Why not Me?
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krystalkatzficzTitle: Why Not Me?
rating: PG
Length: One Shot
Genre: au,
Pairings: Matsumoto Jun/Ninomiya Kazunari (One Sided/Pre-relationship) Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari (Friends with Benefits) Matsumoto Jun/Aiba Masaki (Broken) Ohno Satoshi/Sakurai Sho (Broken) Ikuta Toma/Yamashita Tomohisa
Disclaimer: I only own the plot,
For the past few months Ninomiya Kazunari had been wondering if there was anything worse than the pain of seeing someone you were in love with dating your best friend, and he decided that there was and that was when they broke up and you realised that you might not even see that person again, because no matter how much you hated seeing them with some else at least you got to see them, to be a part of their life no matter how small. He wondered vaguely if he was masochist for being willing to put up with the pain to able to see him smile, that big goofy smile that didn’t fit his image at all, the way he would sometimes forget that he was meant to be a super idol and do geeky things like read manga with more than a little childish delight.
Nino tried pushing those thoughts away ordering another drink, that was all over now, Masaki his best friend had broken up with him rather spectacularly that morning and there was no chance that he would even be able to see him again. Even as he was thinking that the object of his thoughts came in towards the bar, without even looking at him, he ordered a drink and went to sit in one of the big squishy chairs in the ‘quiet section’ of the rather loud club, draining his drink Nino ordered another one his sharp mind running over his options. Matsumoto had been his secret crush for almost two years, before he and Masaki had started dating he had only seen him from afar and had never even dreamed about talking to him except to ask for his order, but he was his perfect guy, he had always sat at table 4d every lunch and had ordered coffee. Nino had looked forwards to those few minutes, and then he had gotten Masaki the part time job for the summer and by the end of his first day he had gotten his number and they had started dating soon after. Jun no longer sat at table 4d and whenever Nino did see him he was either tongue wrestling Masaki or glaring at him.
Not that Nino had really helped to protect what was left of his heart he had built up and pretty strong wall around it and had been as snarky and cold as possible so his friend or Jun would realise how soul destroying it was for him having to listen to them doing their bedroom activities at night, or how much he didn’t want to have to witness the love bites that were dotted over their bodies in the mornings. He had brought a lot of guys home trying to fill the void, but the more he knew about Jun the less it became just a mild crush and developed into real love. He had forced all those feelings away because he wanted his friend to be happy, but now he wanted to be able to somehow wipe the pain that was shadowing the idols eyes, taking a deep breath he swallowed the second drink and slowly walked to the chair beside him and sank into it, Masaki was his best friend almost like his brother but right now he hated him, “Are you okay?” he asked over the loud club music
“As if you care” Jun muttered so softly, Nino barely heard him over the pumping music “Why the fuck doesn’t you go bother someone else…? You got what you wanted you got your best friend back, now fuck off where you came from and let me get drunk in peace…” he snapped and Nino ignored the pain he was feeling and stood up about to leave when Jun grabbed his arm “You made him leave me, right? You poisoned him against me…”
“Yeah, yeah I did all that, I purposely set out to ruin your life…” Nino sighed rolling his eyes, wondering why he even bothered trying to talk to him, Jun had made it clear from the first day he had started dating Masaki that he hated the very sight of him.
“Wouldn’t surprise me, you love Masaki right? Why not just ask him out?”
“I love Masaki?” Nino repeated stupidly wondering how the hell Jun had formed that idea, he pulled his hand out of his grip before he said something stupid like ‘I love you’ and ran to the dance floor glad to see one of his ‘friends’ Ohno Satoshi dancing with another guy, “Oh-chan” He whined throwing his arms around the older guy, ignoring the one he had been dancing with. Satoshi gave a laugh hugging him tightly, as they started dancing swaying side to side that was slightly to gentle for the style of song that was playing.
Nino buried his face into Ohno’s neck breathing in the warm scent letting it make him forget Jun at least for now. He wasn’t sure how much he drank but when he woke the next morning he had a sore head and a sore ass and Satoshi was laying half over him. Nino smiled pinching the chubby almost baby like cheeks, Satoshi was a good guy that he knew would always look after him, but no matter how hard he tried Nino couldn’t fall in love with him, at least not while his heart still belonged to someone else. After a lot of pinching Satoshi opened his eyes and looked up at him,
“I’m here again?” He asked groggily and Nino nodded smiling “Shit, do you remember what happened to my date?”
“Nope” Nino shrugged feeling only half guilty as Satoshi got off of him. His body ached pleasantly and he gave a moan of satisfaction that always came when he had been fucked hard and Satoshi was good at that.
“Damn, you know with the amount of times I end up coming back here we might as well say we’re dating and be done with it” Satoshi said grabbing his t-shirt from the floor, Nino tensed his happiness fading quickly until Satoshi chuckled a flicked his nose “Relax I was only joking…”
“Why not? Why don’t we just start dating? I like you…” He whispered relaxing quickly and managing to smile.
“And I like you, but I think my like is different from your like, Nino, relax though, like a kicked puppy I’ll always come running back to you” Satoshi said ruffling his hair and then stroking his cheek, “Until you forget all about that guy and realise that I’m the best guy for you…Or he realises how great you are and falls in love with you too…”
“I don’t think that’s ever going to happen…” Nino grumbled hating his heart for not loving the great guy that was in front of him.
“Yeah, well like I said I’m here, even if I have a date” Satoshi said pulling on his jeans and hiding his perfect little bottom from view before dragging on a t-shirt that he had found. “I’d better go, I’ve got work…”
“Thanks Oh-chan” Nino said and Satoshi waved a hand leaving the bedroom, he heard him greet Masaki and then the front door open. Nino groaned opening the drawer at the side of his bed and pulling out some painkillers and some bottled water, just as his bedroom door opened and Masaki came running in and jumping on the bed like an excited puppy and Nino wondered how he was managing to hate this guy,
“Oh-chan was here again!”
“Yeah, I kind of noticed” Nino mumbled as he shifted his position and pinched his nose wanting to understand how anybody could be so loud in the mornings. Masaki laughed brightly and then hugged up against him his head resting on his chest as he breathed;
“So are you actually dating or…”
“No, were just friends” Nino mumbled with a shrug trying to push him away but failing Masaki was all long tentacle like limbs that had you and didn’t let go.
“Yeah, but you never bring your other friends home as often as you do Oh-chan” Masaki said and Nino searched his eyes, looking for some sign that he was just as cut up about his break up with Jun as much as Jun was.
“Aiba… Are you sure about breaking up with Matsumoto…?” He asked slowly and there was a shadow in his friend’s eyes but he nodded quickly
“Yep… Me and him weren’t meant to be together” He said easily and Nino grumbled something about having a headache and pulling the cover over his head to stop himself from doing something stupid like punching him he tried to work out where his own life was, Satoshi loved him, he loved Jun and Jun loved Masaki, so who the hell did Masaki love? And why couldn’t he just accept the feelings of the loving Satoshi? Why Masaki? Why not me?
2 years ago
Nino sighed leaning heavily on the counter the cloth in his hand moving over the top but he wasn’t paying attention, customer were coming and going like always and he was thoroughly and completely bored, in his mind he was going through strategy’s for the game Masaki had given him for his birthday and he had just realised that if he went to the alchemist’s first he could get a better sword, the door opened again and Nino come back into his own mind the cloth stopping as he saw the most beautiful man he had ever seen, he walked in and looked around and then went to sit in table 4D, Nino’s eyes watched him through his lashes as the beautiful guy scanned the menu, Nino saw his female co-worker about to head over and Nino grabbed his note book smoothing the front of his apron and then dashed over.
“Can I take your order?” He asked his heart thumping loudly against his ribs Jun turned to look at him,
“Coffee” He answered rather stiffly, turning back to the menu his eyes moving over the words that were written there.
“Anything else?” Nino asked wanting those eyes to look at him again. He was used to make attention, in fact he rather liked it but this was more than that. He just wanted to look.
“Not now” Jun muttered putting the menu down again, Nino putting his useless note book away and went to get a coffee. It wasn’t the best first impression, in fact Nino thought he was arrogant and cold, but he couldn’t stop watching him, the way he drank the coffee, the way he kept running his hand through the silky hair. After that he came by every day always sitting in the same chair, and only ever ordering a coffee.
“Why don’t you just take a picture?” His colleague and second best friend said nudging his arm in a playful way on after about the third week of the guy coming to the table 4D it was like clockwork now and he made sure that he was always there on shift when he arrived.
“What?” Nino blinked very reluctantly pulling his gaze away from the hot guy to look at his still fairly hot co-worker Ikuta Toma.
“Please if you were staring any harder he’d spontaneously combust” Toma laughed wiping his hands on his apron after cleaning the coffee machine and Nino was positive that his cheeks were as red as their horrible aprons.
“I wasn’t staring that hard” Nino denied his eyes automatically going back to the customer, who had pulled out some paperwork out of his bag, and was reading through it with the tip of his tongue poking out of the corner of his mouth.
“No” Toma said rolling his eyes, “Well you stare at him every time he comes in why not…”
“We don’t even know if he’s gay…” Nino mumbled knowing that Toma wouldn’t buy that for even a second. He had hit on many guys that weren’t gay and had actually managed to get a few to forget that they weren’t and fuck him but this. This wasn’t about that this was something else.
“Anyone that pretty… Is defiantly gay” Toma whispered and Nino laughed loudly, the hot guy looked at them one of his eyebrows before turning back to what he was doing.
“Anyway are you coming out tonight?” Nino asked pulling his eyes away again and trying hard to forget the cute guy.
“Where to?” Toma asked as the door opened and a harassed looking woman came in with a pushchair and a screaming kid. Nino wrinkled his nose at the noise but tried hard to remain a professional composure. It wasn’t the woman’s fault her kid was screaming blue murder nor was it her fault that he hated all things child.
