The Phone Call part ten
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Jun opened his eyes, shocked that he had fallen to sleep at all. Next to him he felt the warm body of his bandmate and slowly he shifted hoping to leave before Nino realised that he was there. His arm moved out from under the small thin form but to his surprise his hand was caught and Nino was asking in a teasing whisper;
“You’re finally awake then?”
“Un…Sorry…You…You were having a bad dream…” Jun mumbled pointlessly his cheeks glowing a bright red as he tried to look at his friend realising that his glasses had been removed and although he could see him it was just a vaguely misty outline of a person with his back to him. “I guess I fell to sleep…”
“Ya’ think?” Nino muttered keeping a tight hold of his hand his back facing him as he played with his fingers. “Thanks…For coming to my rescue…Even in my sleep, Jun…”
“Any time…” Jun smiled squeezing at the hand the best that he could, deciding that now he was awake he should probably go and use the bed he had paid so much money for “I’ll go…”
“Stay…” Nino whispered urgently sounding almost panicked by the idea before he cleared his throat and continued in a much more relaxed tone “I mean it’s almost morning anyway…” The slightly older man paused again and then said in a softer more hesitant tone “…Unless it bothers you…Being in bed with a fag…”
“Idiot…” Jun snapped straight away surprising them both by wrapping his arm around him tightly and pressing his lips to the back of his neck his nose pressing just lightly into the sweet smelling hair “I admit I was surprised to know that you are gay…But…You’re my friend…”
“Good…Then stay, please…” Nino didn’t really give him the chance to do anything else as he settled down in the bed again and hugged onto his arm somewhat possessively their fingers threading together and letting out a chuckle Jun did as he was bid settling down against his band mate with his other arm wrapping around him. His face was still pressed into the back of his neck with his hair brushing against him but Jun couldn’t find it in him to be bothered by it. In fact he couldn’t bring himself to be bother by any of it. He normally loathed spooning but there was something about the way Nino fit against him that felt so perfect. He closed his eyes again and he was immediately asleep lulled by the way another person’s heart was beating in almost the same rhythm as his own.
When he woke again a few hours later he was alone in the bed and his arm wasn’t numb telling him that Nino had been gone for a while at least. The sheets were cold to the touch and in panic Jun jumped off of the bed and raced out of the room stopping in the corridor when he heard Nino talking softly.
“…No…I’m fine…I’m sorry…I’ll be back…I promise I’ll be back…I…Ju...please…I’m sorry…”
It sounded almost like what he had been saying in his dream and Jun clenched his fists stalking into the living room seeing Nino on the main phone. His face was as pale as a ghosts and he had sank to the floor in a heap with tears streaming down his face so much so that he was hiccupping loudly while still apologising into the receiver. Jun took the phone out of his hand and brought it to his ear scowling when he heard a wave of abuse all directed at his friend. Dropping the phone back down into the cradle he scooped Nino up into his arms and carried him over to the sofa wordlessly pulling him into his body hugging him as tightly as he had done last night his fingers weaving through his hair. He held him until the tears and hiccupping had stopped and then a little longer his hands moving in slow and steady circles on his back.
“Kazu…” He whispered gently to the top of the head and Nino flinched his hands clenching so quickly and tightly at his shirt that he was pinching his skin.
“Please don’t be angry with me…I had to call him...” Nino begged in that small voice that sounded as if it belonged to anybody but him. It was so hallow and empty, devoid of any of the personality that Jun liked about the man that it made him feel like Nino had already given up on everything and he hoped that wasn’t the case.
