Eros part 24

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

“You’re a…Gay?”  Matsumoto Junichi asked his jaw locked into a thin line his lips a pale pink colour. Nino was positive that if this was a manga he would have seen his soul coming out of the top of his head. They had been here for an hour and a half and had a nice meal, which was now settling uncomfortably in Nino’s stomach. Junichi was a very good idea of how Jun would look in a few years. It was like somebody had taken a photo of his lover and aged it up or at least a little bit. There were a few lines on the face and his hair was peppered with grey, but the eyes behind the heavily rimmed glasses were bright and clear and Nino knew that he would be very lucky later in life to wake up to that.

Jun’s mother was sitting silently with her legs crossed a thoughtful expression on her model beautiful face. She was wearing a fitted blue two piece suit, her hair cut into a short elfin style and her unstated make-up gave her a youthful expression. She really was a beautiful woman and Nino never knew what to make of Mi, she was always polite to him but half of the time he thought that it was just ‘polite’ politeness

“Yes, father…I’m gay…” Jun nodded turning to give Nino a weak smile. Nino had to marvel about the fact that, even though they were nearly thirty, he, and he suspected Jun as the same, was acting as if they were children again. The atmosphere was completely different than it had been yesterday and the disquiet started up in his stomach again. Somehow after telling his parents he had started to feel better. It was like by telling his parents he had confirmed in his heart that above anything else in his life he loved Jun and always would. The empty ache that had seemed to fill his soul for a long time had eased after he had had the support of his parents. His mind was still in turmoil and his heart was numb from the tired feeling that had made its home in his head but last night it felt that it had become easier to deal with but now it was back worse than ever. “And I’m dating Kazunari…We’ve been dating since our first year in college…”

“…A gay…” Junichi whispered yet again sinking down into his chair his hands coming up to cover his face as he let out a long, sustained sigh as the door opened and a man Nino barely recognised as Jun’s older brother. He wasn’t very often in the house when they visited not that Nino came here himself very often not wanting to draw to much attention to the fact Jun was spending so much time with another man. After today that wasn’t going to matter. Nobuyuki looked between them his eyes flashing with delight obviously picking up something

“I knew it…” He hissed “You’re a blinking fairy…”

“…Yes…I am…You were right…I’m as gay as a daffodil” Jun said his jaw locking as his eyes narrowed. Nino reached out and rested a hand on his arms his fingers stroking him gently trying to calm him down. “If you have a problem with that then…”

“Calm down…” Junichi murmured softly his voice sounding distant as he looked up “You said since college…What about that pretty bubbly girl…Moriko-chan…You were dating her back in college…”

“I was but we broke up when I met Kazu… She is a very good friend and she continued to come here because I was afraid…”

“Afraid? You have never needed to be afraid you are my son this is your family…” Junichi said while Nobuyuki gave a scoffing laugh flopping down onto the sofa. Jun eyed him for a moment while Nino openly glared. He might have been having doubts about everything in his life right now but he would not tolerate anyone making a mockery of his Jun.

“I was not afraid of you father though…Some members of the family were less than supportive…” Jun muttered trying to be generous while his father shot his oldest son a withering look.

“Some members of the family are idiots…I…You’re a gay…I admit that I am surprised…But…That is to be expected when you have only just told me…I am unprepared for this…If I had known I would have been able to say something more…But are you protected…I mean…You hear stories of gay men…And…The gay disease” Nino froze of course he knew what he was talking about. Of course Aids and HIV weren’t just a gay disease but people still thought of it as that and people still thought that they deserved it. The wasting away, the sallow skin and the hallow look in once bright eyes, there were actually sick bastards out there that believed that it was gods punishment. It wasn’t Aids that killed you, that just destroyed your immune system until you couldn’t fight them off anymore until something as harmless as a cold became something that could kill.  Nino felt Jun’s hand come to rest on his hand fingers gently stroking his skin and his breath caught.

“Yes father you do, we ourselves…We lost someone close to us due to Aids...Not too long ago…” Jun whispered and Nino tensed blinking furiously as he took a shaky breath. Coughing he let out a laugh and then stood up his hands twisting around painfully “Kazu…”

“I’m sorry…I need some air…” Nino whispered his whole body trying to shut itself down. He refused to talk about this, Jun knew that why would he have to bring that up now, when he was already this tense? He asked himself running for the door and not stopping to put his shoes on. He ran the length of the garden and then sank down into the dirt, the cold wet of the grass soaking into his knees as unwanted tears flowed down his cheeks. Shaky hands scrambled into the depths of his pocket and he pulled out his cigarettes, struggling with the lighter he was glad when there was a flame in front of him and blinking he looked up expecting to see Jun and was surprised when it was Mi.