“The Gates” He answered in a whisper about to move away to leave the better equipped Toma to deal with the woman and brat. The Gates, sometimes referred to as the Hells Gates was a local gay bar, the music was loud and guys were eager that’s all that Nino needed, he looked at the hot guy again and then shook himself. Toma gave a nod before turning to face the customer with a huge bright smile and a bow.
“Hello and welcome” He said and handed a tub of lollypops over to the kid who stopped screaming to take one and look at him as if he was a hero from the heavens.
“Thank-you” The mother said gratefully and Nino laughed from where he was getting a tray to clear tables. By the time he got back the hot guy was gone and Nino felt a sinking feeling in his chest, doubting he would ever see him again.
After they had finished their shift they went home to change, they with their friend Masaki had been friends since infancy and they were all meant to be sharing the flat but a week and a half ago Masaki had gotten the chance to go around the world with his college professor to study animals. While they were getting dressed they drank a little before getting into a taxi that would take them to The Gates, the driver looked a little grossed out when they told him but both Nino and Toma were used to it. The doorman gave them friendly smiles, allowing them to skip the line.
“Thanks” Nino said flashing a smile and the doorman nodded. The music of the club was thumping and almost as soon as he entered Toma was dragged away.
The night was a huge success and so days turned into weeks, every day the hot guy, who he found out was called Matsumoto Jun, came and sat in table 4D and every day Nino would serve him a coffee, that was the base of their relationship, from other staff he found out that he was an actor, weeks turned into months and sometimes there would be someone with him, men and women but the much he watched him the more his crush grew.
He wondered how weird it was to Toma that he seemed almost content that he seemed to be happy just watching the hot guy, the truth was he wasn’t but it had been a long time since he had wanted to know more about a guy other than cock size he was so terrified that if he tried talking to him he’d blow it with the first word, and before he realised it, it had been a year of seeing Jun at the café, and Masaki came back from his world tour of weird and wonderful animals and was looking for a job and Toma and Nino had begged the owner to give him a chance.
He wasn’t there for Aiba’s first shift, which had pissed him off, for the past year he had taken every dinner shift so he could see Matsu. He was told later that Masaki had been impressive though, but the first Nino heard of him getting Jun’s number was that night in The Gates, he had gone alone as he had worked the evening shift, he went to get a drink trying to forget the hot guy, as he was about to go to the dance floor he was almost tackled by Aiba, his long limbs slamming into him knocking the drink out of his hands “Shit Aiba” He snapped looking down at his soaked t-shirt
“Sorry…” Masaki said over the music, “I’ll buy you another one…”
“T-shirt?” Nino growled pulling it up as the drink was becoming cold on his skin, “Get me another I’m going try and dry this” He said and Masaki nodded. With a sigh Nino went to the bathroom glad that it was fairly empty, he went to a hand dryer and started trying to dry his top. “For fucks sake” He mumbled knowing that it was going to be next to impossible to get it dry but he did the best he could and headed back into the club. Masaki and Toma were leaning against the bar and Nino realised how happy Masaki looked and then he saw Jun coming towards them a big smile on his face as he looked at Masaki and Nino knew he had lost, he saw Toma shooting him ‘I’m sorry’ looks and he forced himself to smile as Masaki handed him another drink
“I’m sorry” Masaki said and Nino shook his head laughing to hide his pain as Jun looked at him as if he was seeing him for the first time.
“Hey chill it’s only a t-shirt… Come I want to find a guy who’s going to get me out of this wet t-shirt” Nino said grabbing Tomas hand and dragging him to the dance floor his beady eyes scanning the faces, searching for one to at least match the good looking guy. Finding his target, he dropped his friends hands and moved sneaking up on him. He started by dancing near, and kept making eye contact, and soon the guy had picked up the hint, and Nino smiled as he felt his hands on him.
“Satoshi” He said in his ear, after they had been ‘moving’ for a while, it would have been too much of a stretch to say they were dancing as they were pretty much dry humping on the dance floor.
“I know… I’m Nino” Nino said flashing a smile that was completely aimed to flatter, the beautiful guy the last thing on his mind as he moved his body against Ohno’s.
“I know” Satoshi said and Nino laughed his hands sliding down his back to cup at his ass.
“Well since we know each other why don’t we head back to mine?” Nino asked nibbling at the shell of his ear. Satoshi nodded without speaking and they headed out of the club, Nino avoiding looking at Masaki and Jun who were dancing together on the dance floor
Nino opened his eyes slowly looking across at the guy that he had picked up last night, trying to remember a name. Sat…Ohno…Satoshi, he thought blankly. The sun light was playing on his face and Nino gave a smile, at least he was good looking he thought rolling onto his back and looking up at the ceiling. His smile dropped as another memory came back to him, Masaki with the hot guy from table 4D. A knot of pain formed in his stomach, unable to believe that in just one day Masaki had managed to steal him away. The cute guy Satoshi gave a sleepy soft moan his eyes opening slowly.
“Good morning” Nino said smiling at him Satoshi moaned again nuzzling at the pillow, his eyes falling closed again. Nino let out a laugh, poking at his ribs. “Are you planning on staying here all day?” he asked and Satoshi’s eyes opened again so he could stare at him. “Well”
“Why not? I was going to leave last night, but you stopped me, and begged me to stay” he said sleepily “And I did, even though you called me ‘Jun’ a few times” Nino looked at his hands feeling a little guilty that he had done that, but he hadn’t been able to stop himself. Everything had poured out of him at once and of course he had ended up embarrassing himself. Satoshi didn’t seem to mind thought and rolled over on to his side his hand caressing his stomach as he asked “So who’s Jun? An ex? “
“No such luck, just some guy” Nino shrugged, and Satoshi gave a sigh, kissing his shoulder and Nino blinked looking across at him with a lifted eyebrow asking “What was that for?”
“You looked depressed” Satoshi shrugged with an easy smile “Besides I had a better time than I thought last night. I wasn’t even planning on going out last night. So I’m glad I did”
“Well I’m glad you were happy with it” Nino said, wondering why he was stalling, he normally pushed his one night stands out as soon as they were coherent. He guessed it was because he didn’t want to go out and have Masaki gush about his night with Jun or have Toma apologising for something that was nobody’s fault. He had never made a move on Jun, and judging from the way Jun had looked at him last night he wouldn’t have stood a chance anyway. He let out a long sigh almost forgetting that he wasn’t alone, until Satoshi ran a hand up his arm. He pushed his depressing thoughts away deciding that if the other guy didn’t want to leave yet they might as well have some more fun. He rolled over landing on top of him. “Fancy another go?” He asked hopefully. He might not be able to have Jun but he could have some great sex with a guy that was ready and eager. Satoshi it seemed didn’t need to be asked twice his hands sliding over his body and going to his ass. “I’ll take that as a yes…”
“A big yes…” Satoshi breathed against his lips and Nino smiled his hands hooking around his neck. They were about to kiss when the door flew open and Masaki came flying in landing on the bed before Nino could move away, he just managed to pull the quilt over them before Masaki screamed loudly;
“Nino-chan! I think I’m in love”
Nino dropped his head onto Ohno’s shoulder really not wanting this. It wasn’t fair. He wasn’t able to even allowed to have a few moments without having to deal with him and Jun.
“Masaki… Go away” He mumbled darkly, his voice muffled against Ohno’s skin.
“Eh?” Masaki whined pulling on the quilt, “Wh- Ah, sorry!” he said as the cover fell down and revealed Satoshi with his hands still on Nino’s body, never one to be put out Masaki recovered quickly and gave a loud laugh. “Hi, I’m just Nino’s roommate; we’re not in a weird relationship or anything”
“Hi, I’m Ohno Satoshi” Satoshi replied calmly and Nino let out a strangled laugh and rolled back off of Satoshi, and pulled a pair of boxer shorts out of his drawer.
“I’m Aiba Masaki, nice to meet you”
“Masaki, is there any chance you could let us get dressed? Can’t you go bug Toma?” Nino asked, waving his underwear in the hopes that his friend would get the hint
“He’s not in, after you left he hooked up with ‘Yamapi’ and they left together” Masaki said cheerfully climbing off the bed, Nino looked at him sharply his eyebrow raised.
“What, again?” he said “If he’s not careful he’ll end up with a boyfriend” he said with a sigh.
“Is that a bad thing?” Masaki asked worriedly and Nino gave a laugh, hiding the tremble in his heart at that, suspecting that his friend was thinking about Jun and that hurt him more than anything else right now.
“Just get out of here and make coffee” he said more stiffly than he intended shooting his friend his best glare knowing that if he had to deal with him for a moment longer he would have punched him in the happy looking face.
“Fine, fine” Masaki said heading back to the door and “Satoshi, how do you like it?”
“White with two sugars” Satoshi mumbled, pushing himself up in the bed and looking for his clothes
“Sorry about Masaki he’s a complete… Idiot” Nino said almost shouting the word ‘Idiot’ so he was sure Masaki would hear him.
“It’s okay; you're good friend’s ne? I see you and him together a lot, along with the other guy that grins a lot…”
“Toma, yeah, all three of us have been friends for ages” Nino mumbled with a nod, pulling up his boxers and going to his cupboard to take out some clothes. While Satoshi started scrambling around for his clothes on the floor.
“You’re always with that muscular guy…”
“Sho… and not anymore” Satoshi said his tone of voice suggesting that he didn’t want to continue the subject and Nino was always fine with things not getting to heavy emotionally. He did turn and smile apologetically when he saw pain in his eyes and he mumbled;
“Ah… Sorry”
“It’s not your fault” Satoshi said smiling again as he pulled on his clubbing shirt and frowning as he was hit with the stench of Tabaco and drink all in one hot mess. “Can I use your bathroom?”
