad ring in his voice, it reminded him of a few days ago when they had been meant to be meeting up and he come back looking all sad and broken. Jun knew that he had been sad that day because of Ohno, because he couldn’t have Ohno but now that was over. He could have him there was only one thing that was standing in his way and that was Jun.
“Yeah...Um...I thought that you might need some chocolate...” He muttered lamely holding up the molten chocolate bars in his sweaty hands and he was genuinely surprised when Nino let out a laugh tears rolling down his face. The older man walked to the bed and reached out for the chocolate and Jun grabbed his hand tugging him down wrapping his arms around him holding him tightly. Masami had told him to fight, to not let go but he couldn’t do that. Doing that would hurt Nino even more and he couldn’t do that he had already been through so much and he loved him too much to add to the pain that he was feeling “Kazu-san...Thank-you...Thank-you for letting me be with you...I’ve loved every minute of it...”
“You’re breaking up with me?” Nino whispered his voice breaking, tears landing on the fabric of his t-shirt and Jun tightened his grip around him and his lips found his temple kissing it gently.
“I don’t want to...I want to be with you, Kazu-san...But more than anything else I want you to be happy...” He mumbled his own voice breaking and trembling in equal measure and he could only hope that he didn’t sound too much like a kid. “Um...If it’s okay though...Can I be a little bit selfish and tell you that I am in love with you...”
“I’m sorry JJ...” Nino muttered and Jun felt his heart shatter a little at the muffled apology but he managed to smile and nod and surprisingly no tears fell as he started to say,
“It’s oka-...”
“No, you’re misunderstanding me...” Nino muttered pulling out of his grip so that he could sit up and look at him. Jun had watched loads of romance films and the main actress had always looked cute crying as the hero walked away, Nino didn’t look like that. In fact he looked awful with red, almost alien looking, puffy red eyes and clear nasal fluid flowing down his face but Jun still found him strangely attractive. More so than the girls had been and quickly he took so tissues from the side and wiped his eyes and noses before letting Nino continue talking “I’m sorry but I can’t let you go...I should, I know that I should...You shouldn’t be tied to a sad old man that has more emotional problems than you have had years on the planet but I really can’t let you go...”
Jun dropped the soaking tissue into the small space that was between then, the sounds of his blood pounding in his ears his mouth dropping open in surprise. He wanted to speak but his mouth felt dry and coated in cotton wool when he tried to form a sound it was like striking a match. Nino looked at him almost nervously his pink tongue brushing over his swollen lips. He tried to pull away and Jun held him tightly not letting him move an arm’s length away as he forced words to come out of his mouth
“Are you serious?” he squeaked sounding like he was swallowing something too big for his throat. Nino nodded giving him a watery smile.
“Yes...I’ve been happier this week then I ever thought I could be...I...I still think that you’re crazy for wanting to be with me...But If you want me you can have me....” He said adding to his surprise and confusion and he just had to ask,
“But...What about...Ohno..?”
“It would be so much easier to be with Ohno, but I’ve never been one to do the easy thing...I would like us to find a way to be friends and I want to be able to support him through what he’s going through now” Nino murmured softly and Jun nodded slowly still not completely understanding what was happening “but...I made a promise to myself that I would break away from Oh-chan this week...If I go back to him...I don’t think that it will change...Besides...I’ve really become fond of you...In fact if I’m perfectly honest...I think...I am very nearly...In...Love with you...”
*~*~*~*~*
Masako moved away from the door looking at Sho with happiness in her heart but it was happiness that was tinged with worry wondering what Sho was going to think or say. To her surprise Sho gave a wide happy grin and pressed his lips to her nose.
“Come on, we’ll come back later...”
TBC
A/N: I hope you liked it J
“Ma-Ma...” Sho called as she ran up the small flight of stairs of the hotel and Masako smiled at her fiancée opening her arms for him and sighed happily when he tugged her against his chest
“Is he okay?” She asked and Sho nodded kissing her cheek his arms tightening around her waist squeezing her tightly
“Yes, he’s still confused and a little upset he’s gone to his room...” he answered and Masako gave a nod kissing him over the heart tugging out of his arms
“I should go and see him...” She mumbled straightening herself back up and clicked out her back needing to see her father.
*~*~*~*~*
Jun was sitting on the centre of his and Nino’s bed, his heart pounding. Painful tears were in his eyes as he stared down at the picture of him and Nino. There were so many emotions that were running around in his head and heart. He didn’t know who Nino was going to pick. In his heart he didn’t think that it was going to be him, Nino had too much history with Ohno he was just a summer fling. They didn’t even have a week together how was he going to compete with that? He knew that Masami wanted him to fight and he wanted it too. He didn’t want to give Nino up, not after getting him to admit that he was his boyfriend and the way that he had calmly sent his sister the picture of them.
