Coming home part 11

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

Title: Coming Home

Author: krystalkatz
Rating: pg
Length: Chaptered
Genre: Au,

Pairings: Ninomiya Kazunari/Matsumoto Jun, Sakurai Sho/Ninomiya Kazunari,

Disclaimer: I only own the plot

 

“Come on, Kazu, let’s get you back to your mum” Jun whispered in his ear, his fingertips just ghosting down his back, and Nino gave a nod his forehead pressing to the doctors chest before he pulled out of the hug. He took in a deep breath that caught in his throat almost choking him as his eyes burned with the tears he was refusing to shed.

“I broke up with him… I told him that I was moving out…” Nino told the doctor slowly as he was led to the truck. “He said that it was just sex that it didn’t matter” He blinked, angrily, pushing away the tear that was desperately trying to escape, he couldn’t let them fall not after he had decided that Sakurai wasn’t worth it.  He was glad when Jun just let out muffled grunt to show that he had heard and didn’t start a barrage of insults even if he was angry it didn’t stop his heart from feeling like it had been pulled out of his chest and torn into tiny pieces before being tossed in front of an oncoming train.

Four years of being in love, of not just living ‘with’ someone else but completely living ‘for’ that one person was over and he was left feeling stupid and incomplete. He wished that he could say that it was okay, that because Sakurai hadn’t been his type when they had first met it was okay, that he had just been a stepping stone or a stop gap to bigger and better things but even if he did tell himself that, he knew he was lying. He had loved and still loved Sakurai with every fibre of his being and it had been the deep unyielding love that only came after living with somebody, of picking up their dirty underpants, kissing them early in the morning before they had brushed their teeth, using the toilet when they were in the shower or waking up in the morning and looking into their puffed up, sleep creased face, mussed up hair and thinking that even though they had the gross gunk in the corners of their eyes they were still the sexist person they had ever seen on the planet. Although he as confused by the new faint feelings that were just developing and the cold unfeeling attitude Sakurai had shown, a sort of apology and a fumbled out confession weren’t going to make those feelings disappear.

“Kazu… We’re at your mums” Jun mumbled and Kazu blinked wondering when that had happened. He looked around and saw that yes they were parked up in front of his mum’s house and the sun was just starting to dip behind the mountain making them look alive and setting a beautiful picture, unlike anything you saw in a big city. Silently getting out of the car Nino rested against the warm bonnet staring up at the barely visible shrine that sat right on the top of their mountain, shining white and gold in the dim light. As children they had taken the trek up to that shrine every year at New Year’s not worrying about the snow, “Its beautiful here right?” Jun’ voice said close to his ear, but strangely sounding far away.

“Yeah” Nino answered in a surprised voice as if he was just realising that fact, as a child he had felt trapped by the mountains, always wanting to see what was over them hating that they had the risk of being cut off depending on the weather but now he really though they were beautiful and all the mixed thoughts and emotions were almost completely pushed away as he realised why Kazuko had always refused his offer of moving.

“Do you remember that year when we had to climb to the shrine and ask for forgiveness because we broke the window in my parent’s house?” Jun asked and Nino nodded a small smile forming on his lips 

“It was either that or be grounded for the week… And you screamed your head off at that…”

“Because I couldn’t stand to be separated from you…” Jun mumbled hotly, and Nino laughed glad that it hadn’t been said in a stupidly romantic way, but in the way of two friends that had been close

“You fell in the ditch with all the slimy water…” Nino laughed his eyes flashing as that part of his memory filtered through his mind. A 9 year old Jun wide eyed and covered head to toe in thick black slime and what, Nino was positive, were some prehistoric life forms crawling up his arms and legs

“I had to be hosed down in the garden” Jun muttered sounding like the memory was still giving him nightmares, the actor laughed even harder until his was holding his side and gasping for breath as he looked up at him

“It was your own fault… You tried to run ahead of me…” He choked out “Thanks Jun…”

“What for?”

“… For showing me that even with the mountain of crap memories I have of you there are still some good ones” He answered slowly and Jun smiled with a nod “Maybe one day I’ll also be able to remember some the good times with Sho…”

“You will… I believe that you must have some… I saw you together once” Jun said a small frown forming on his forehead and Nino nodded, happy memories with Sakurai seemed like a far-a-way dream right now “What are you going to do now?”