“Yeah, hang on a minute…And I’ll sort you out with a toothbrush”
“You have a collection?” Satoshi raised his eyebrow his lips twitching as if he had heard about him and was curious to know if it was all true. Nino wiggled his eyebrows and then buttocks before leading the way from his room as he answered;
“I buy packs…Come on…” Masaki was just stirring three mugs as they entered the kitchen area, and Nino pushed open a door and waved him inside. He opened a cupboard and pulled out a dark blue tooth brush presenting it with a smile “There you go” he said before taking out a light yellow one and brushed his own teeth trying hard not to look at himself in the mirror positive that he would look like a zombie.
“Thanks…Are you normally this nice to your one night stands?”
“Only the ones that I like and hope will find their way back again…” Nino winked grinning as he put his tooth brush into the glass and then heading out into the living area with Satoshi trailing after him. He sat down at the table and grabbed his coffee licking his lips in anticipation. After one sip he gagged and spat it out while Masaki laughed loudly.
“You put salt in my coffee?” Nino screamed, standing up so quickly the chair fell backwards and landed on the floor with a clatter before he jumped at his friend trying to smack him in the face. He was already filled with a lot of emotions towards his friend and this was one of those moments where he genuinely wanted to kill him.
“I’m not an idiot!” Masaki said still laughing as Nino started chasing him around the kitchen and living room with a tea towel swirling it around until he could use it as a serviceable whip flicking it in his friend’s direction.
“No, you’re a devious little… tall sod” Nino snapped, flicking the towel again and managing to hit the back of his bare legs causing a satisfyingly red welt to appear on the skin before he did it again with more force and less play. He hated himself for it but there was a deep sense of satisfaction inside him to see it.
“Ow!” Masaki moaned rubbing the reddening skin as he hobbled back to the table just as Satoshi came and sat down looking at them with raised eyebrows “I’ll make you another one”
“You’d better” Nino said forcing out a soft laugh wanting to find it in himself to be normal around his friend, even though he had unknowingly stolen the guy that he liked. He sat down and patted the chair beside him for Satoshi who sat down and looked almost doubtfully at the coffee in front of him. “It’s okay, Masaki wouldn’t poison a guest”
“Of course I wouldn’t!” Masaki said, putting a fresh cup of coffee down in front of Nino and smiling at Satoshi. “Wow, this is rare”
“What is?” Satoshi asked not seemingly put out by the looks Masaki was giving him as he drank his coffee.
“Meeting one of Nino’s friends” Masaki said and Nino gave an almost audible groan “He normally pushes them out of the door as soon as possible”
“Really” Satoshi smiled looking at Nino, who was glaring at his coffee “So you’re in love?”
“Yep… At least I think so, Nino why didn’t you tell me that there was such a cute guy that came to the café?” Masaki asked and Nino shrugged as flippantly as he could manage trying his best to stop the near painful swarm of butterflies from raising and swarming. Once again he was overwhelmed with the urge to punch the smile off of his friend’s face.
“Is there? Who?” He said praying that his voice didn’t give him away. “I didn’t know there was…”
“Jun!” Masaki said and Nino went slightly red as Satoshi looked at him a knowing look in his eyes his hand coming to rest on his thigh.
“Oh him, he isn’t that good looking, most of the time he looked stuck up” Nino mumbled, trying to push the image of Jun away and continued “and he only ever came for a coffee, what was the point of that? Plus, most of the time he looked like he was thinking he was too good to be there… Miserable looking…If you find that attractive then…”
“Good morning” a voice said behind him and slowly he turned, praying that it wasn’t who he thought it was but he found himself staring directly at Jun and his heart sank. There was no way that he couldn’t have heard him. He swallowed a few times and then ran out of the apartment as soon as he could, feeling stupid, not because of the things he had said about Jun, or that he had overheard him but because he was jealous that Masaki had obviously already slept with him. He was just turning the corner to the lobby when he crashed into Toma who was just coming in, fresh bright love bites doted on his neck.
“Nino? Is everything okay?” He asked, for once there was no trace of his huge friendly grin, Nino nodded though his heart was breaking. He wished that he could tell Toma about it but there was no time now and he quickly gave his friend an abridged version of events muttering slowly;
“Everything’s fine…I’ve got the early shift, oh if you’re going back in Aiba’s got company and the guy I brought back is in there”
“O-Kay… He brought Matsumoto back…” Toma said fitting the pieces together quickly, Nino gave a small tight smile and nodded again starting to make his way to the door as he said;
“Yep”
“Crap, Nino you should tell Masaki…”
“Tell Masaki what? I used to drool over his crush… It’s not like I had any claims on him…”
“Nino…” Toma said and Nino held up his hand stopping him from continuing and Nino wished that he had managed to get out of here before meeting Toma who knew him and the situation far too well for him to feel comfortable.
“I really have to go… There isn’t anything wrong since there wasn’t anything between me and him was there… Come on he didn’t even recognise me; I’ve been pouring his coffee nearly every day for a year” Nino mumbled wondering why he felt like crying. Before letting Toma see that he forced a smile and continued his way out of the building.
That day Jun didn’t come to sit at table 4D but Nino couldn’t stop his eyes from going there hoping to see him but praying he didn’t. Just as he was about to leave at 2o’clock Satoshi turned up and beamed at him brightly a paint smudge on his cheek and chin and Nino couldn’t help but roll his eyes a little and ask;
“What are you doing here?”
“Your roommate told me where you worked and as I was working in the area I thought I’d come and see you” Satoshi shrugged “You ran out in a hurry…”
“I had work” Nino shrugged knowing that it was a lame excuse. The café hadn’t even started to open when he had showed and he knew that he could have stayed at home for a while longer but that wasn’t possible when Jun was there happily sitting with Masaki as if it was the most normal thing in the world for him to be doing.
“So it had nothing to do with the fact that you said all those things about a guy you obviously have a thing for?” Satoshi asked flashing a sleepy smile, and Nino knew he blushed, a deep embarrassing scarlet despite himself. “You should relax; I think he only heard a few bits of it… And he looked hung over…”
“Why are you being so nice?”
“You let me top” Satoshi beamed, giving him a board wink that Nino guessed was completely out of his character. But then, he thought, he was getting over a break up, and no matter how much he pretended he and ‘Sho’ had been close, really close. “Are you finished? I want you to come somewhere with me”
“Where?” Nino asked raising an eyebrow unfastening the apron from around his waist and going to his peg. He hoped that he could have some time that would allow him not to think about Jun, Masaki, and their relationship.
“You’ll see” Satoshi said mysteriously a smile spreading over his lips and Nino shrugged, deciding that if he was going to kill him he would have done so last night. He still sent a text to Toma, just in case. He thought that Satoshi would have a car or something but instead they headed towards a bus stop and pulled out a bus pass.
“You don’t drive?” he asked and Satoshi shook his head with a strange little tight smile on his lips as he muttered somewhat darkly;
“Nope, Sho used to do that…He didn’t want me to drive…He said that I got too easily distracted…”
“Wow…Controlling much…What happened?” Nino asked landing on the seat with bump, he didn’t normally care but today he was feeling generous and he decided that dealing with somebody else’s problems were better than having to deal with his own.
“He cheated on me” Satoshi mumbled with a sigh kicking a stone over the pavement “He said it was ‘only once and it would never happen again’ but once was enough”
“…You know I’m not the best person to understand this…I mean I’ve been the ‘other guy’ more than once” Nino told him honestly and somehow managing to hate himself for it. He had never really thought about the feelings of the third party before, it was all about him. Maybe this was why Jun would prefer somebody like Masaki who was all sweetness and light over somebody like him who was worse than a whore because he didn’t even bother charging. Satoshi nodded looking at him apologetically as he murmured;
“I know, but it all honesty you’re the best person for me to get back at Sho with…”
“I see, well if you want to make a guy jealous, I’m good at that” He said with a laugh, his eyes flashing playfully “Just tell me what you want me to do”
“Thanks” Satoshi grinned as the bus pulled up. As they rode across town Satoshi told him a little of his relationship with ‘Sakurai Sho’ “We’ve been together since college, I kind of thought we’d always be together, I guess I was an idiot for believing that” Satoshi gave him a sad smile, and then looked out of the window before continuing. “I work as a set painter for the theatre so I travel a lot, a week ago I came home early from and I found him in bed with another guy… They were still going at it…”
“Fuck” Nino spat, thinking back to the guy he had seen Satoshi with, he honestly didn’t look the type. “So that was your reason for hooking up with me?”
“In all honesty, Sho doesn’t like you or your type of person so…” Again there was an apologetic smile and Nino let out another laugh wrapping his arm around his shoulders and ruffling the hair on the back of his head saying;
“Hey relax, I was using you too, and I’m not really into the whole relationship thing”
“Not even with ‘Jun’?”
“N-No… Not even with Jun” He said as his smile froze knowing that the light in his eyes dipped for just a moment. Satoshi went silent looking out of the window until ringing the bell and standing. Nino pushed away his feelings and gave a cough as they got off the bus. “So how do you want to do this?”
“Just be yourself, Sho already knows your reputation…”
“Okay” Nino grinned at him linking their fingers together as they walked to the apartment building. Satoshi released his hand just long enough to pull a key out of his pocket and he stuffed it in the lock before taking a deep steadying breath before pushing it open and heading inside clutching at Nino’s hand again. A voice from within whispered;
“Satoshi, you came back”
“Only to get my things” Satoshi mumbled pushing past him and dragging Nino with him. Nino gave the Sho a bright grin as he was pulled into a living room. The whole room had the clear feel of couple about it and Nino almost couldn’t believe that anyone would want to give that up for a quick fuck. Sho’s eyes narrowed on him and his lips curled into a near ugly grimace as he spat;
“You? What are you doing here?”
