Lord Ohno's Home part 5
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krystalkatzficzNino gagged as he felt the length of rope tighten around his neck, there were black spots in front of his eyes but he could just make out the figure of Saito standing in front of him holding onto the rope. Nino tried desperately to left his hands to claw at the rope but they were useless hanging limply at his sides the pain throbbing through them almost enough for him to forget about the tightening of the rope. The black spots were getting bigger now and his mind was fuzzy and clouded with the sound of bells ringing. His lungs and heart expanded trying frantically to get air but the rope was too tight. The last thing he was aware of was an explosion of pain and then nothing, the black spots became overwhelming and he gave in flopping to the floor like a paper doll a single tear rolling down his cheek.
The black surrounding him held him tightly making him feel like he was trapped under water. He fought to break free and tried shouting for his lord. His mind was replaying the thought over and over of ‘I do not want to die...I cannot leave my love...’ the chilling dark just held him down and then he screamed his voice ripping from his body his body so hard that pain exploded into his throat.
Nino woke screaming as tears ran down his face he hit out at Ohno his foot hitting his groin as he tried to scramble out of the bed. It was four days since they had sat in the garden and the nightmares had been happening ever since. He knew that they were mesh mashed memories of his time in the cave rushing to the surface and he knew that he had to deal with them and accept them but he didn’t want to. He didn’t want to think about it, any of it, he was safe he was back with his lord. He folded himself into a ball holding his head and trying to push away the images that were there thicker behind his eyes. Biting his lip to stop a sob he wasn’t aware when the bed shifted around him or the lamp was lit.
“Kazunari...” Ohno whispered softly, his concerned voice finally breaking through the fog of his mind and he jolted pulling himself out of his ball and forcing himself to sit up and try and smile like everything was okay.
“I am sorry to disturb you my love...It was a bad dream...” He said and Ohno gave a sigh scratching his cheek and staring at him with concerned eyes, “It is nothing...My lov-...”
“Just like yesterday, the day before and the one before...” He breathed and Nino chewed on the inside of his cheek in horror. Yesterday he thought that he had gotten it under control before Ohno had heard him the day before he had woken himself and stayed awake until the sun was coming in through the high window. He wanted to be able to handle it, he felt stupid that it was still tormenting him when nobody else seemed to be having any difficulty.
“I am sorry my lord...” He said bringing his knees up and hugging them even though it hurt and Ohno sighed shuffling over to him and tugging him down against his chest his hand moving up and down his back.
“Kazunari...I wish that you would speak to me...I have been expecting you to have nightmares...I would find it strange if you did not...” his lord said and Nino hissed angrily his eyes flashing,
“Because I am weak...” he spat out almost pulling away from him but Ohno held him tighter until he relaxed against him again. He closed his eyes pressing his face into the warm chest and just allowing the comforting arms to hold him for a while. Soon though his body was rippling with short bursts of pain and he tried to stifle a whimper Ohno reached off of the bed and picked up his potion handing it to him before silently waiting for him to drink it down. When he had swallowed more than half the bottle Ohno took it from him and then once again circled his arms around him whispering,
“It has nothing to do with you being weak...You think that Hotaru does not suffer nightmares or Jun...Satoru is suffering them but because he understands that we need time together alone he is sharing a bed with Hotaru...” Nino stiffened at that and he half moved to tug out his lords arms and go to his youngest son but Ohno held him pressing soft kisses to his cheek until he calmed down “Your friend Masaki has nightmares, you know yourself that he has only just been able to leave his house and try to put the horror behind him...Fuwa has nightmares...I have nightmares...”
“You my lord..? But you...You never seem to be affected...” Nino said in amazement turning around and Ohno gave a smile touching his finger to his nose and nodding.
“At the moment I dream that I was too late or that Fuwa did not rescue you...I dream that Saito killed you and then killed the children leaving me alive...In my dream I am left alone and there is nothing that I can do about it I am forced to live each day without you...I long for death but it never comes...Those are my nightmares...When I have them I wake and I sit here beside you just staring at your face and making sure that you are breathing...Why do you think that I know you have not been sleeping?”
