Keep the faith part 66
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krystalkatzficz Nino cried as he opened his eyes and found himself alive in a hospital bed. In the chair next to him Jun was sleeping with his head back against the large back and their hands were together with their fingers linked gently. His face was pale, at least most of his face was pale, his eyes were bright red and his lips were chipped and sore as though he had been chewing on them the way that he always did when he was stressed and upset and Nino felt his heart pinch with pain and regret wondering what the fuck had been going through his mind. How the fuck could he have done this to Jun? His mind screamed berating him in a voice that sounded remarkably like his grandmother.
Music could be heard somewhere and it took him a few moments to realise that it was coming from Jun’s MP3 player and the earphones that had escaped Jun’s ears and were hanging down against his chest. It took him a moment but he recognised the song as belonging to Bon Jovi, one of the many songs that he had become devoted to when they were in college.
“I've been waiting, standing in the dark for hours. Tryin' to find the faith and the power to get back home to you. It's been a long time, long time since I've seen your face. On and on I could not replace the fire that burns for you. So here's to the good times, here's to the bad. Here's to the memories that we all had. Here's to tomorrow, let yesterday pass us by…”
Nino swallowed letting the words wash over him for a few moments before making a choice in his mind. He didn’t want to but…But he had to let him go. This…This wasn’t good for either of them. He carefully squeezed the hand of his lover forcing him to open his eyes with a jolt looking at him with wide, scared unfocused eyes. Once he was sure he was awake Nino pulled his hand free and looked down at the bandages wrapped around each of his arms and again Nino felt sick as he remembered the stupidity of what he had done.
“Nino…You…You…You…You’re awake…” Jun asked in a perfectly sore voice which told him just how much he had been crying and it served to further his resolve to make sure that this never happened again.
“Yeah…I’m awake…What are you doing here? What about your job?” He asked as coldly as he could manage ignoring the harsh throbbing that was running through both his arms and the sickly feeling that was rushing around inside his stomach.
“…Nino…Stop acting like a dick and look at me…Tell me what the fuck you were thinking?” Jun pleaded and Nino was glad that they were in a private room so nobody else could see them.
“I wasn’t; I wasn’t thinking anything…” Nino answered knowing that that was at least the truth. There hadn’t been anything going through his mind when he had taken the knife and run it across one arm and then the next but it had been the only thing that had felt right.
“I turned the job down…And I will make sure…”
“Don’t bother…I don’t want you to be there when I get out…I don’t want you anywhere near me…” Nino growled the best that he could his heart hating him more than anything else in the world but it was all that he could do to help Jun at least.
“Kazu…Don’t say that…I know that you’re not feeling very well…But we can work through that together…”
“…I slept with Noaki…When you were away…I slept with Noaki…” Nino lied his eyes going to the door as the man that he was talking about walked through door. His face was blank for a moment his eyes flashing with confusion and Nino tried hard to plead with him to get him to agree. There was a tense second or two before Noaki gave a nod letting him know that he would play along though there would be questions later. “…Why do you think he was there to get me to the hospital?”
“…Why…?”
“You were gone he was here…”
TBC
A/N: I hope that this is okay ^_^
Music could be heard somewhere and it took him a few moments to realise that it was coming from Jun’s MP3 player and the earphones that had escaped Jun’s ears and were hanging down against his chest. It took him a moment but he recognised the song as belonging to Bon Jovi, one of the many songs that he had become devoted to when they were in college.
“I've been waiting, standing in the dark for hours. Tryin' to find the faith and the power to get back home to you. It's been a long time, long time since I've seen your face. On and on I could not replace the fire that burns for you. So here's to the good times, here's to the bad. Here's to the memories that we all had. Here's to tomorrow, let yesterday pass us by…”
Nino swallowed letting the words wash over him for a few moments before making a choice in his mind. He didn’t want to but…But he had to let him go. This…This wasn’t good for either of them. He carefully squeezed the hand of his lover forcing him to open his eyes with a jolt looking at him with wide, scared unfocused eyes. Once he was sure he was awake Nino pulled his hand free and looked down at the bandages wrapped around each of his arms and again Nino felt sick as he remembered the stupidity of what he had done.
“Nino…You…You…You…You’re awake…” Jun asked in a perfectly sore voice which told him just how much he had been crying and it served to further his resolve to make sure that this never happened again.
“Yeah…I’m awake…What are you doing here? What about your job?” He asked as coldly as he could manage ignoring the harsh throbbing that was running through both his arms and the sickly feeling that was rushing around inside his stomach.
“…Nino…Stop acting like a dick and look at me…Tell me what the fuck you were thinking?” Jun pleaded and Nino was glad that they were in a private room so nobody else could see them.
“I wasn’t; I wasn’t thinking anything…” Nino answered knowing that that was at least the truth. There hadn’t been anything going through his mind when he had taken the knife and run it across one arm and then the next but it had been the only thing that had felt right.
“I turned the job down…And I will make sure…”
“Don’t bother…I don’t want you to be there when I get out…I don’t want you anywhere near me…” Nino growled the best that he could his heart hating him more than anything else in the world but it was all that he could do to help Jun at least.
“Kazu…Don’t say that…I know that you’re not feeling very well…But we can work through that together…”
“…I slept with Noaki…When you were away…I slept with Noaki…” Nino lied his eyes going to the door as the man that he was talking about walked through door. His face was blank for a moment his eyes flashing with confusion and Nino tried hard to plead with him to get him to agree. There was a tense second or two before Noaki gave a nod letting him know that he would play along though there would be questions later. “…Why do you think he was there to get me to the hospital?”
“…Why…?”
“You were gone he was here…”
TBC
A/N: I hope that this is okay ^_^
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Date: 2016-06-16 10:03 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-06-16 10:18 am (UTC)thanks for sharing.
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Date: 2016-06-16 10:19 am (UTC)Nooo Nino you lied!! Noooooooo
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Date: 2016-06-16 01:03 pm (UTC)ugh, I wonder if it's the best choice Nino can do. Look at where he is in the present *_*
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Date: 2016-06-16 06:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-06-16 09:58 pm (UTC)