“Oh-chan’s one of my friends” Nino shrugged, accenting the ‘friends’. He put his arms around Ohno’s waist and kissed his neck “You should get your stuff, babe” he whispered softly running his hands over Satoshi more than he would have normally. It seemed to be having the right effect as Sho’s jaw tightened and his eyes narrowed. Satoshi vanished into what must have been the bedroom, while Nino flopped down onto the sofa making himself at home.
“What the hell are you doing with Satoshi?”
“I told you, he’s one of my friends…We have fun…And lots of it…” Nino winked rocking on his heels back and forth knowing just how to piss of guys and Sho’s face twisted into yet another disgusted look that made him feel as though he was a bug at the bottom of his shoe. Something that he couldn’t do when Nino knew for a fact that this fucker had cheated on Satoshi who was actually a rather sweet and nice guy.
“No way… Satoshi isn’t like that…”
“Oh yeah? He screwed my brains out more than once last night, maybe you just stifled him?” Nino said. Sho’s face was a picture and Nino wondered if he should feel even the slightest bit guilty. He didn’t if anything he was enjoying this and at least he wasn’t thinking about Masaki and Jun. Sho opened and closed his mouth a few times and with a sigh Nino rolled his eyes up and went into the room Satoshi had. Satoshi was sat on the bed looking at a photo tears rolling down his cheeks. Nino sat next to him on the bed taking the picture he wiped the chubby cheeks and kissed his lips.
“Thanks” Satoshi mumbled with a smile grabbing his half full bag of clothes and getting up from the bed and tossing the picture down onto the floor.
“Come on Satoshi-chan” Nino said taking the bag from him and slinging it over his shoulder. It didn’t seem to have enough inside but Satoshi looked like he needed to get out of there. When they moved back into the living area Sho was sat in a chair staring at the table with an almost unreadable expression on his face, he looked up as they entered and Nino gave Satoshi’s hand a small squeeze going to the door.
“Satoshi, don’t do this, not with him… You know what he’s like…” Sakurai said softly “I’m sorry for what I did… You can punish me all you want but you deserve better than him”
“That’s rich” Nino mumbled darkly from his position by the door. “At least people know up front what I’m like…”
“He deserves better than you…”
“So I deserve someone like you? Who pretends to love me but then fucks someone behind my back?” Sho hissed and Nino smirked leaning against the door and deciding that this was better entertainment than he was expecting.
“I do love you” Sho mumbled slowly “I made a mistake…”
“Yeah, you told me…” Satoshi said and Nino was impressed at how calm he was managing to keep his voice. If it was him he would have given amateur dramatics and thrown punches “If you loved me, you wouldn’t have slept with that guy…”
“Sa- “
“Babe, are you ready, I really have to get back” Nino said, it was a lie but Satoshi blinked and ran to him as though a spell had been broken. Nino could tell that Sho wanted to stop him so he quickly grabbed his hand and pulled him out of the apartment.
“Thanks…For all of this…” Satoshi said as they got into the elevator taking the bag from him again and Nino swallowed and clapped him hard on the shoulder saying;
“Anytime… What are you going to do?”
“I’ve been staying with my sister” Satoshi answered in a soft voice. Nino nodded humming to himself until the elevator reached the ground floor.
“Well if you ever need a ‘friend’… You know where I am” Nino said deciding to flag down a taxi and head home
“You too” Satoshi grinned clutching his bag and going to the bus stop. Nino smiled before squaring his shoulders knowing that he would have to start dealing with the reality of Jun and Aiba.
*~*~*~*Present day*~*~*~*
Nino took a breath before pushing open the door of the apartment, Masaki had asked him to go to Jun’s apartment and collect his things and give back his key. He could have said ‘no, do it yourself’ but a small part of him wanted to see Jun to make sure that he was okay. He had only ever been to Jun’s apartment once before for a party he had spent as much time as he could away from Jun and Aiba. Spending most of the night being rimmed by some actor ‘wanna be’ in the bathroom. He knew he was a slut, he had been, and he could blame it on a lot of things… Like, he came from broken home or a deep lack of self-worth. But deep down the answer was simple he liked to fuck and be fucked. As long as everyone was enjoying themselves it didn’t matter. At least it had been that way before Jun.
When he had been dating Masaki he would always give him the most disgusted looks, like he was a cockroach or worse. When other people that looked at him that way he would just ignore it or was a lot ruder back but when Jun looked at him like that he had almost exploded in anger.
Most of their knowing each other had been volatile each dropping snipping comments at each other but there were sometimes that Jun could be really sweet to him. Like his birthday. Nino smiled at the memory for a moment and then jumped as he heard a muffled curse and then a door opening.
Nino’s heart thumped as he saw Jun stumbling around very obviously drunk, in fact he still had a bottle in his hand though most of the liquid seemed to be spilling onto the floor now.
“Matsumoto-san?” Nino whispered slowly, terrified that the idol was going to fall head first into the glass table or something. Jun turned to stare at him, trying to focus blood shot dilated eyes in his direction.
“What are you doing here?” He slurred stumbling towards him. Nino almost cringed as he looked at him. His hair was a bird’s nest on his head and his clothes were the same ones he had seen him in the club two days ago. He tried hard not to wrinkle his nose at the smell that was coming off of him as he whispered;
“Ma-Masa… He sent me to fetch his stuff”
“I don’t know where it is” Jun said his arm flaying around the drink from the bottle going everywhere and almost splashing him in the face.
“For fucks sake” Nino swore, marching forwards he grabbed the bottle from his hand and threw it down, promising himself that he would clean it up later “Wow, you stink, when was the last time you had a bath?”
“What’s it to you?”
“Nothing but I can just imagine all of your little fan girls crying if they ever saw you like this” Nino grumbled praying that his fake self-confidence wouldn’t fail him now. He all but physically dragged the protesting Jun into the bathroom and pulled his clothes off. Nino ran his eyes over the body that he had been picturing naked for over a year and even the though he sweaty and clammy it was still far better than anything he had ever imagined “God, you’re disgusting” he bit out letting him go before he did something utterly stupid. “Completely disgusting…”
“I’m disgusting?” Jun repeated and Nino knew if the idol was sober he would have given him a seething comment instead he just sank down onto the toilet seat while Nino ran him a bath.
“Yep, completely disgusting, how can you get into a state like this over one guy?”
“No…None…” Jun managed and Nino finished the sentence for him in his own head ‘None of your business brat’. Well he was the one that had found him so this was his business he told himself.
“What about work?” Nino asked testing the water with his elbow not wanting to scold Jun on top of everything else
“Phoned… Poorly”
“Wow, such a girl… One broken heart and it’s the end of the world…” Nino mumbled grabbing him by the arms and guiding him to the bath wanting desperately to ignore the beautiful thing that was dangling in front of his eyes as he helped him in to the bath.
“You don’t… Have a heart so… No understand” Jun said almost slipping in the water until Nino caught him and helped him sit down
“If having a heart means I end up as pathetic as you I’m glad I got rid of that sucker” Nino mumbled, trying to ignore the stabbing pains in his heart. He grabbed the soap with one hand still supporting Jun with the other. He scrubbed him gently trying not to let his hands linger for too long, in case the idol decided when he was sober that Nino had taken advantage of him.
“Why… Are y-you doing this?” Jun asked and Nino’s heart leapt when he saw how close they were.
“Don’t tell anyone, but you’re my good deed for the year” Nino shrugged quickly grabbing a jug from the side and pouring it over his head so Jun wouldn’t see his blush. The idol spluttered for a bit and Nino tried not to laugh as he took some expensive shampoo and applied it to his hair.
“Feels nice…” Jun sighed happily as Nino started working the soap up into his hair.
“You like other people touching your hair?” Nino asked slightly scrapping his nails over his head. Jun nodded happily. Nino pretty much massaged his head until Jun was almost moaning in pleasure. Nino had to shift himself a few times to hide the problem he was starting to have.
“Slee-py” Jun mumbled his eyes closing as he rested his back against the rim of the bath
“Not yet… You have to get dry first… Or you’ll catch a cold” Nino said letting the water out and grabbing a towel. Jun swayed slightly as Nino helped him to his feet and out of the bath.
He supported his weight guiding him to the living room, he pushed him down on to the sofa and quickly rubbed him dry. Jun was already falling to sleep when he had finished. With a sigh he pushed him down onto the sofa and tried to find a blanket or something to cover him.
He went into a bedroom and pulled one off bed going back to Jun he grinned when he saw him fast asleep the towel just barely covering his body. Nino wrapped the blanket tightly around him and then set about to tidy the apartment or at least clear some of the bottles. It took him about an hour to clear up the kitchen and living room, trying to make as little noise as possible around Jun. When he finished he grabbed one of the unopened bottles from the fridge and sank into a chair thinking that he should leave but wanting to make sure that Jun would be okay when he woke up. He had drained the first bottle and had just started on a second when Jun finally opened his eyes. The idol blinked startled for a moment and then sat upright holding the blanket over himself.
“You? What are you doing you doing here?” He asked “And why am I naked? Oh crap we didn’t do it did we?”
“As if I’d do you…” Nino snapped thinking ‘so I guess we’re back to normal’ with a sinking heart “You completely plastered when I came round to fetch Masaki’s stuff… Jeez, you were only together a few months…”
“You wouldn’t understand”
“You said that before” Nino said draining the bottle “Well you were wrong then and you’re wrong now…I love Masa, like a brother and I would do anything for him but the truth is even without knowing it our whole lives he’s taken everything I’ve ever wanted” Nino muttered knowing that tomorrow he would be blaming the almost non-existent alcohol in his system for the things he was saying “And that includes you…”
“Me what does this have to do me…?”
“You’re such an idiot” Nino mumbled and the pulled Jun into a kiss, it was brief but enough to send bolts of lightning over his body as he tasted the vodka the taller guy had been drinking.
