Our First Summer part fifty-two
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krystalkatzficz“Bullshit...” Sho swore staring at his father with a weird mix of hate and sorrow. It was like a whirlwind in his head, he hadn’t wanted to believe that his father had even slept with Nino and now hearing that he supposedly loved the man that he had fucked over and the father of the girl that he had insulted. Ohno gave a small mirthless laugh and then flopped down onto the sofa jostling the broken ornaments that were on the floor.
“Surprisingly that is the same type of word your grandmother used when I told her...” He said in a tired kind of voice, the same type of voice that a war veteran used after they had returned from the battle field but Sho couldn’t find it in him to feel sorry for the man, not yet, not after everything that he said to him on the phone and he had learned in the past few days. “She called me disgusting and unnatural too...You can use those words too if you want...”
“If you’re throwing a pity party you forgot to send me an invite...”
“I’m not asking you to pity me...I’m just telling you the truth...You wanted to know right?” his father said looking at him with those empty eyes and Sho sighed shaking his head as he came over to sit on the chair facing his father being careful not to step on the ornaments. Ohno continued to look at him and Sho sat like a statue his hands resting on his knees his eyes focused on the small bow shaped mouth.
“Okay...Talk...” He said his voice as icy as he could make it and Ohno sighed blinking slowly a few times. His pink tongue moved over his lips and then he nodded slowly wringing out his hands and getting up again to pace around the room looking completely lost in his thoughts. He paced for a long time and just when Sho thought that he was going to have to prompt him again his father started speaking sounding almost like the man that he had known all his life and not the brainless puppet of a man he had been seeing this week.
“I do love him, you know...I always have...I was always the weird kid that preferred to be by myself but Nino, he stayed with me no matter what...Even when I was the lousiest friend imaginable...” Ohno muttered his soft voice flowing around the room and Sho had to fight himself to stay as angry as he wanted to be. “Even when I did something stupid and ended up married...He was always there, he created an entire company just so that I could live my dream and then I...”
“You slept with him...And then told him that it was just a mistake...Made him feel like he was worthless...?” Sho suggested trying to retain the same venom from earlier and Ohno’s head snapped up and his eyes narrowed, his voice was a hiss as he spat out
“I know my mistakes...You don’t have to point them out to me...”
“It doesn’t look like it...17 years, for 17 years you did the same thing over and over again...” Sho said as calmly as he could not needing to fake the anger now, he just felt it in the pit of his stomach. Yes his dad might have loved Nino but if he did why was he acting the way that he was? “And then you started treating him worse than you had been and not just him everybody...Why? After everything that you’ve been through together after helping raise Masako you’d say something like that about her...Why?”
“Because I’m a coward...I’m a big coward, I’m not strong like Nino is...Or even that brat that he’s playing around with...I can’t accept that part of myself...I can’t...” Ohno mumbled rubbing the back of his neck and staring at the half slashed face on the ruined painting. Sho was positive that he could see tears in his father’s eyes and he let out a sigh shaking away his anger again
“You’re not a coward...You told grandma...”
“And then she told me that I was a disgusting, disgrace...And that I was an abomination and that she would disown me...” There was another hollow bitter laugh from his father and weirdly it sent a shiver down Sho’s spine “I’m a grown man in my 40’s and I’m scared of losing my mother...I would say that makes me a coward, Sho...”
Sho pinched his nose trying to get the story straight in his head, but not succeeding and he gave a half sigh, half growl standing up and doing his own round of pacing. If this was all true what would that mean? Would Nino have his father back if he just told him all of this? It would mean cutting ties with his grandmother, he supposed but that was no big loss he had never got on with her as much as his father ha, but what about Jun? He asked himself, it had been made obvious last night that the teenager was in love with Nino and what had been more surprising was that Nino...Looked well around Jun, he was healthier more like the Nino that he had known as a child. And there was also his father’s behaviour, would Nino even want him back after everything he had put him through? If Sho was honest he wouldn’t want him too, not because he was grossed out that it was his father but because he thought the man deserved better.
“So why the whole ‘Mr Hyde’ act? Why did you act the way that you did?” He asked and Ohno stared at him for a minute before lifting his eyes to the ceiling and shrugging and squatting down onto the floor playing about with the broken china making it jiggle as it moved together, clinking like dishes in a sink.