“I’m not angry with you…” Jun told him honestly, in fact he was just surprised that he had only just called him he was expecting him to do that the moment that he brought him home “…I am frustrated though…I know that you keep telling me that he’s not as bad as I think but…If he’s making you like this…If he could hurt you the way that he did…He’s no good for you…”
“Jun…What else am I meant to do?” Nino asked and Jun was glad that he didn’t sound defensive just helpless as he rested his head against his chest his arms wrapped lazily around him. Jun took the action and the question as a hopeful one and whispered against his ear;
“Leave him…Tell yourself that you will never ever go back to him…Please…I told you that if he outted you I would follow…”
“But…What about the others? I would just ruin everything…”
“Kazu do you really think that they are selfish enough to want you stay with somebody that almost killed you…” Jun spat already knowing what the others would say if they heard that. Aiba would call him an idiot and probably slap him before bursting into tears and hugging him so tightly Jun would afraid he would cut off his oxygen supply. Sakurai would get angry more so than even he could which given how angry he was at the man that had done this to Nino would be impressive, while Ohno…Ohno was honestly the only one that he couldn’t imagine…Not because he didn’t think he would care but because the sleepy faced older man always played his cards close to his chest and you never knew how he would react. There was no doubt though that he would be hurt, just as much as the others, that Nino thought they would care more about their popularity than their friend.
“Jun...It’s not that…I…I need Arashi…I need them…To be the way they are…I need Aiba to be an idiot and always joking, I need Sakurai to sit there with his newspaper and just smile indulgently at us like a father…I need Ohno to hug and pet me…” Nino told him slowly and for a moment Jun wondered if that was why he was the one that had been trusted with the phone call, if he was the only one that Nino didn’t care about so he was safe. It was an uncharitable thing to think at that moment and he quickly buried it again. “I need that and if it all came out that would be gone…They wouldn’t act that way around me…They would treat me strangely…”
“…And I need you to be safe…You can tell me as many times as you like that he didn’t mean it and he’s not all that bad but I was there Kazu…I walked into your apartment and I saw you broken on the floor…” Jun breathed his voice catching just slightly as once again he was forced to relieve that scene of walking through the apartment “I thought you were died…Or at the very least going to die…And…You thought it too…You thought that this time he had killed you…That this time you were going to die...That’s why you called me…” Jun whispered the shock of that statement making his voice sound high pitched and squeaky. It made him even more confused as to why in what his friend thought were his final moments he had called him but that wasn’t the point of this. He pulled out of the hug enough to look down at Kazu hating himself when he saw that he was sobbing again and slowly he rocked him from side to side “I promise you Kazu that I will stand beside you no matter what happens but please…You have to have the courage to make that first step and say that you are leaving him…”
“I…I…Will…Leave him...”
TBC
A/N: I think that maybe this is a little fast but I hope that it’s okay J
“You’re finally awake then?”
“Un…Sorry…You…You were having a bad dream…” Jun mumbled pointlessly his cheeks glowing a bright red as he tried to look at his friend realising that his glasses had been removed and although he could see him it was just a vaguely misty outline of a person with his back to him. “I guess I fell to sleep…”
“Ya’ think?” Nino muttered keeping a tight hold of his hand his back facing him as he played with his fingers. “Thanks…For coming to my rescue…Even in my sleep, Jun…”
“Any time…” Jun smiled squeezing at the hand the best that he could, deciding that now he was awake he should probably go and use the bed he had paid so much money for “I’ll go…”
“Stay…” Nino whispered urgently sounding almost panicked by the idea before he cleared his throat and continued in a much more relaxed tone “I mean it’s almost morning anyway…” The slightly older man paused again and then said in a softer more hesitant tone “…Unless it bothers you…Being in bed with a fag…”
“Idiot…” Jun snapped straight away surprising them both by wrapping his arm around him tightly and pressing his lips to the back of his neck his nose pressing just lightly into the sweet smelling hair “I admit I was surprised to know that you are gay…But…You’re my friend…”
“Good…Then stay, please…” Nino didn’t really give him the chance to do anything else as he settled down in the bed again and hugged onto his arm somewhat possessively their fingers threading together and letting out a chuckle Jun did as he was bid settling down against his band mate with his other arm wrapping around him. His face was still pressed into the back of his neck with his hair brushing against him but Jun couldn’t find it in him to be bothered by it. In fact he couldn’t bring himself to be bother by any of it. He normally loathed spooning but there was something about the way Nino fit against him that felt so perfect. He closed his eyes again and he was immediately asleep lulled by the way another person’s heart was beating in almost the same rhythm as his own.
When he woke again a few hours later he was alone in the bed and his arm wasn’t numb telling him that Nino had been gone for a while at least. The sheets were cold to the touch and in panic Jun jumped off of the bed and raced out of the room stopping in the corridor when he heard Nino talking softly.