Jun pushed him away rubbing his lips, the action cutting painfully into Nino’s heart “I was in love with you first, before Masa even saw you… Why not me? Why couldn’t it have been me?” He breathed before kissing him again.
http://krystalkatzfics.livejournal.com/1059881.html
rating: PG
Length: One Shot
Genre: au,
Pairings: Matsumoto Jun/Ninomiya Kazunari (One Sided/Pre-relationship) Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari (Friends with Benefits) Matsumoto Jun/Aiba Masaki (Broken) Ohno Satoshi/Sakurai Sho (Broken) Ikuta Toma/Yamashita Tomohisa
Disclaimer: I only own the plot,
For the past few months Ninomiya Kazunari had been wondering if there was anything worse than the pain of seeing someone you were in love with dating your best friend, and he decided that there was and that was when they broke up and you realised that you might not even see that person again, because no matter how much you hated seeing them with some else at least you got to see them, to be a part of their life no matter how small. He wondered vaguely if he was masochist for being willing to put up with the pain to able to see him smile, that big goofy smile that didn’t fit his image at all, the way he would sometimes forget that he was meant to be a super idol and do geeky things like read manga with more than a little childish delight.
Nino tried pushing those thoughts away ordering another drink, that was all over now, Masaki his best friend had broken up with him rather spectacularly that morning and there was no chance that he would even be able to see him again. Even as he was thinking that the object of his thoughts came in towards the bar, without even looking at him, he ordered a drink and went to sit in one of the big squishy chairs in the ‘quiet section’ of the rather loud club, draining his drink Nino ordered another one his sharp mind running over his options. Matsumoto had been his secret crush for almost two years, before he and Masaki had started dating he had only seen him from afar and had never even dreamed about talking to him except to ask for his order, but he was his perfect guy, he had always sat at table 4d every lunch and had ordered coffee. Nino had looked forwards to those few minutes, and then he had gotten Masaki the part time job for the summer and by the end of his first day he had gotten his number and they had started dating soon after. Jun no longer sat at table 4d and whenever Nino did see him he was either tongue wrestling Masaki or glaring at him.
Not that Nino had really helped to protect what was left of his heart he had built up and pretty strong wall around it and had been as snarky and cold as possible so his friend or Jun would realise how soul destroying it was for him having to listen to them doing their bedroom activities at night, or how much he didn’t want to have to witness the love bites that were dotted over their bodies in the mornings. He had brought a lot of guys home trying to fill the void, but the more he knew about Jun the less it became just a mild crush and developed into real love. He had forced all those feelings away because he wanted his friend to be happy, but now he wanted to be able to somehow wipe the pain that was shadowing the idols eyes, taking a deep breath he swallowed the second drink and slowly walked to the chair beside him and sank into it, Masaki was his best friend almost like his brother but right now he hated him, “Are you okay?” he asked over the loud club music
“As if you care” Jun muttered so softly, Nino barely heard him over the pumping music “Why the fuck doesn’t you go bother someone else…? You got what you wanted you got your best friend back, now fuck off where you came from and let me get drunk in peace…” he snapped and Nino ignored the pain he was feeling and stood up about to leave when Jun grabbed his arm “You made him leave me, right? You poisoned him against me…”
“Yeah, yeah I did all that, I purposely set out to ruin your life…” Nino sighed rolling his eyes, wondering why he even bothered trying to talk to him, Jun had made it clear from the first day he had started dating Masaki that he hated the very sight of him.
“Wouldn’t surprise me, you love Masaki right? Why not just ask him out?”
“I love Masaki?” Nino repeated stupidly wondering how the hell Jun had formed that idea, he pulled his hand out of his grip before he said something stupid like ‘I love you’ and ran to the dance floor glad to see one of his ‘friends’ Ohno Satoshi dancing with another guy, “Oh-chan” He whined throwing his arms around the older guy, ignoring the one he had been dancing with. Satoshi gave a laugh hugging him tightly, as they started dancing swaying side to side that was slightly to gentle for the style of song that was playing.
Nino buried his face into Ohno’s neck breathing in the warm scent letting it make him forget Jun at least for now. He wasn’t sure how much he drank but when he woke the next morning he had a sore head and a sore ass and Satoshi was laying half over him. Nino smiled pinching the chubby almost baby like cheeks, Satoshi was a good guy that he knew would always look after him, but no matter how hard he tried Nino couldn’t fall in love with him, at least not while his heart still belonged to someone else. After a lot of pinching Satoshi opened his eyes and looked up at him,
“I’m here again?” He asked groggily and Nino nodded smiling “Shit, do you remember what happened to my date?”
“Nope” Nino shrugged feeling only half guilty as Satoshi got off of him. His body ached pleasantly and he gave a moan of satisfaction that always came when he had been fucked hard and Satoshi was good at that.
“Damn, you know with the amount of times I end up coming back here we might as well say we’re dating and be done with it” Satoshi said grabbing his t-shirt from the floor, Nino tensed his happiness fading quickly until Satoshi chuckled a flicked his nose “Relax I was only joking…”
“Why not? Why don’t we just start dating? I like you…” He whispered relaxing quickly and managing to smile.
“And I like you, but I think my like is different from your like, Nino, relax though, like a kicked puppy I’ll always come running back to you” Satoshi said ruffling his hair and then stroking his cheek, “Until you forget all about that guy and realise that I’m the best guy for you…Or he realises how great you are and falls in love with you too…”
“I don’t think that’s ever going to happen…” Nino grumbled hating his heart for not loving the great guy that was in front of him.
“Yeah, well like I said I’m here, even if I have a date” Satoshi said pulling on his jeans and hiding his perfect little bottom from view before dragging on a t-shirt that he had found. “I’d better go, I’ve got work…”
“Thanks Oh-chan” Nino said and Satoshi waved a hand leaving the bedroom, he heard him greet Masaki and then the front door open. Nino groaned opening the drawer at the side of his bed and pulling out some painkillers and some bottled water, just as his bedroom door opened and Masaki came running in and jumping on the bed like an excited puppy and Nino wondered how he was managing to hate this guy,
“Oh-chan was here again!”
“Yeah, I kind of noticed” Nino mumbled as he shifted his position and pinched his nose wanting to understand how anybody could be so loud in the mornings. Masaki laughed brightly and then hugged up against him his head resting on his chest as he breathed;
“So are you actually dating or…”
“No, were just friends” Nino mumbled with a shrug trying to push him away but failing Masaki was all long tentacle like limbs that had you and didn’t let go.
“Yeah, but you never bring your other friends home as often as you do Oh-chan” Masaki said and Nino searched his eyes, looking for some sign that he was just as cut up about his break up with Jun as much as Jun was.
“Aiba… Are you sure about breaking up with Matsumoto…?” He asked slowly and there was a shadow in his friend’s eyes but he nodded quickly
“Yep… Me and him weren’t meant to be together” He said easily and Nino grumbled something about having a headache and pulling the cover over his head to stop himself from doing something stupid like punching him he tried to work out where his own life was, Satoshi loved him, he loved Jun and Jun loved Masaki, so who the hell did Masaki love? And why couldn’t he just accept the feelings of the loving Satoshi? Why Masaki? Why not me?
2 years ago
Nino sighed leaning heavily on the counter the cloth in his hand moving over the top but he wasn’t paying attention, customer were coming and going like always and he was thoroughly and completely bored, in his mind he was going through strategy’s for the game Masaki had given him for his birthday and he had just realised that if he went to the alchemist’s first he could get a better sword, the door opened again and Nino come back into his own mind the cloth stopping as he saw the most beautiful man he had ever seen, he walked in and looked around and then went to sit in table 4D, Nino’s eyes watched him through his lashes as the beautiful guy scanned the menu, Nino saw his female co-worker about to head over and Nino grabbed his note book smoothing the front of his apron and then dashed over.
“Can I take your order?” He asked his heart thumping loudly against his ribs Jun turned to look at him,
“Coffee” He answered rather stiffly, turning back to the menu his eyes moving over the words that were written there.
“Anything else?” Nino asked wanting those eyes to look at him again. He was used to make attention, in fact he rather liked it but this was more than that. He just wanted to look.
“Not now” Jun muttered putting the menu down again, Nino putting his useless note book away and went to get a coffee. It wasn’t the best first impression, in fact Nino thought he was arrogant and cold, but he couldn’t stop watching him, the way he drank the coffee, the way he kept running his hand through the silky hair. After that he came by every day always sitting in the same chair, and only ever ordering a coffee.
“Why don’t you just take a picture?” His colleague and second best friend said nudging his arm in a playful way on after about the third week of the guy coming to the table 4D it was like clockwork now and he made sure that he was always there on shift when he arrived.
“What?” Nino blinked very reluctantly pulling his gaze away from the hot guy to look at his still fairly hot co-worker Ikuta Toma.
“Please if you were staring any harder he’d spontaneously combust” Toma laughed wiping his hands on his apron after cleaning the coffee machine and Nino was positive that his cheeks were as red as their horrible aprons.
“I wasn’t staring that hard” Nino denied his eyes automatically going back to the customer, who had pulled out some paperwork out of his bag, and was reading through it with the tip of his tongue poking out of the corner of his mouth.
“No” Toma said rolling his eyes, “Well you stare at him every time he comes in why not…”
“We don’t even know if he’s gay…” Nino mumbled knowing that Toma wouldn’t buy that for even a second. He had hit on many guys that weren’t gay and had actually managed to get a few to forget that they weren’t and fuck him but this. This wasn’t about that this was something else.
“Anyone that pretty… Is defiantly gay” Toma whispered and Nino laughed loudly, the hot guy looked at them one of his eyebrows before turning back to what he was doing.
“Anyway are you coming out tonight?” Nino asked pulling his eyes away again and trying hard to forget the cute guy.
“Where to?” Toma asked as the door opened and a harassed looking woman came in with a pushchair and a screaming kid. Nino wrinkled his nose at the noise but tried hard to remain a professional composure. It wasn’t the woman’s fault her kid was screaming blue murder nor was it her fault that he hated all things child.