“I had to make him let go first, because I couldn’t...” He answered his fingers poking at a china dog head that had belonged to a statue of two kids playing on a swing. “I had to get him to leave me...And then when I actually saw him doing that with that kid...That kid that looked so...Happy to be with him...I can’t...Fuck I’m a horrible person...”
“You’re a stupid one; you should have just talked to Nino...” Sho muttered not seeing the logic that his father had used to come up with to get him into this stage. He felt like punching his father for just the hell of it now but instead he dropped back down into the chair wincing when his bum found the rest of the statue of the kids on the swing. He pulled it out and set it on the table looking at his father who was openly sobbing now and he shook his head “So after this...Why did you accuse him of stealing from you? What the hell were you thinking then?”
“Aarin said all of that stuff...About him stealing from me and I went along with it just so that I could see him...” He said and Sho shook his head chewing on his lip biting on it until he made it bleed wondering how that was any kind of excuse at the moment “I thought perhaps that...I could get him alone I could tell him...But that kid was there again and I realised than that he wasn’t just a playmate anymore...”
“So then you decided to call the girl that you’ve known for her entire life a whore...?” Sho growled and Ohno looked devastated and apologetic he hung his head started continued to poke at the dog’s head again
“I have to apologise for that, I was upset and angry...I thought that Nino would still be upset but then I saw him looking completely fine with that brat...” Ohno growled and Sho could almost understand that but he still had flushes of anger when he thought about it “I saw red and I said things that I shouldn’t and never meant...To say...I also...During this week I did something worse...”
“Worse?” Sho muttered wondering what the hell could be worse than the nightmare of a mess that his father was telling him. Ohno nodded falling silent for a long time his eyes falling to the broken ornaments again seemingly unable to look him in the eye and Sho felt his stomach dipping like he was back on the roller coaster again “Dad...”
“I...Masako...Earlier this week...She was swimming...In the pool...” He mumbled softly and Sho felt his fist clench blood pounding in his ears and he scrapped his tongue over his lips “And...I was either still drunk...Or completely messed up...And I...Looked at her...Inappropriately...”
Sho didn’t wait around to hear everything else he stood up took the two steps towards his father and then slammed his fist hard against his face with a satisfying crunch, feeling better than he had all day.
TBC
A/N:I hope this is okay ^_^
“Surprisingly that is the same type of word your grandmother used when I told her...” He said in a tired kind of voice, the same type of voice that a war veteran used after they had returned from the battle field but Sho couldn’t find it in him to feel sorry for the man, not yet, not after everything that he said to him on the phone and he had learned in the past few days. “She called me disgusting and unnatural too...You can use those words too if you want...”
“If you’re throwing a pity party you forgot to send me an invite...”
“I’m not asking you to pity me...I’m just telling you the truth...You wanted to know right?” his father said looking at him with those empty eyes and Sho sighed shaking his head as he came over to sit on the chair facing his father being careful not to step on the ornaments. Ohno continued to look at him and Sho sat like a statue his hands resting on his knees his eyes focused on the small bow shaped mouth.
“Okay...Talk...” He said his voice as icy as he could make it and Ohno sighed blinking slowly a few times. His pink tongue moved over his lips and then he nodded slowly wringing out his hands and getting up again to pace around the room looking completely lost in his thoughts. He paced for a long time and just when Sho thought that he was going to have to prompt him again his father started speaking sounding almost like the man that he had known all his life and not the brainless puppet of a man he had been seeing this week.
“I do love him, you know...I always have...I was always the weird kid that preferred to be by myself but Nino, he stayed with me no matter what...Even when I was the lousiest friend imaginable...” Ohno muttered his soft voice flowing around the room and Sho had to fight himself to stay as angry as he wanted to be. “Even when I did something stupid and ended up married...He was always there, he created an entire company just so that I could live my dream and then I...”
“You slept with him...And then told him that it was just a mistake...Made him feel like he was worthless...?” Sho suggested trying to retain the same venom from earlier and Ohno’s head snapped up and his eyes narrowed, his voice was a hiss as he spat out
“I know my mistakes...You don’t have to point them out to me...”
“It doesn’t look like it...17 years, for 17 years you did the same thing over and over again...” Sho said as calmly as he could not needing to fake the anger now, he just felt it in the pit of his stomach. Yes his dad might have loved Nino but if he did why was he acting the way that he was? “And then you started treating him worse than you had been and not just him everybody...Why? After everything that you’ve been through together after helping raise Masako you’d say something like that about her...Why?”
