krystalkatzficz | How we began (Reply)

Nino sniffed and then rubbed his eyes with the back of his hand as guilt and shame flooded through his body. He had never seen Sho that angry or disgusted and he flinched as the older boy moved to touch him expecting to be hit in the same manner as their manager had been. Of course, Sho would be disgusted with him now seeing him having sex like that. He had never wanted any of his new bandmates to know about it knowing that they would think that he had only gotten into Arashi was because of his relationship with the manager, though it was something that he had been told more than once now.

“I’m sorry” he whispered through his tears dropping down so he was crouched on the floor with his head in his hands. His body was aching from what his lover had put him through and his muscles felt as though they were made of a jelly substance. The older man had been particularly bruising today and he could still feel the fingers from where they had been pressed into his skin around his hips.

“How long?” Sho growled and Nino flinched even harder at the tone. He couldn’t remember when or how it had all started with him. The man had always been attentive with him, ever since he had joined the agency. It had been uncomfortable at first, strange to be given gifts by an older man, but he had gotten used to it over the weeks and thought that it was nice to be given attention and extra help. The touching had been difficult to handle, a hand on the bum in a way that was just not suggestive enough that it could be taken as anything more than an accident. By the time he realised that it wasn’t an accident he’d felt almost comfortable with the touches.

It had been slow but steady process and by the time it became sexual between them Nino felt almost as though he had wanted it. As though he had come onto the manager, something the man had used to his advantage and to address the fears of some of the other adults that questioned their closeness. He would laugh and say that Nino had an idolised crush on him and people would give chuckles and roll their eyes.

“How long has this been going on?” Sho asked again crouching down in front of him offering him out a handkerchief which managed to look neat although it had been stuffed into a pocket for most of the day. His tone was much softer now but there was a harsh glint in his eyes and a tightening of his jaw which made Nino feel more than a little ill. His heart pulsed against his ribs as he tried to hold Sho’s gaze. It didn’t last very long but he did manage to whisper;

“Since I joined Jonny’s”

“What?! No way! That is disgusting” Sho spat and Nino clenched his hands ever more tightly so his nails were slicing into his palms. He had known that it wasn’t right, he had scrubbed himself clean each time he had gotten home trying his best to remove any evidence but he hadn’t known how to stop it and he hadn’t wanted to cause any trouble. His body shook and he let out a loud whimper before said;

“I’m sorry”

“Why are you apologising?” Sho snapped again before letting out a noise almost like that of a wounded animal darting forwards and pulling him into a hug. The action was so unexpected that Nino let out a startled noise from the back of his throat and his whole body tensed. Hands moved in circles on his back and Nino could imagine Sho comforting his younger brother in a similar way. “None of this is your fault, Nino, I’m sorry if I made you feel that way. I was just angry, I’m sorry, okay?” Nino didn’t have time to speak before he heard the slight creaking that came with the door opening and he pulled out of Sho’s arms looking towards the door. As he has expected the manager was coming towards them. His nose wasn’t currently bleeding but it was red and swollen. “What the fuck are you doing here?”

“I…I came for Kazunari, I told his mother that I would take him home” The man’s voice was smooth as always but Nino could tell that there was a touch of panic and desperation. He inched closer to Sho not wanting to leave the older boys side.

“You think that I’m going to let you anywhere near him again?”

“I don’t know what you think you saw but the truth is, Kazunari wanted it” He said and Nino flinched wondering if Sho would push him away. The boy didn’t, if anything he held him ever more tightly as his face turned into a scowl. “It may not be a conventional relationship…”

“Get the fuck out of here, now” Sho spat his fingers moving in circles around Nino’s back again and Nino sank even further down onto the floor his bum sore as it met with the wood. The rest of his body slumped while his face pressed into Sho’s side. He could feel the eyes of his lover fixed on him and he knew that he was waiting for him to say that he was right. That he had wanted him and for some reason that he would never be able to work out he wanted to say that. He wanted to get up and go to him but more than anything he wanted to stay away. He had always wanted to escape and he knew that this might be his only chance.

“I…Didn’t want him…I don’t…”

“Kazunari! That’s a downright lie!” The man snapped and Sho growled again saying hotly;

“Even if Nino had begged you to sleep with him, which I don’t believe he did, you’re a fucking adult, you should have learnt to keep it in your fucking pants. Get the fuck out of here now” For a moment it seemed like the man wasn’t going to move but eventually he did, turning on his heel and marching out of the room and Nino let himself let out another sob as Sho slowly rocked him back and forth whispering “It’s going to be okay, Nino, I promise”

TBC

A/N: I hope that this is okay >.<