Keep the Faith part 67

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

*~*~*~*~* Present Day*~*~*~*~*

“Why did you lie?” Jun asked suddenly his voice cutting over the sound of the shower and Nino blinked slowly pulling himself once more from his memories his heart catching in his throat. He moved his head and looked over his shoulder to the man that was standing just outside of the shower stall. Soap slipped its way down his face around his eyes and nose as he spluttered;

“What?”

“Four years ago…You lied to me…Why?” Jun asked slowly and Nino shrugged turning back to the tiles in front of him with were slippery with the water from the spray of the shower. A few minutes ago he had been convinced that Jun still believed the lie that he had spun all those years ago but it seemed that he no longer did. There hadn’t been much of a conversation that day. Jun had turned pale, his eyes going from Noaki and then back to him before he stood up and walked out of the room. It had been the last time he had seen Jun. His belongings had been removed by Sho and Satoshi. The pair had desperately tried to get him to apologise to Jun and to move but Nino had ignored their pleas in spite of the way his heart had broken. Sho’s wedding had been awkward, Nino had desperately wanted to go and show his support but Sho had always been more of Jun’s friend than his and he had politely declined the invitation. The same with Satoshi. They had tried to include him with their lives but it had become pointless in the end as they had nothing left in common. The trio were all happily loved up and growing up while he was living no better than he had done in college, and recently he had only been receiving phone calls, if he bothered answering them, and the occasional cards.

“...You believed it…” He muttered somewhat childishly his bottom lip sticking out as he ran his fingers through his hair making sure that he had removed all of the soap before moving down to wash his body while Jun leaned heavily against the side of the shower and Nino knew that his arms would be folded over his chest and his eyes would be closed. It was a sight that he had seen many times when they had been together and it had nearly always ended with him wrapping his arms around his waist and laying his head on the centre of his back and Nino wished with all his heart that he could do that now.

“…Because I believed in you…I didn’t think that you and Noaki would purposely say something just to hurt me…I trusted Noaki to at least tell me the truth…” Jun growled his voice softer than it should have been and Nino wanted him to be angry, his anger was something that he could deal with and felt that he deserved, but this soft resignation was something that he almost couldn’t stand.

“…You didn’t even say anything…You didn’t even argue…You wanted to believe it…You wanted to get away from me…” He whispered weakly turning off the water so he could actually hear what Jun had to say to that and his former lover gave a sad sounding sigh turning so he was now pressed up against the shower as he whispered;

“Because...I was tired…I was so tired Kazu…I couldn’t help you, I didn’t know how to help you…You didn’t want to get help and everything I said…You shot down…When I got the call from Noaki I felt sick, I hated myself for leaving you and…I was angry with you…It’s true…When you told me that…I wanted to believe you, I wanted to find an escape…But you have to believe me that I have never stopped loving you…But…It’s too late isn’t it?”

TBC
A/N: I hope that this is okay ^_^

Comments

[jtaytt.livejournal.com]

Why Jun, why did u believe Nino? Why did you wait for 4 yrs before coming back? If you love him as you said, why not get in touch earlier? It may not be too late but it is going to harder to get through to Nino now.

[denyclamp.livejournal.com]

Waaah he knew.. souka, Jun, it's never too late but I can't believe you left him, it had to be pretty tough uh T_T

[nino1711azuki.livejournal.com]

I wonder whether what jun said is true and nino should hsve just let himself to accept jun's feeling and stop hurting himself and jun ><
Thank you so much for this