“The Gates” He answered in a whisper about to move away to leave the better equipped Toma to deal with the woman and brat. The Gates, sometimes referred to as the Hells Gates was a local gay bar, the music was loud and guys were eager that’s all that Nino needed, he looked at the hot guy again and then shook himself. Toma gave a nod before turning to face the customer with a huge bright smile and a bow.
“Hello and welcome” He said and handed a tub of lollypops over to the kid who stopped screaming to take one and look at him as if he was a hero from the heavens.
“Thank-you” The mother said gratefully and Nino laughed from where he was getting a tray to clear tables. By the time he got back the hot guy was gone and Nino felt a sinking feeling in his chest, doubting he would ever see him again.
After they had finished their shift they went home to change, they with their friend Masaki had been friends since infancy and they were all meant to be sharing the flat but a week and a half ago Masaki had gotten the chance to go around the world with his college professor to study animals. While they were getting dressed they drank a little before getting into a taxi that would take them to The Gates, the driver looked a little grossed out when they told him but both Nino and Toma were used to it. The doorman gave them friendly smiles, allowing them to skip the line.
“Thanks” Nino said flashing a smile and the doorman nodded. The music of the club was thumping and almost as soon as he entered Toma was dragged away.
The night was a huge success and so days turned into weeks, every day the hot guy, who he found out was called Matsumoto Jun, came and sat in table 4D and every day Nino would serve him a coffee, that was the base of their relationship, from other staff he found out that he was an actor, weeks turned into months and sometimes there would be someone with him, men and women but the much he watched him the more his crush grew.
He wondered how weird it was to Toma that he seemed almost content that he seemed to be happy just watching the hot guy, the truth was he wasn’t but it had been a long time since he had wanted to know more about a guy other than cock size he was so terrified that if he tried talking to him he’d blow it with the first word, and before he realised it, it had been a year of seeing Jun at the café, and Masaki came back from his world tour of weird and wonderful animals and was looking for a job and Toma and Nino had begged the owner to give him a chance.
He wasn’t there for Aiba’s first shift, which had pissed him off, for the past year he had taken every dinner shift so he could see Matsu. He was told later that Masaki had been impressive though, but the first Nino heard of him getting Jun’s number was that night in The Gates, he had gone alone as he had worked the evening shift, he went to get a drink trying to forget the hot guy, as he was about to go to the dance floor he was almost tackled by Aiba, his long limbs slamming into him knocking the drink out of his hands “Shit Aiba” He snapped looking down at his soaked t-shirt
“Sorry…” Masaki said over the music, “I’ll buy you another one…”
“T-shirt?” Nino growled pulling it up as the drink was becoming cold on his skin, “Get me another I’m going try and dry this” He said and Masaki nodded. With a sigh Nino went to the bathroom glad that it was fairly empty, he went to a hand dryer and started trying to dry his top. “For fucks sake” He mumbled knowing that it was going to be next to impossible to get it dry but he did the best he could and headed back into the club. Masaki and Toma were leaning against the bar and Nino realised how happy Masaki looked and then he saw Jun coming towards them a big smile on his face as he looked at Masaki and Nino knew he had lost, he saw Toma shooting him ‘I’m sorry’ looks and he forced himself to smile as Masaki handed him another drink
“I’m sorry” Masaki said and Nino shook his head laughing to hide his pain as Jun looked at him as if he was seeing him for the first time.
“Hey chill it’s only a t-shirt… Come I want to find a guy who’s going to get me out of this wet t-shirt” Nino said grabbing Tomas hand and dragging him to the dance floor his beady eyes scanning the faces, searching for one to at least match the good looking guy. Finding his target, he dropped his friends hands and moved sneaking up on him. He started by dancing near, and kept making eye contact, and soon the guy had picked up the hint, and Nino smiled as he felt his hands on him.
“Satoshi” He said in his ear, after they had been ‘moving’ for a while, it would have been too much of a stretch to say they were dancing as they were pretty much dry humping on the dance floor.
“I know… I’m Nino” Nino said flashing a smile that was completely aimed to flatter, the beautiful guy the last thing on his mind as he moved his body against Ohno’s.
“I know” Satoshi said and Nino laughed his hands sliding down his back to cup at his ass.
“Well since we know each other why don’t we head back to mine?” Nino asked nibbling at the shell of his ear. Satoshi nodded without speaking and they headed out of the club, Nino avoiding looking at Masaki and Jun who were dancing together on the dance floor
Nino opened his eyes slowly looking across at the guy that he had picked up last night, trying to remember a name. Sat…Ohno…Satoshi, he thought blankly. The sun light was playing on his face and Nino gave a smile, at least he was good looking he thought rolling onto his back and looking up at the ceiling. His smile dropped as another memory came back to him, Masaki with the hot guy from table 4D. A knot of pain formed in his stomach, unable to believe that in just one day Masaki had managed to steal him away. The cute guy Satoshi gave a sleepy soft moan his eyes opening slowly.
“Good morning” Nino said smiling at him Satoshi moaned again nuzzling at the pillow, his eyes falling closed again. Nino let out a laugh, poking at his ribs. “Are you planning on staying here all day?” he asked and Satoshi’s eyes opened again so he could stare at him. “Well”
“Why not? I was going to leave last night, but you stopped me, and begged me to stay” he said sleepily “And I did, even though you called me ‘Jun’ a few times” Nino looked at his hands feeling a little guilty that he had done that, but he hadn’t been able to stop himself. Everything had poured out of him at once and of course he had ended up embarrassing himself. Satoshi didn’t seem to mind thought and rolled over on to his side his hand caressing his stomach as he asked “So who’s Jun? An ex? “
“No such luck, just some guy” Nino shrugged, and Satoshi gave a sigh, kissing his shoulder and Nino blinked looking across at him with a lifted eyebrow asking “What was that for?”
“You looked depressed” Satoshi shrugged with an easy smile “Besides I had a better time than I thought last night. I wasn’t even planning on going out last night. So I’m glad I did”
“Well I’m glad you were happy with it” Nino said, wondering why he was stalling, he normally pushed his one night stands out as soon as they were coherent. He guessed it was because he didn’t want to go out and have Masaki gush about his night with Jun or have Toma apologising for something that was nobody’s fault. He had never made a move on Jun, and judging from the way Jun had looked at him last night he wouldn’t have stood a chance anyway. He let out a long sigh almost forgetting that he wasn’t alone, until Satoshi ran a hand up his arm. He pushed his depressing thoughts away deciding that if the other guy didn’t want to leave yet they might as well have some more fun. He rolled over landing on top of him. “Fancy another go?” He asked hopefully. He might not be able to have Jun but he could have some great sex with a guy that was ready and eager. Satoshi it seemed didn’t need to be asked twice his hands sliding over his body and going to his ass. “I’ll take that as a yes…”
“A big yes…” Satoshi breathed against his lips and Nino smiled his hands hooking around his neck. They were about to kiss when the door flew open and Masaki came flying in landing on the bed before Nino could move away, he just managed to pull the quilt over them before Masaki screamed loudly;
“Nino-chan! I think I’m in love”
Nino dropped his head onto Ohno’s shoulder really not wanting this. It wasn’t fair. He wasn’t able to even allowed to have a few moments without having to deal with him and Jun.
“Masaki… Go away” He mumbled darkly, his voice muffled against Ohno’s skin.
“Eh?” Masaki whined pulling on the quilt, “Wh- Ah, sorry!” he said as the cover fell down and revealed Satoshi with his hands still on Nino’s body, never one to be put out Masaki recovered quickly and gave a loud laugh. “Hi, I’m just Nino’s roommate; we’re not in a weird relationship or anything”
“Hi, I’m Ohno Satoshi” Satoshi replied calmly and Nino let out a strangled laugh and rolled back off of Satoshi, and pulled a pair of boxer shorts out of his drawer.
“I’m Aiba Masaki, nice to meet you”
“Masaki, is there any chance you could let us get dressed? Can’t you go bug Toma?” Nino asked, waving his underwear in the hopes that his friend would get the hint
“He’s not in, after you left he hooked up with ‘Yamapi’ and they left together” Masaki said cheerfully climbing off the bed, Nino looked at him sharply his eyebrow raised.
“What, again?” he said “If he’s not careful he’ll end up with a boyfriend” he said with a sigh.
“Is that a bad thing?” Masaki asked worriedly and Nino gave a laugh, hiding the tremble in his heart at that, suspecting that his friend was thinking about Jun and that hurt him more than anything else right now.
“Just get out of here and make coffee” he said more stiffly than he intended shooting his friend his best glare knowing that if he had to deal with him for a moment longer he would have punched him in the happy looking face.
“Fine, fine” Masaki said heading back to the door and “Satoshi, how do you like it?”
“White with two sugars” Satoshi mumbled, pushing himself up in the bed and looking for his clothes
“Sorry about Masaki he’s a complete… Idiot” Nino said almost shouting the word ‘Idiot’ so he was sure Masaki would hear him.
“It’s okay; you're good friend’s ne? I see you and him together a lot, along with the other guy that grins a lot…”
“Toma, yeah, all three of us have been friends for ages” Nino mumbled with a nod, pulling up his boxers and going to his cupboard to take out some clothes. While Satoshi started scrambling around for his clothes on the floor.
“You’re always with that muscular guy…”
“Sho… and not anymore” Satoshi said his tone of voice suggesting that he didn’t want to continue the subject and Nino was always fine with things not getting to heavy emotionally. He did turn and smile apologetically when he saw pain in his eyes and he mumbled;
“Ah… Sorry”
“It’s not your fault” Satoshi said smiling again as he pulled on his clubbing shirt and frowning as he was hit with the stench of Tabaco and drink all in one hot mess. “Can I use your bathroom?”
