Secrets part 29
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Jun stared at his phone almost smiling when he read the simple text from Nino. It was nothing important, he was just whining about having to walk half a mile for some milk but it was nice, domestic even. His smile faded though when he heard the door open and his wife come into the room. He had been trying to find a way of telling her for the last few days but he couldn’t think of any other way other than packing his clothes and giving it to her straight.
“Mao…I…Need to talk to you…” He breathed getting to his feet and staring at his wife who in turn was staring at the luggage around his feet before she whispered;
“You’re finally leaving me then?”
“I…You…Knew?”
“Of course I knew…I’m not an idiot even if you want to keep treating me like one…” Mao snapped looking justifiably angry. Her beautiful face was tense her eyes narrowed with her hands resting on her hips somehow making the swell of her stomach seem more pronounced and Jun felt like the world’s biggest douche. After all who else could leave their wife while she was pregnant? “When will you be going to him?”
“Him?” Jun repeated with a hiss his insides trembling like a bowl full of Jelly his breath catching in his throat unable to believe that she knew that, he thought that he had been so careful but obviously he hadn’t been careful enough “You…Know…Mao…”
“Again you think I’m an idiot…You hid it well for most of our lives but recently…Since I got pregnant…You’ve changed completely…” Mao sighed sadly her hands slipping around to the swell of her belly and Jun wanted to drop to his knees and apologise but he couldn’t. He was tired of hiding his sexuality of living the laugh of a happy husband and expectant father. He loved Nino…More than somebody like him had the right to love somebody else and it had taken the combination of the pregnancy and Nino saying he was leaving for him to realise that simple fact “You’ve let things slip…His name is Nino right?”
“What? You…” Jun felt as if a punch had landed straight into his stomach as he heard the name of his lover coming out of his wife’s mouth and he stared at her watching as she let out an almost manic kind of laugh.
“I saw the name in your phone…At first I thought it was a woman…But I rang him…I rang him and I asked for Nino...I was surprised when he said that he was Nino…But then…You know I was actually happy? I couldn’t have accepted it if it was a woman but a man…That…That is something you can’t help right? You were born that way it wasn’t something that I didn’t or did do…”
“No, Mao…You have been amazing the best…If I wasn’t…If I wasn’t homosexual…” Jun gave a gasp the word falling awkwardly off of his tongue. It was the first time that he had ever verbally admitted to it and he was surprised at how easily it had come out of his mouth “Mao...I wanted to love you…And I do…But…Not in the way that you deserve…”
“How long have you been with him?”
“It…He was a whore…Just…I paid him to have sex with me…I thought that it wasn’t cheating if it was just a whore…I was wrong, stupid, and cruel but…”
“When you say he was just a whore…I take it that he is no longer just a whore?” Moa asked her voice calm controlled the way that it always was when she was faced with something unbelievably stressful and he hated himself even more for putting that stress onto her when she was in the condition that she was in. But he couldn’t stop talking, and didn’t want to, he wanted her to know everything now that he had finally been able to be honest with himself.
“Yes…But now…He…We agreed to become lovers but he made me tell you first…” He whispered “But I had already decided that I was going to be honest with you, for probably the first time in our marriage…” The slap that landed on his cheek was completely expected and he didn’t cry out or moan when the stinging spread out over his cheek but he did apologise “I’m sorry Mao…”
“…Right now…I hate you…I understand but I hate you…I want you to leave…When I’ve calmed down we can talk…”
“I understand but the baby…”
“…You will always be the father…But right now I don’t want you knew me…So please just leave…” Mao said pointing to the door and Jun nodded slowly collecting his bag and slinging it over his shoulder.
“I am sorry, Mao…”
“…I know…But right now…I don’t care…Goodbye Jun…”
TBC
A/N: :’( I’m soooo sorry for Mao fans >.< but she handled it with dignity ne
Jun stared at his phone almost smiling when he read the simple text from Nino. It was nothing important, he was just whining about having to walk half a mile for some milk but it was nice, domestic even. His smile faded though when he heard the door open and his wife come into the room. He had been trying to find a way of telling her for the last few days but he couldn’t think of any other way other than packing his clothes and giving it to her straight.
“Mao…I…Need to talk to you…” He breathed getting to his feet and staring at his wife who in turn was staring at the luggage around his feet before she whispered;
“You’re finally leaving me then?”
“I…You…Knew?”
“Of course I knew…I’m not an idiot even if you want to keep treating me like one…” Mao snapped looking justifiably angry. Her beautiful face was tense her eyes narrowed with her hands resting on her hips somehow making the swell of her stomach seem more pronounced and Jun felt like the world’s biggest douche. After all who else could leave their wife while she was pregnant? “When will you be going to him?”
“Him?” Jun repeated with a hiss his insides trembling like a bowl full of Jelly his breath catching in his throat unable to believe that she knew that, he thought that he had been so careful but obviously he hadn’t been careful enough “You…Know…Mao…”
“Again you think I’m an idiot…You hid it well for most of our lives but recently…Since I got pregnant…You’ve changed completely…” Mao sighed sadly her hands slipping around to the swell of her belly and Jun wanted to drop to his knees and apologise but he couldn’t. He was tired of hiding his sexuality of living the laugh of a happy husband and expectant father. He loved Nino…More than somebody like him had the right to love somebody else and it had taken the combination of the pregnancy and Nino saying he was leaving for him to realise that simple fact “You’ve let things slip…His name is Nino right?”
“What? You…” Jun felt as if a punch had landed straight into his stomach as he heard the name of his lover coming out of his wife’s mouth and he stared at her watching as she let out an almost manic kind of laugh.
“I saw the name in your phone…At first I thought it was a woman…But I rang him…I rang him and I asked for Nino...I was surprised when he said that he was Nino…But then…You know I was actually happy? I couldn’t have accepted it if it was a woman but a man…That…That is something you can’t help right? You were born that way it wasn’t something that I didn’t or did do…”
“No, Mao…You have been amazing the best…If I wasn’t…If I wasn’t homosexual…” Jun gave a gasp the word falling awkwardly off of his tongue. It was the first time that he had ever verbally admitted to it and he was surprised at how easily it had come out of his mouth “Mao...I wanted to love you…And I do…But…Not in the way that you deserve…”
“How long have you been with him?”
“It…He was a whore…Just…I paid him to have sex with me…I thought that it wasn’t cheating if it was just a whore…I was wrong, stupid, and cruel but…”
“When you say he was just a whore…I take it that he is no longer just a whore?” Moa asked her voice calm controlled the way that it always was when she was faced with something unbelievably stressful and he hated himself even more for putting that stress onto her when she was in the condition that she was in. But he couldn’t stop talking, and didn’t want to, he wanted her to know everything now that he had finally been able to be honest with himself.
“Yes…But now…He…We agreed to become lovers but he made me tell you first…” He whispered “But I had already decided that I was going to be honest with you, for probably the first time in our marriage…” The slap that landed on his cheek was completely expected and he didn’t cry out or moan when the stinging spread out over his cheek but he did apologise “I’m sorry Mao…”
“…Right now…I hate you…I understand but I hate you…I want you to leave…When I’ve calmed down we can talk…”
“I understand but the baby…”
“…You will always be the father…But right now I don’t want you knew me…So please just leave…” Mao said pointing to the door and Jun nodded slowly collecting his bag and slinging it over his shoulder.
“I am sorry, Mao…”
“…I know…But right now…I don’t care…Goodbye Jun…”
TBC
A/N: :’( I’m soooo sorry for Mao fans >.< but she handled it with dignity ne
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