“…No…I’m fine…I’m sorry…I’ll be back…I promise I’ll be back…I…Ju...please…I’m sorry…”
It sounded almost like what he had been saying in his dream and Jun clenched his fists stalking into the living room seeing Nino on the main phone. His face was as pale as a ghosts and he had sank to the floor in a heap with tears streaming down his face so much so that he was hiccupping loudly while still apologising into the receiver. Jun took the phone out of his hand and brought it to his ear scowling when he heard a wave of abuse all directed at his friend. Dropping the phone back down into the cradle he scooped Nino up into his arms and carried him over to the sofa wordlessly pulling him into his body hugging him as tightly as he had done last night his fingers weaving through his hair. He held him until the tears and hiccupping had stopped and then a little longer his hands moving in slow and steady circles on his back.
“Kazu…” He whispered gently to the top of the head and Nino flinched his hands clenching so quickly and tightly at his shirt that he was pinching his skin.
“Please don’t be angry with me…I had to call him...” Nino begged in that small voice that sounded as if it belonged to anybody but him. It was so hallow and empty, devoid of any of the personality that Jun liked about the man that it made him feel like Nino had already given up on everything and he hoped that wasn’t the case.
“I’m not angry with you…” Jun told him honestly, in fact he was just surprised that he had only just called him he was expecting him to do that the moment that he brought him home “…I am frustrated though…I know that you keep telling me that he’s not as bad as I think but…If he’s making you like this…If he could hurt you the way that he did…He’s no good for you…”
“Jun…What else am I meant to do?” Nino asked and Jun was glad that he didn’t sound defensive just helpless as he rested his head against his chest his arms wrapped lazily around him. Jun took the action and the question as a hopeful one and whispered against his ear;
“Leave him…Tell yourself that you will never ever go back to him…Please…I told you that if he outted you I would follow…”
“But…What about the others? I would just ruin everything…”
“Kazu do you really think that they are selfish enough to want you stay with somebody that almost killed you…” Jun spat already knowing what the others would say if they heard that. Aiba would call him an idiot and probably slap him before bursting into tears and hugging him so tightly Jun would afraid he would cut off his oxygen supply. Sakurai would get angry more so than even he could which given how angry he was at the man that had done this to Nino would be impressive, while Ohno…Ohno was honestly the only one that he couldn’t imagine…Not because he didn’t think he would care but because the sleepy faced older man always played his cards close to his chest and you never knew how he would react. There was no doubt though that he would be hurt, just as much as the others, that Nino thought they would care more about their popularity than their friend.
“Jun...It’s not that…I…I need Arashi…I need them…To be the way they are…I need Aiba to be an idiot and always joking, I need Sakurai to sit there with his newspaper and just smile indulgently at us like a father…I need Ohno to hug and pet me…” Nino told him slowly and for a moment Jun wondered if that was why he was the one that had been trusted with the phone call, if he was the only one that Nino didn’t care about so he was safe. It was an uncharitable thing to think at that moment and he quickly buried it again. “I need that and if it all came out that would be gone…They wouldn’t act that way around me…They would treat me strangely…”
“…And I need you to be safe…You can tell me as many times as you like that he didn’t mean it and he’s not all that bad but I was there Kazu…I walked into your apartment and I saw you broken on the floor…” Jun breathed his voice catching just slightly as once again he was forced to relieve that scene of walking through the apartment “I thought you were died…Or at the very least going to die…And…You thought it too…You thought that this time he had killed you…That this time you were going to die...That’s why you called me…” Jun whispered the shock of that statement making his voice sound high pitched and squeaky. It made him even more confused as to why in what his friend thought were his final moments he had called him but that wasn’t the point of this. He pulled out of the hug enough to look down at Kazu hating himself when he saw that he was sobbing again and slowly he rocked him from side to side “I promise you Kazu that I will stand beside you no matter what happens but please…You have to have the courage to make that first step and say that you are leaving him…”
“I…I…Will…Leave him...”
TBC
A/N: I think that maybe this is a little fast but I hope that it’s okay J