“Yeah, hang on a minute…And I’ll sort you out with a toothbrush”
“You have a collection?” Satoshi raised his eyebrow his lips twitching as if he had heard about him and was curious to know if it was all true. Nino wiggled his eyebrows and then buttocks before leading the way from his room as he answered;
“I buy packs…Come on…” Masaki was just stirring three mugs as they entered the kitchen area, and Nino pushed open a door and waved him inside. He opened a cupboard and pulled out a dark blue tooth brush presenting it with a smile “There you go” he said before taking out a light yellow one and brushed his own teeth trying hard not to look at himself in the mirror positive that he would look like a zombie.
“Thanks…Are you normally this nice to your one night stands?”
“Only the ones that I like and hope will find their way back again…” Nino winked grinning as he put his tooth brush into the glass and then heading out into the living area with Satoshi trailing after him. He sat down at the table and grabbed his coffee licking his lips in anticipation. After one sip he gagged and spat it out while Masaki laughed loudly.
“You put salt in my coffee?” Nino screamed, standing up so quickly the chair fell backwards and landed on the floor with a clatter before he jumped at his friend trying to smack him in the face. He was already filled with a lot of emotions towards his friend and this was one of those moments where he genuinely wanted to kill him.
“I’m not an idiot!” Masaki said still laughing as Nino started chasing him around the kitchen and living room with a tea towel swirling it around until he could use it as a serviceable whip flicking it in his friend’s direction.
“No, you’re a devious little… tall sod” Nino snapped, flicking the towel again and managing to hit the back of his bare legs causing a satisfyingly red welt to appear on the skin before he did it again with more force and less play. He hated himself for it but there was a deep sense of satisfaction inside him to see it.
“Ow!” Masaki moaned rubbing the reddening skin as he hobbled back to the table just as Satoshi came and sat down looking at them with raised eyebrows “I’ll make you another one”
“You’d better” Nino said forcing out a soft laugh wanting to find it in himself to be normal around his friend, even though he had unknowingly stolen the guy that he liked. He sat down and patted the chair beside him for Satoshi who sat down and looked almost doubtfully at the coffee in front of him. “It’s okay, Masaki wouldn’t poison a guest”
“Of course I wouldn’t!” Masaki said, putting a fresh cup of coffee down in front of Nino and smiling at Satoshi. “Wow, this is rare”
“What is?” Satoshi asked not seemingly put out by the looks Masaki was giving him as he drank his coffee.
“Meeting one of Nino’s friends” Masaki said and Nino gave an almost audible groan “He normally pushes them out of the door as soon as possible”
“Really” Satoshi smiled looking at Nino, who was glaring at his coffee “So you’re in love?”
“Yep… At least I think so, Nino why didn’t you tell me that there was such a cute guy that came to the café?” Masaki asked and Nino shrugged as flippantly as he could manage trying his best to stop the near painful swarm of butterflies from raising and swarming. Once again he was overwhelmed with the urge to punch the smile off of his friend’s face.
“Is there? Who?” He said praying that his voice didn’t give him away. “I didn’t know there was…”
“Jun!” Masaki said and Nino went slightly red as Satoshi looked at him a knowing look in his eyes his hand coming to rest on his thigh.
“Oh him, he isn’t that good looking, most of the time he looked stuck up” Nino mumbled, trying to push the image of Jun away and continued “and he only ever came for a coffee, what was the point of that? Plus, most of the time he looked like he was thinking he was too good to be there… Miserable looking…If you find that attractive then…”
“Good morning” a voice said behind him and slowly he turned, praying that it wasn’t who he thought it was but he found himself staring directly at Jun and his heart sank. There was no way that he couldn’t have heard him. He swallowed a few times and then ran out of the apartment as soon as he could, feeling stupid, not because of the things he had said about Jun, or that he had overheard him but because he was jealous that Masaki had obviously already slept with him. He was just turning the corner to the lobby when he crashed into Toma who was just coming in, fresh bright love bites doted on his neck.
“Nino? Is everything okay?” He asked, for once there was no trace of his huge friendly grin, Nino nodded though his heart was breaking. He wished that he could tell Toma about it but there was no time now and he quickly gave his friend an abridged version of events muttering slowly;
“Everything’s fine…I’ve got the early shift, oh if you’re going back in Aiba’s got company and the guy I brought back is in there”
“O-Kay… He brought Matsumoto back…” Toma said fitting the pieces together quickly, Nino gave a small tight smile and nodded again starting to make his way to the door as he said;
“Yep”
“Crap, Nino you should tell Masaki…”
“Tell Masaki what? I used to drool over his crush… It’s not like I had any claims on him…”
“Nino…” Toma said and Nino held up his hand stopping him from continuing and Nino wished that he had managed to get out of here before meeting Toma who knew him and the situation far too well for him to feel comfortable.
“I really have to go… There isn’t anything wrong since there wasn’t anything between me and him was there… Come on he didn’t even recognise me; I’ve been pouring his coffee nearly every day for a year” Nino mumbled wondering why he felt like crying. Before letting Toma see that he forced a smile and continued his way out of the building.
That day Jun didn’t come to sit at table 4D but Nino couldn’t stop his eyes from going there hoping to see him but praying he didn’t. Just as he was about to leave at 2o’clock Satoshi turned up and beamed at him brightly a paint smudge on his cheek and chin and Nino couldn’t help but roll his eyes a little and ask;
“What are you doing here?”
“Your roommate told me where you worked and as I was working in the area I thought I’d come and see you” Satoshi shrugged “You ran out in a hurry…”
“I had work” Nino shrugged knowing that it was a lame excuse. The café hadn’t even started to open when he had showed and he knew that he could have stayed at home for a while longer but that wasn’t possible when Jun was there happily sitting with Masaki as if it was the most normal thing in the world for him to be doing.
“So it had nothing to do with the fact that you said all those things about a guy you obviously have a thing for?” Satoshi asked flashing a sleepy smile, and Nino knew he blushed, a deep embarrassing scarlet despite himself. “You should relax; I think he only heard a few bits of it… And he looked hung over…”
“Why are you being so nice?”
“You let me top” Satoshi beamed, giving him a board wink that Nino guessed was completely out of his character. But then, he thought, he was getting over a break up, and no matter how much he pretended he and ‘Sho’ had been close, really close. “Are you finished? I want you to come somewhere with me”
“Where?” Nino asked raising an eyebrow unfastening the apron from around his waist and going to his peg. He hoped that he could have some time that would allow him not to think about Jun, Masaki, and their relationship.
“You’ll see” Satoshi said mysteriously a smile spreading over his lips and Nino shrugged, deciding that if he was going to kill him he would have done so last night. He still sent a text to Toma, just in case. He thought that Satoshi would have a car or something but instead they headed towards a bus stop and pulled out a bus pass.
“You don’t drive?” he asked and Satoshi shook his head with a strange little tight smile on his lips as he muttered somewhat darkly;
“Nope, Sho used to do that…He didn’t want me to drive…He said that I got too easily distracted…”
“Wow…Controlling much…What happened?” Nino asked landing on the seat with bump, he didn’t normally care but today he was feeling generous and he decided that dealing with somebody else’s problems were better than having to deal with his own.
“He cheated on me” Satoshi mumbled with a sigh kicking a stone over the pavement “He said it was ‘only once and it would never happen again’ but once was enough”
“…You know I’m not the best person to understand this…I mean I’ve been the ‘other guy’ more than once” Nino told him honestly and somehow managing to hate himself for it. He had never really thought about the feelings of the third party before, it was all about him. Maybe this was why Jun would prefer somebody like Masaki who was all sweetness and light over somebody like him who was worse than a whore because he didn’t even bother charging. Satoshi nodded looking at him apologetically as he murmured;
“I know, but it all honesty you’re the best person for me to get back at Sho with…”
“I see, well if you want to make a guy jealous, I’m good at that” He said with a laugh, his eyes flashing playfully “Just tell me what you want me to do”
“Thanks” Satoshi grinned as the bus pulled up. As they rode across town Satoshi told him a little of his relationship with ‘Sakurai Sho’ “We’ve been together since college, I kind of thought we’d always be together, I guess I was an idiot for believing that” Satoshi gave him a sad smile, and then looked out of the window before continuing. “I work as a set painter for the theatre so I travel a lot, a week ago I came home early from and I found him in bed with another guy… They were still going at it…”
“Fuck” Nino spat, thinking back to the guy he had seen Satoshi with, he honestly didn’t look the type. “So that was your reason for hooking up with me?”
“In all honesty, Sho doesn’t like you or your type of person so…” Again there was an apologetic smile and Nino let out another laugh wrapping his arm around his shoulders and ruffling the hair on the back of his head saying;
“Hey relax, I was using you too, and I’m not really into the whole relationship thing”
“Not even with ‘Jun’?”
“N-No… Not even with Jun” He said as his smile froze knowing that the light in his eyes dipped for just a moment. Satoshi went silent looking out of the window until ringing the bell and standing. Nino pushed away his feelings and gave a cough as they got off the bus. “So how do you want to do this?”
“Just be yourself, Sho already knows your reputation…”
“Okay” Nino grinned at him linking their fingers together as they walked to the apartment building. Satoshi released his hand just long enough to pull a key out of his pocket and he stuffed it in the lock before taking a deep steadying breath before pushing it open and heading inside clutching at Nino’s hand again. A voice from within whispered;
“Satoshi, you came back”
“Only to get my things” Satoshi mumbled pushing past him and dragging Nino with him. Nino gave the Sho a bright grin as he was pulled into a living room. The whole room had the clear feel of couple about it and Nino almost couldn’t believe that anyone would want to give that up for a quick fuck. Sho’s eyes narrowed on him and his lips curled into a near ugly grimace as he spat;
“You? What are you doing here?”
