Keep the Faith part 64

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Nino allowed himself to be almost manhandled into the bathroom and he ignored the disgusted huff that Jun let out and then chunter he gave at the state of his bathroom. It wasn’t all that bad, it was one of two areas that he had actually kept clean but the look on Jun’s face made him feel like there was mould or something equally unpleasant in the foot well of the shower. Jun wordlessly took Emily out his hands and motioned for him to strip and slowly Nino did as he was told pulling off the jump, wincing as the fine fabric hairs clung to his still healing arms and Jun’s eyes narrowed into dagger points. His jaw pulled itself into a pencil thin line as he scrapped his fingers through the hair on Emily’s head.

“How long? How long have you been cutting yourself again?” Jun asked as finally his arms were exposed and small droplets of blood started to bubble freely up fro, the freshly reopened wounds and it became clear that it wasn’t all that long ago since he had been cutting. Nino looked down at his arms watching the blood flow over a few of his moles before muttering;

“Does it matter?”

“Of course it matters…” Jun growled his eyes blazing with anger and Nino wanted desperately to snap at him to tell him that it was his fault that he was like this now but it wasn’t the truth. This was his fault, Jun had left him but not without begging and pleading with him to come to. Nino had refused unable to get out of the house or cope with the idea of leaving the apartment. After that it was all on him he could never blame Jun and he didn’t want Jun to blame himself either but he couldn’t put that into words. “Have you been using a clean blade?”

“Yes…”

“In this apartment that would be a miracle…” Jun mumbled and Nino let out something that was close to a growl before turning to look at the shower cubicle his arms already starting to sting at the exposure to the air and Nino couldn’t deny that it was making him feel uncomfortable. “Just a quick shower and then we’ll sort out some cream and bandages for your arms…”

“I don’t need any…”

“Oh? And what about if you get tetanus? When was the last time you got a shot? Nino, stop acting like a baby…” Jun snapped reaching passed him and switching on the shower himself and Nino was given a few blow of Jun’s scent right in front of his nostrils and he almost moaned realising that he still had the same warm spice and sweet scent that he had had when they were dating. Nino wasn’t sure which was worse the scent or the fact that Jun was acting like he cared when in reality there was no way that that was possible not after what he had done.

“So what you think that you four can just blow up in here spend some time with me and then fuck off again and that everything is going to be okay and hunky-dory? Because it’s not…” Nino muttered and for the first time since he had stormed into his apartment Jun gained a troubled expression as he looked at his arms whispering;

“I know…But please don’t blame me…This isn’t my fault…”

“I know that…This is my fault, I slept with Noaki…” Nino murmured the words burning the back of his throat and leaving an almost unpleasant after taste and Jun flinched his anger coming back to his face before it was replaced by sadness once more.

“Yeah…You did…Why him? Anybody else I think I could have probably forgiven you…But Noaki? Why did it have to be him?”

“Because…You wouldn’t forgive me…”

TBC
A/N: I hope that this is okay…I promise it will start to make more sense soon…>.<