“Because I’m a coward...I’m a big coward, I’m not strong like Nino is...Or even that brat that he’s playing around with...I can’t accept that part of myself...I can’t...” Ohno mumbled rubbing the back of his neck and staring at the half slashed face on the ruined painting. Sho was positive that he could see tears in his father’s eyes and he let out a sigh shaking away his anger again
“You’re not a coward...You told grandma...”
“And then she told me that I was a disgusting, disgrace...And that I was an abomination and that she would disown me...” There was another hollow bitter laugh from his father and weirdly it sent a shiver down Sho’s spine “I’m a grown man in my 40’s and I’m scared of losing my mother...I would say that makes me a coward, Sho...”
Sho pinched his nose trying to get the story straight in his head, but not succeeding and he gave a half sigh, half growl standing up and doing his own round of pacing. If this was all true what would that mean? Would Nino have his father back if he just told him all of this? It would mean cutting ties with his grandmother, he supposed but that was no big loss he had never got on with her as much as his father ha, but what about Jun? He asked himself, it had been made obvious last night that the teenager was in love with Nino and what had been more surprising was that Nino...Looked well around Jun, he was healthier more like the Nino that he had known as a child. And there was also his father’s behaviour, would Nino even want him back after everything he had put him through? If Sho was honest he wouldn’t want him too, not because he was grossed out that it was his father but because he thought the man deserved better.
“So why the whole ‘Mr Hyde’ act? Why did you act the way that you did?” He asked and Ohno stared at him for a minute before lifting his eyes to the ceiling and shrugging and squatting down onto the floor playing about with the broken china making it jiggle as it moved together, clinking like dishes in a sink.
“I had to make him let go first, because I couldn’t...” He answered his fingers poking at a china dog head that had belonged to a statue of two kids playing on a swing. “I had to get him to leave me...And then when I actually saw him doing that with that kid...That kid that looked so...Happy to be with him...I can’t...Fuck I’m a horrible person...”
“You’re a stupid one; you should have just talked to Nino...” Sho muttered not seeing the logic that his father had used to come up with to get him into this stage. He felt like punching his father for just the hell of it now but instead he dropped back down into the chair wincing when his bum found the rest of the statue of the kids on the swing. He pulled it out and set it on the table looking at his father who was openly sobbing now and he shook his head “So after this...Why did you accuse him of stealing from you? What the hell were you thinking then?”
“Aarin said all of that stuff...About him stealing from me and I went along with it just so that I could see him...” He said and Sho shook his head chewing on his lip biting on it until he made it bleed wondering how that was any kind of excuse at the moment “I thought perhaps that...I could get him alone I could tell him...But that kid was there again and I realised than that he wasn’t just a playmate anymore...”
“So then you decided to call the girl that you’ve known for her entire life a whore...?” Sho growled and Ohno looked devastated and apologetic he hung his head started continued to poke at the dog’s head again
“I have to apologise for that, I was upset and angry...I thought that Nino would still be upset but then I saw him looking completely fine with that brat...” Ohno growled and Sho could almost understand that but he still had flushes of anger when he thought about it “I saw red and I said things that I shouldn’t and never meant...To say...I also...During this week I did something worse...”
“Worse?” Sho muttered wondering what the hell could be worse than the nightmare of a mess that his father was telling him. Ohno nodded falling silent for a long time his eyes falling to the broken ornaments again seemingly unable to look him in the eye and Sho felt his stomach dipping like he was back on the roller coaster again “Dad...”
“I...Masako...Earlier this week...She was swimming...In the pool...” He mumbled softly and Sho felt his fist clench blood pounding in his ears and he scrapped his tongue over his lips “And...I was either still drunk...Or completely messed up...And I...Looked at her...Inappropriately...”
Sho didn’t wait around to hear everything else he stood up took the two steps towards his father and then slammed his fist hard against his face with a satisfying crunch, feeling better than he had all day.
TBC
A/N:I hope this is okay ^_^
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Date: 2013-08-29 09:40 am (UTC)I don't know what to feel for Oh-chan...
Pity? Anger?
But I would have loved to punch him too!!
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Date: 2013-08-30 09:58 am (UTC)Its a very messed up situation ne >.<
I think a lot of people want to punch him at the moment >.<
He could have handled it so much better >.<
Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-08-29 09:48 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-08-30 10:00 am (UTC)he does regret it, all of it but now he has no idea what he's going to do...
Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-08-29 10:08 am (UTC)No chance he's gonna to steal back Nino from Jun, but Nino is going to be... probably aghast by knowing the truth about Ohno.
Ohno-san... no, nothing, there's nothing to say about him, excepted that like the plot of your fanfic currently, he's a tremendous mess !! For Ohno, it's mainly his state of mind who is a huge mess.
At the end, it's him who told to Sho what he "did" to Masako... I had forgotten he was drunk or else, you had kept the mystery about his state in that scene, I don't remember. But drunk or not there's no excuse for that behaviour !!
I guess Sho will let his father on the ground after punching him, but he won't leave him... but before, he will need to talk to Nino... I'm afraid it's gonna be a heart-breaking scene for everyone. Apparently I'm right to think that scene will be in the next chapter, right ?
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Date: 2013-08-30 10:40 am (UTC)Nino is going to feel very lost and confused when he finds out >.<
sorry, it really is a huge mess ne >.<
nope there wasn't and he deserved the punch ne >.<
Not yet but it will get there soon ne :D
Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-08-29 12:13 pm (UTC)I can't wait to read the next chapter
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Date: 2013-08-30 09:50 am (UTC)Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-08-29 12:23 pm (UTC)don't hit him... nobody loves Ohchan anymore... not even his son... thats sad... he has nothing...
Ohchan... T.T *hugs him*
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"...I went along with it just so that I could see him..."~ That is the most pathetic excuse but... it still melt my heart... what a mess...
Am I the only one thats feels sorry for him?... he could have had happy and bright future with Kazu... If only... but no... he fucked up everything and lost his chance...
Now... knowing the real resons... Nino's words... at the office... must have hurt him a lot...
It's hard to say this... but... waaa... I don't know
Thanks for the update... it was great... n.n
can't wait for the next!! :D
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Date: 2013-08-30 10:05 am (UTC)Ohno really should have handled it all better ne >.<
its a very messed up situation ne, but *spoiler* things do get better for him I promise
Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-08-29 01:18 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-08-30 10:37 am (UTC)Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-08-29 01:57 pm (UTC)But it looks like Sho finally sees that Matsumiya is true love~~ ♥
I feel sorry for Ohno but I hope he doesn't break up Matsumiya.... things are getting so good for them!! *nervous*
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Date: 2013-08-30 10:01 am (UTC)hehe yep, he really has started to realise that :D
>.< its getting sticky ne >.<
Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-08-29 02:02 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-08-30 10:03 am (UTC)Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-08-29 03:46 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-08-30 10:20 am (UTC)When I was younger my best friend lost her dad and I remember becoming overly attached to mine, I was already a daddy's girl but it made it worse, I followed him everywhere because I was scared I was going to lose him too, and even now I have to talk to him everyday to make sure that he's okay...So I kind of put those feelings into Ohno :D you guessed right :D
Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-08-29 08:13 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-08-30 10:02 am (UTC)Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-08-29 08:21 pm (UTC)This chapter is epic!!! Ohno with lame excuses about why he do what he has done and then he confessed that he looked Masako in a inappropriately way... Hit!!!Sho hit his father!!!!! Omg!!!!
You can understand why Ohno did all those things, no, you can understand his reasons and thoughts, but.... it's difficult to forgive him because all the things he has done were so horrible!!! Anybody wants to lose his mother and maybe this thing with Nino wouldn't go well and then Ohno would be alone...
Ahhhhh this will be ankward when Sho return and explain all . A difficult situation for all. Sho now know that Jun is in love and that Nino is falling, ne???I want to read more, more of Sho and Nino together! How Nino will talk and explain things to Sho and consolate him...
Thanks for your hard work and waiting for more!!!!!!^3^
PS. I was waiting for lord ohno's.... :(
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Date: 2013-08-30 10:35 am (UTC)I'm really glad that you liked it :D he deserved the punch ne :D
you can understand but he could have handled it in a better way ne >.<
yep things could get very messed up very quickly when Sho goes back to the hotel >.<
Hehe he's realised it :D
Sho and Nino will have some time I promise :D
I'm sorry about lord ohno >.< next part is up now :D
Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-08-30 01:09 am (UTC)I'm impressed that Ohno confessed about Masako.. I wonder when Sho will know about this but you include it here XD
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Date: 2013-08-30 10:26 am (UTC)He really could have handled it all better ne >.<
he's not a complete jerk ne :D
Thanks for reading ^.^
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Date: 2013-08-30 04:21 pm (UTC)