“Oh-chan’s one of my friends” Nino shrugged, accenting the ‘friends’. He put his arms around Ohno’s waist and kissed his neck “You should get your stuff, babe” he whispered softly running his hands over Satoshi more than he would have normally. It seemed to be having the right effect as Sho’s jaw tightened and his eyes narrowed. Satoshi vanished into what must have been the bedroom, while Nino flopped down onto the sofa making himself at home.
“What the hell are you doing with Satoshi?”
“I told you, he’s one of my friends…We have fun…And lots of it…” Nino winked rocking on his heels back and forth knowing just how to piss of guys and Sho’s face twisted into yet another disgusted look that made him feel as though he was a bug at the bottom of his shoe. Something that he couldn’t do when Nino knew for a fact that this fucker had cheated on Satoshi who was actually a rather sweet and nice guy.
“No way… Satoshi isn’t like that…”
“Oh yeah? He screwed my brains out more than once last night, maybe you just stifled him?” Nino said. Sho’s face was a picture and Nino wondered if he should feel even the slightest bit guilty. He didn’t if anything he was enjoying this and at least he wasn’t thinking about Masaki and Jun. Sho opened and closed his mouth a few times and with a sigh Nino rolled his eyes up and went into the room Satoshi had. Satoshi was sat on the bed looking at a photo tears rolling down his cheeks. Nino sat next to him on the bed taking the picture he wiped the chubby cheeks and kissed his lips.
“Thanks” Satoshi mumbled with a smile grabbing his half full bag of clothes and getting up from the bed and tossing the picture down onto the floor.
“Come on Satoshi-chan” Nino said taking the bag from him and slinging it over his shoulder. It didn’t seem to have enough inside but Satoshi looked like he needed to get out of there. When they moved back into the living area Sho was sat in a chair staring at the table with an almost unreadable expression on his face, he looked up as they entered and Nino gave Satoshi’s hand a small squeeze going to the door.
“Satoshi, don’t do this, not with him… You know what he’s like…” Sakurai said softly “I’m sorry for what I did… You can punish me all you want but you deserve better than him”
“That’s rich” Nino mumbled darkly from his position by the door. “At least people know up front what I’m like…”
“He deserves better than you…”
“So I deserve someone like you? Who pretends to love me but then fucks someone behind my back?” Sho hissed and Nino smirked leaning against the door and deciding that this was better entertainment than he was expecting.
“I do love you” Sho mumbled slowly “I made a mistake…”
“Yeah, you told me…” Satoshi said and Nino was impressed at how calm he was managing to keep his voice. If it was him he would have given amateur dramatics and thrown punches “If you loved me, you wouldn’t have slept with that guy…”
“Sa- “
“Babe, are you ready, I really have to get back” Nino said, it was a lie but Satoshi blinked and ran to him as though a spell had been broken. Nino could tell that Sho wanted to stop him so he quickly grabbed his hand and pulled him out of the apartment.
“Thanks…For all of this…” Satoshi said as they got into the elevator taking the bag from him again and Nino swallowed and clapped him hard on the shoulder saying;
“Anytime… What are you going to do?”
“I’ve been staying with my sister” Satoshi answered in a soft voice. Nino nodded humming to himself until the elevator reached the ground floor.
“Well if you ever need a ‘friend’… You know where I am” Nino said deciding to flag down a taxi and head home
“You too” Satoshi grinned clutching his bag and going to the bus stop. Nino smiled before squaring his shoulders knowing that he would have to start dealing with the reality of Jun and Aiba.
*~*~*~*Present day*~*~*~*
Nino took a breath before pushing open the door of the apartment, Masaki had asked him to go to Jun’s apartment and collect his things and give back his key. He could have said ‘no, do it yourself’ but a small part of him wanted to see Jun to make sure that he was okay. He had only ever been to Jun’s apartment once before for a party he had spent as much time as he could away from Jun and Aiba. Spending most of the night being rimmed by some actor ‘wanna be’ in the bathroom. He knew he was a slut, he had been, and he could blame it on a lot of things… Like, he came from broken home or a deep lack of self-worth. But deep down the answer was simple he liked to fuck and be fucked. As long as everyone was enjoying themselves it didn’t matter. At least it had been that way before Jun.
When he had been dating Masaki he would always give him the most disgusted looks, like he was a cockroach or worse. When other people that looked at him that way he would just ignore it or was a lot ruder back but when Jun looked at him like that he had almost exploded in anger.
Most of their knowing each other had been volatile each dropping snipping comments at each other but there were sometimes that Jun could be really sweet to him. Like his birthday. Nino smiled at the memory for a moment and then jumped as he heard a muffled curse and then a door opening.
Nino’s heart thumped as he saw Jun stumbling around very obviously drunk, in fact he still had a bottle in his hand though most of the liquid seemed to be spilling onto the floor now.
“Matsumoto-san?” Nino whispered slowly, terrified that the idol was going to fall head first into the glass table or something. Jun turned to stare at him, trying to focus blood shot dilated eyes in his direction.
“What are you doing here?” He slurred stumbling towards him. Nino almost cringed as he looked at him. His hair was a bird’s nest on his head and his clothes were the same ones he had seen him in the club two days ago. He tried hard not to wrinkle his nose at the smell that was coming off of him as he whispered;
“Ma-Masa… He sent me to fetch his stuff”
“I don’t know where it is” Jun said his arm flaying around the drink from the bottle going everywhere and almost splashing him in the face.
“For fucks sake” Nino swore, marching forwards he grabbed the bottle from his hand and threw it down, promising himself that he would clean it up later “Wow, you stink, when was the last time you had a bath?”
“What’s it to you?”
“Nothing but I can just imagine all of your little fan girls crying if they ever saw you like this” Nino grumbled praying that his fake self-confidence wouldn’t fail him now. He all but physically dragged the protesting Jun into the bathroom and pulled his clothes off. Nino ran his eyes over the body that he had been picturing naked for over a year and even the though he sweaty and clammy it was still far better than anything he had ever imagined “God, you’re disgusting” he bit out letting him go before he did something utterly stupid. “Completely disgusting…”
“I’m disgusting?” Jun repeated and Nino knew if the idol was sober he would have given him a seething comment instead he just sank down onto the toilet seat while Nino ran him a bath.
“Yep, completely disgusting, how can you get into a state like this over one guy?”
“No…None…” Jun managed and Nino finished the sentence for him in his own head ‘None of your business brat’. Well he was the one that had found him so this was his business he told himself.
“What about work?” Nino asked testing the water with his elbow not wanting to scold Jun on top of everything else
“Phoned… Poorly”
“Wow, such a girl… One broken heart and it’s the end of the world…” Nino mumbled grabbing him by the arms and guiding him to the bath wanting desperately to ignore the beautiful thing that was dangling in front of his eyes as he helped him in to the bath.
“You don’t… Have a heart so… No understand” Jun said almost slipping in the water until Nino caught him and helped him sit down
“If having a heart means I end up as pathetic as you I’m glad I got rid of that sucker” Nino mumbled, trying to ignore the stabbing pains in his heart. He grabbed the soap with one hand still supporting Jun with the other. He scrubbed him gently trying not to let his hands linger for too long, in case the idol decided when he was sober that Nino had taken advantage of him.
“Why… Are y-you doing this?” Jun asked and Nino’s heart leapt when he saw how close they were.
“Don’t tell anyone, but you’re my good deed for the year” Nino shrugged quickly grabbing a jug from the side and pouring it over his head so Jun wouldn’t see his blush. The idol spluttered for a bit and Nino tried not to laugh as he took some expensive shampoo and applied it to his hair.
“Feels nice…” Jun sighed happily as Nino started working the soap up into his hair.
“You like other people touching your hair?” Nino asked slightly scrapping his nails over his head. Jun nodded happily. Nino pretty much massaged his head until Jun was almost moaning in pleasure. Nino had to shift himself a few times to hide the problem he was starting to have.
“Slee-py” Jun mumbled his eyes closing as he rested his back against the rim of the bath
“Not yet… You have to get dry first… Or you’ll catch a cold” Nino said letting the water out and grabbing a towel. Jun swayed slightly as Nino helped him to his feet and out of the bath.
He supported his weight guiding him to the living room, he pushed him down on to the sofa and quickly rubbed him dry. Jun was already falling to sleep when he had finished. With a sigh he pushed him down onto the sofa and tried to find a blanket or something to cover him.
He went into a bedroom and pulled one off bed going back to Jun he grinned when he saw him fast asleep the towel just barely covering his body. Nino wrapped the blanket tightly around him and then set about to tidy the apartment or at least clear some of the bottles. It took him about an hour to clear up the kitchen and living room, trying to make as little noise as possible around Jun. When he finished he grabbed one of the unopened bottles from the fridge and sank into a chair thinking that he should leave but wanting to make sure that Jun would be okay when he woke up. He had drained the first bottle and had just started on a second when Jun finally opened his eyes. The idol blinked startled for a moment and then sat upright holding the blanket over himself.
“You? What are you doing you doing here?” He asked “And why am I naked? Oh crap we didn’t do it did we?”
“As if I’d do you…” Nino snapped thinking ‘so I guess we’re back to normal’ with a sinking heart “You completely plastered when I came round to fetch Masaki’s stuff… Jeez, you were only together a few months…”
“You wouldn’t understand”
“You said that before” Nino said draining the bottle “Well you were wrong then and you’re wrong now…I love Masa, like a brother and I would do anything for him but the truth is even without knowing it our whole lives he’s taken everything I’ve ever wanted” Nino muttered knowing that tomorrow he would be blaming the almost non-existent alcohol in his system for the things he was saying “And that includes you…”
“Me what does this have to do me…?”
“You’re such an idiot” Nino mumbled and the pulled Jun into a kiss, it was brief but enough to send bolts of lightning over his body as he tasted the vodka the taller guy had been drinking.
Jun pushed him away rubbing his lips, the action cutting painfully into Nino’s heart “I was in love with you first, before Masa even saw you… Why not me? Why couldn’t it have been me?” He breathed before kissing him again.
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