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krystalkatzficz2016-12-05 10:56 am
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Dark Days part 4
“How are you feeling?” His husband asked later that night coming to join him on the bed his arms wrapping securely around his skinny frame and Nino gave a small sigh and then closed his eyes leaning back into his chest. As always, the warmth of his husband was one of the few things that seemed to work and make him feel something. He breathed in the warm scent that was the musky scent of his lover mixed with the scent of baby milk, talcum powder, and no more tears shampoo. It was an odd mix but one that he associated with home and love.
“Tired…I’m sorry…For not even being able to do that…” He mumbled weakly remember the terrified way his husband had looked when he had come bursting into the office. His hair in disarray and baby sick all down one shoulder. He had practically crushed Mary’s hand as he thanked her and then broken his spine when he had hugged him and Nino was sure that there were tears in his eyes.
“Don’t apologise, Kazu…You tried and that was a big step forward…” His lover whispered in his ear and Nino shivered just a little an annoying prickle of tears collecting behind his lids until they were almost painful. A trip to the shopping centre shouldn’t have been a big step forward. It was something that millions of people managed to do every day after all. He was the only one that passed out from the stress of it. He had gotten there, he had been able to do all of that like it was nothing but now…Now he was back to square one again. “You’ll get there again, Kazu, I have complete and utter faith in you”
“…I want to be there now…” He breathed knowing that he was whining but the frustration was almost too much to bear right now and it wasn’t doing him any favours. “I don’t like being like this…I don’t want to be scared that I’m going to have a panic attack in the middle of a shop or that I can’t be bothered to get up in the morning…I’m so tired…I just want…I want to sleep and never wake up…”
“I know, sweetheart, I wish that I could make it better for you straight away but I can’t…But I’m not going to allow you to give up…You know that, right? And no matter how long it takes I’m going here…” His partner whispered, gently kissing the top of his head before stroking his back with an up down motion. The act was enough to cause the tears to break free from his eyes and spill down his cheeks. He couldn’t stop them from getting loose or from falling and his husband didn’t try to get him to. He simply held him a little more tightly and then rocked him back and forth with his head tucked under his chin. It was something that he did with their two children a lot and he was more than happy to have the same treatment. He cried for what felt like an age and then he felt drowsy his eyes heavy. “Come on Kazu…Time to sleep…Tomorrow is a new day, ne…” His husband whispered easily picking him up and rearranging him on the bed so they were spooning. “I love you…No matter what…Remember that ne?”
TBC
A/N: I hope that this is okay ^_^
“Tired…I’m sorry…For not even being able to do that…” He mumbled weakly remember the terrified way his husband had looked when he had come bursting into the office. His hair in disarray and baby sick all down one shoulder. He had practically crushed Mary’s hand as he thanked her and then broken his spine when he had hugged him and Nino was sure that there were tears in his eyes.
“Don’t apologise, Kazu…You tried and that was a big step forward…” His lover whispered in his ear and Nino shivered just a little an annoying prickle of tears collecting behind his lids until they were almost painful. A trip to the shopping centre shouldn’t have been a big step forward. It was something that millions of people managed to do every day after all. He was the only one that passed out from the stress of it. He had gotten there, he had been able to do all of that like it was nothing but now…Now he was back to square one again. “You’ll get there again, Kazu, I have complete and utter faith in you”
“…I want to be there now…” He breathed knowing that he was whining but the frustration was almost too much to bear right now and it wasn’t doing him any favours. “I don’t like being like this…I don’t want to be scared that I’m going to have a panic attack in the middle of a shop or that I can’t be bothered to get up in the morning…I’m so tired…I just want…I want to sleep and never wake up…”
“I know, sweetheart, I wish that I could make it better for you straight away but I can’t…But I’m not going to allow you to give up…You know that, right? And no matter how long it takes I’m going here…” His partner whispered, gently kissing the top of his head before stroking his back with an up down motion. The act was enough to cause the tears to break free from his eyes and spill down his cheeks. He couldn’t stop them from getting loose or from falling and his husband didn’t try to get him to. He simply held him a little more tightly and then rocked him back and forth with his head tucked under his chin. It was something that he did with their two children a lot and he was more than happy to have the same treatment. He cried for what felt like an age and then he felt drowsy his eyes heavy. “Come on Kazu…Time to sleep…Tomorrow is a new day, ne…” His husband whispered easily picking him up and rearranging him on the bed so they were spooning. “I love you…No matter what…Remember that ne?”
TBC
A/N: I hope that this is okay ^_^