“I don’t know… I guess I have to ring Masa… My manager and ask him to find me an apartment…” Nino sighed coming back to himself with a bump as he blinked realising that the final rays of the sun had vanished and they were looking at each with the light of a milky fairly dull moon “I told Sho I wanted all my stuff in boxes by next week…”

“If you need help…”  Jun told him gently “I have a truck…”

“This thing?!” Nino cried looking down at the truck they were resting against in disbelief “I’m amazed that even gets to the station and back…”

“It doesn’t…That’s the real reason I was late to pick you up the day, I actually left early but it clonked out half way I didn’t want to tell you that though…” Jun mumbled chewing his lip and casting his own critical eye over the rust bucket and Nino let out a laugh

“Might I suggest a new one?” he said and Jun stroked the bonnet mumbling

“Don’t listen to the big shot city boy, baby…” To the truck before turning back to Nino with a grin that was only just visible with the moon light “Truthfully though, I mostly get paid in hand knitted blankets and jumpers unless I start selling them on the side of the road this is the best it’s going to get…”

“But that isn’t safe…” Nino said really looking at the truck now, he had been joking before but what if it clonked out somewhere dangerous? What if someone was really sick and the doctor couldn’t get to them, what if it was Kazuko? “I’ll get you a new one”

“What?”

“I have my savings…” Nino shrugged, he had a lot of money put aside of course it would hurt to spend it but not If it meant that Kazuko and Jun would be safe it didn’t matter.

“You don’t have too…”

“If my mum was sick and this thing gave up the fight…” Nino hissed “Or what if you got caught in a flood?”

“Okay fine, you can buy me a truck…” Jun sighed holding up his hands in a gesture of defeat “So I guess this means you are going back then?”

“I… I still have a lot of things to sort out… I have a play coming up and there’s Masa’…” Nino sighed pinching the bridge of his nose, with a sigh this past week had made him change his mind about a lot of things about his home village but he had commitments that he couldn’t just walk out of.  “You said coming back here was the easiest thing you ever did right?”

“Yep…

“So why am I so confused?” Nino sighed when his heart pinged at the thought of leaving even though he knew that he had too

“Because you have a lot of reason’s to be… You have only just broken up with someone, you shouldn’t make any life changing choices yet…” The doctor murmured and Nino nodded glad that he understood but there was one thing that was bothering him

“But what about…You… Us…”

“I told you I could give you as long as you need” The doctor said with a shrug “I can wait until you’ve sorted your mind out until you give me your answer…”

“Thank-you” Nino sighed looking at the house as the door opened and Kazuko came out drying her hands on a pinny

“Are you two coming in for your dinner or am I gonna have to eat it for you as well?” she shouted and Jun and Nino gave each other wide matching grins as they shouted

“Coming”

TBC

A/N: I really hope that this is okay >.<

I was meant to post the 2^nd of my Jun b/day fics today but instead of clicking save I clicked delete and lost a good chunk of it so it will be up tomorrow instead now… hopefully…8-/

 

Comments

[j-sei.livejournal.com]

Ah, too bad for that. Re-written all over again must be tough.
And, I like where this fic is going >.<
Hehe, thanks for writing ^^

[ohmiyaskdesu.livejournal.com]

I really like this :D
I'm glad that Nino broke it off, but I do feel bad because he loved him.
But then there's Jun who is so understanding.
Thanks for update!

[br-arashi.livejournal.com]

Aaaaaaaaaaawn, I love how sweet and patient Jun can be!
He is so calm and self-controlled! Sometimes I imagine him as a human wall behind Nino, giving him strenght and support.
And that's exactly the way I see him!
Beautiful chapter!
And Kazuko is very amusing!!!!

[lunamor08.livejournal.com]

ah.... I really really like this!! The slow build up to their romance just makes it sweeter ^_^ And dnt worry about the second fic take your time lol..

[devil29bich.livejournal.com]

decisions, decisions wondering if Nino will leave everything behind cause of Sho? Like he said he has that play coming up and would he leave behind Masaki. Nino should just move him and his mother back into the city and Jun can follow him.

Rub it in Sho's face.

[platinum28.livejournal.com]

Kazu... I'm sure it's going to take some time, but Jun is quite a healing character here, he may very well end up changing Nino's life, haha.

Ah, darn, don't you hate that? They should ask if you are sure you want to delete before you do...! :X Oh well. :/

Thanks for sharing! :")

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

>.< I didn't realise how long it was taking for them to get together but not matter how much I try they just dont seem to be 'there' yet but jun is a very patient character here hell heal Nino xD

I'm positive that it might have asked if I was sure I wanted to delete but I was half asleep and I clicked 'yes' >.< I don't even think its worth the trouble but hey-ho xD

^.^

[helenmaldon.livejournal.com]

This part really broke my heart:
"It had been the deep unyielding love that only came after living with somebody, of picking up their dirty underpants, kissing them early in the morning before they had brushed their teeth, using the toilet when they were in the shower or waking up in the morning and looking into their puffed up, sleep creased face, mussed up hair and thinking that even though they had the gross gunk in the corners of their eyes they were still the sexist person they had ever seen on the planet."
That is just so, so true--I have always loved your writing, but I think it is getting better all the time!!

[denyclamp.livejournal.com]

No, just move back home!! Dx If i was Jun i would already reap the hell out of him, i admire you Jun-sensei xD