Nino stared into the honest face of his lover and pressed a hand to his chin feeling the stubble that was growing there and brushing it with his fingertips. He would never guess that somebody as strong and as brave as Ohno would suffer with something like a nightmare and it calmed him to know that he did. He sighed playing with the necklace that was once again around his neck given back to him two days ago in the garden
“I...Would you like to hear my nightmares my lord?” Nino asked knowing that the answer was going to be yes but needing Ohno to say it so that it would sound like he couldn’t refuse. It was strange but due to his years of training in the Garden he knew that he could not refuse his lord.
“Yes...I do not mean to pry but I think that it may help you, my love...” Ohno answered and Nino closed his eyes and allowed the feelings of the dream to settle over him again before he quickly started talking, knowing that he had to be fast or he wouldn’t be able to speak.
“...I dream of Saito, of the things that he did to me and what he did to me...But mostly I dream of when he gave me this” He whispered scratching at his neck until Ohno grabbed his hand and held it tightly caressing his fingers “I cannot remember why he turned on me...But I can feel the burn of the rope around my throat I can hear him calling me a whore and then there is nothing just the black...I remember the black. It was thick and heavy like a blanket over me and I remember thinking that I did not want to die...I did not want to leave you...I reality I woke up to bright sunshine and the feeling of hands on me...But in my dream...In my dream the blackness does not leave and I feel myself slip away...”
“Kazunari...My love...” Ohno whispered his arms tightening around him and Nino felt tears sliding down his cheeks and Ohno turned him so their chests were pressing together. He tilted his face up with a finger and a thumb and then kissed him once light before saying “That dream does not make you weak...It tells me that you are strong. That even when you were so close to the edge you still pulled yourself back to me...It means that you are a very strong wonderful man...”
“But I always feel so helpless...I did not fight him, my lord...Not once I lay there and I let him...I let him take me...” Nino whispered his voice shaking more than it had done since he started to speak normally again and once more Ohno kissed him sucking on his lip his fingers knotting with his hair.
“No...You did not let him...You did what you had to, to survive and return to me and my children...In the cave he told me that he had touched you...He thought that it would bother me...But, to my amazement, it did not...I was angry, so very angry...But it was all at him...I realised that he might have taken your body but your heart that is mine...”
“Yes my lord...It is yours forever...” Nino breathed nodded through his tears and Ohno hugged him again whispering
“I promise you...We shall move through this...Together...”
TBC
A/N: I hope that you enjoy ^_^
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Date: 2013-07-25 09:15 am (UTC)PS: Sorry for not commenting the last days, it was just too hot and my brain melted. But I read and enjoyed every single part. Satoru is quickly stealing the N°1 OC spot from Fuwa, he is just too cute with his "Nino-mama! Nino-mama!" Since I don't remember what you mentioned: how old is Toru-chan?
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Date: 2013-07-26 10:15 am (UTC)please don't worry about it, as long as you're reading and enjoying it :DDD
lol he's a very sweet kid ne...He's about 6 or 7 but for some reason i think he acts younger...:D
Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-07-25 10:12 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-07-26 10:13 am (UTC)thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-07-25 11:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-07-26 10:12 am (UTC)Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-07-25 12:59 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-07-26 10:12 am (UTC)Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-07-25 01:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-07-26 10:17 am (UTC)Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-07-25 08:02 pm (UTC)This chapter is really sweet. I feel like I can read forever about how Ohno comfort Nino XD
Thanks for sharing!
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Date: 2013-07-26 10:17 am (UTC)I'm really glad that you like it :D Ohno has changed so much in this that he can offer out support ne :D
Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-07-26 02:09 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-07-26 10:11 am (UTC)Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-07-26 09:58 am (UTC)It must be very excruciating for all of them.. Now that the main problem had been terminated, the memories still linger on their mind... I hope they will heal soon, both mentally and physically...
I love the part where Lord Ohno tells Nino that he watched him sleeping (or not sleeping)..
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Date: 2013-07-26 10:26 am (UTC)yep...the mental wounds always take longer to heal than the physical but as long as they have each other they'll get through it :D
hehe, its a sweet gesture ne :D
Thanks for reading ^.^