He let out a sigh his hand gripping the bars of chocolate that he had brought up from the shop. He had been holding them for so long that he knew that they were more than likely chocolate spread instead of chocolate bars now but he didn’t know what else to do, how to fight for Nino. Never before had he hated the fact that he was a teenager so much as he did right now. If he was older then maybe Nino would have felt more comfortable with them being in a relationship in the first place. He closed his eyes about to flop back into the pillows and see if he could still smell Nino on the pillow when he heard the sound of the door opening. His heart did a few summersaults and he tried to straighten himself out smoothing out his hair and tugging at the t-shirt, not once letting go of the chocolate.
Nino walked into the room looking pale and confused, if anything he looked like he had a bad case of flu, his face was glistening with a slick sheen of sweat and he had obviously chewed his lips so much that they were bruised and slightly bloody to look at. His shoulders were hunched like he was carrying the weight of the world on them and his feet shuffled over the carpet. He didn’t look up once and Jun doubted if he had even realised that he was in the room with him, not wanting to startle him too much he cleared his throat before saying
“Kazu-san...” Nino jolted visibly his whole body rocking from one side to the other and for a while he looked like a rabbit that had been caught in the headlights “Sorry...”
“JJ...You’re here...” he breathed and Jun’s heart tightened at the sad ring in his voice, it reminded him of a few days ago when they had been meant to be meeting up and he come back looking all sad and broken. Jun knew that he had been sad that day because of Ohno, because he couldn’t have Ohno but now that was over. He could have him there was only one thing that was standing in his way and that was Jun.
“Yeah...Um...I thought that you might need some chocolate...” He muttered lamely holding up the molten chocolate bars in his sweaty hands and he was genuinely surprised when Nino let out a laugh tears rolling down his face. The older man walked to the bed and reached out for the chocolate and Jun grabbed his hand tugging him down wrapping his arms around him holding him tightly. Masami had told him to fight, to not let go but he couldn’t do that. Doing that would hurt Nino even more and he couldn’t do that he had already been through so much and he loved him too much to add to the pain that he was feeling “Kazu-san...Thank-you...Thank-you for letting me be with you...I’ve loved every minute of it...”
“You’re breaking up with me?” Nino whispered his voice breaking, tears landing on the fabric of his t-shirt and Jun tightened his grip around him and his lips found his temple kissing it gently.
“I don’t want to...I want to be with you, Kazu-san...But more than anything else I want you to be happy...” He mumbled his own voice breaking and trembling in equal measure and he could only hope that he didn’t sound too much like a kid. “Um...If it’s okay though...Can I be a little bit selfish and tell you that I am in love with you...”
“I’m sorry JJ...” Nino muttered and Jun felt his heart shatter a little at the muffled apology but he managed to smile and nod and surprisingly no tears fell as he started to say,
“It’s oka-...”
“No, you’re misunderstanding me...” Nino muttered pulling out of his grip so that he could sit up and look at him. Jun had watched loads of romance films and the main actress had always looked cute crying as the hero walked away, Nino didn’t look like that. In fact he looked awful with red, almost alien looking, puffy red eyes and clear nasal fluid flowing down his face but Jun still found him strangely attractive. More so than the girls had been and quickly he took so tissues from the side and wiped his eyes and noses before letting Nino continue talking “I’m sorry but I can’t let you go...I should, I know that I should...You shouldn’t be tied to a sad old man that has more emotional problems than you have had years on the planet but I really can’t let you go...”
Jun dropped the soaking tissue into the small space that was between then, the sounds of his blood pounding in his ears his mouth dropping open in surprise. He wanted to speak but his mouth felt dry and coated in cotton wool when he tried to form a sound it was like striking a match. Nino looked at him almost nervously his pink tongue brushing over his swollen lips. He tried to pull away and Jun held him tightly not letting him move an arm’s length away as he forced words to come out of his mouth
“Are you serious?” he squeaked sounding like he was swallowing something too big for his throat. Nino nodded giving him a watery smile.
“Yes...I’ve been happier this week then I ever thought I could be...I...I still think that you’re crazy for wanting to be with me...But If you want me you can have me....” He said adding to his surprise and confusion and he just had to ask,
“But...What about...Ohno..?”
“It would be so much easier to be with Ohno, but I’ve never been one to do the easy thing...I would like us to find a way to be friends and I want to be able to support him through what he’s going through now” Nino murmured softly and Jun nodded slowly still not completely understanding what was happening “but...I made a promise to myself that I would break away from Oh-chan this week...If I go back to him...I don’t think that it will change...Besides...I’ve really become fond of you...In fact if I’m perfectly honest...I think...I am very nearly...In...Love with you...”
*~*~*~*~*
Masako moved away from the door looking at Sho with happiness in her heart but it was happiness that was tinged with worry wondering what Sho was going to think or say. To her surprise Sho gave a wide happy grin and pressed his lips to her nose.
“Come on, we’ll come back later...”
TBC
A/N: I hope you liked it J
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Date: 2013-09-04 11:56 am (UTC)I'm glad you like it :D
He's going to have to learn to be a friend ne :D
thanks for reading ^.^