“May I have one?” She asked motioning to the pack that was laid in the grass. Dumbly Nino nodded picking it up and offering it to her whispering a

“Yes…”

“I shouldn’t really I told my husband that I quit last year…” She said taking one out flashing him a guilty smile as she sniffed the cigarette before lighting it a look of pure happiness washing over her face as she took in the smoke. “Jun is inside going frantic that he upset you…He feels bad…”

“It wasn’t his fault…It’s mine…I’ve been all over the place lately…” Nino admitted knowing that that was the truth. After the death of Kaede he and Jun had talked about it a lot. Or Jun had and he’d listened, then Nino hadn’t cried, he hadn’t even thought that it had affected him any more than it would the death of any friend but now he wasn’t too sure. Now he was prepared to bet that the death of Kaede was the cause of a lot of the feelings that were running riot in his body.

“Since the death of your friend…” Mi said it wasn’t a question but a statement as she leant against the wall and Nino nodded wondering why this had to happen now. He was meant to come and they would tell Jun’s family and then that would have been it. Why did he have to have a melt down? Why couldn’t he just be the person that he was in college? The person that had never let anything get to him, he gave a shaky sigh before sucking on the cigarette and trying not to cry.

“Yes…” He answered the non-question, drawing on his cigarette his eyes closing “He was our friend but…He was also…At one time he was more than that to me…”

“You dated him?” Mi said and Nino gave another nod, playing with the cigarette with his fingers as Mi sighed, her hand coming to rest on his shoulder “I’m sorry…”

“It wasn’t your fault…” Nino muttered because he couldn’t help it, that was just the way he was. Four months ago after the funeral they had talked about it until Nino refused to even think about it anymore and he still didn’t want to talk about it now. He wanted to pretend that it hadn’t happened and everything was fine.

“I’m still sorry…His death hit you hard…” Mi told him and Nino was glad that her voice sounded almost flat and not overly emotional.

“…It scared me…” He admitted and Mi let out a hum of agreement putting her cigarette out on the wall.

“Death scares everyone, you’re young you’re not meant to think about it…Junichi…He was just concerned and a bit of an idiot, if he can’t read about it before hand he can’t process it and words just flow out of his mouth” Mi murmured and Nino had to admit that sounded a lot like his son “The truth is we’re both happy, we were concerned that Jun was spending so much time at work that he wouldn’t find anyone and now it turns out he’s been in a long term relationship…I think you should talk to him though…”

“I’m sorry?” Nino whispered his heart thumping as he looked up into the woman’s face and Mi gave him a smile her eyes flashing knowingly,

“There’s a lot you’re holding back…You should talk to him before it’s too late…It will only hurt him if you don’t tell him…”

TBC
A/N: Jun’s parents were just as understanding ne…I thought I already had enough conflicts going on with Nino and Kaede…Thanks for reading ^_^

Comments

[silver-crystall.livejournal.com]

I like Jun's mum cause she finally advises Nino to do the right thing! I hope he takes her advise into consideration...

And good thing Nino slowly starts to realize where his empty feelings (eh? does that even exist?) come from. Now he can work on them and find a way to "cure" himself...

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

He needed someone to tell him ne xD let's hope Nino listens to it xD
Hehe things are slowly coming together, he can focus on himself for a bit ne xD
Thanks for reading ^.^

[br-arashi.livejournal.com]

Who is Kaede????
Have I lost something???
And Jun's mom is very sensible.
Truth is the only thing that can keep people together...
Without this, no love can survive...

[krystalkatz.livejournal.com]

Kaede is Nino's ex boyfriend we met him in the club when he was trying to hit on Nino xD he does become more important later xD
She is ne xD
Now we have to hope that Nino listens to her xD
Thanks for reading ^.^

[gemplee.livejournal.com]

I am so happy that June's parents were understanding. I was expecting a lot of angst when jun told his parents that he was gay. I am looking forward to the next chapter. I hope niño talks frankly to jun about what he is feeling and going through

[dorayaki-chan.livejournal.com]

Things seems bit brighter so kaede got aids , i hope he got infected after his relation with nino is over , and yeah i don,t quite agree when some people say that aids is gay disease gosh straight person can get it too , it has nothing to do with sexual preference

[tempestade-13.livejournal.com]

I hope Nino follow the advice of Jun's mother.

[vicco-vicky.livejournal.com]

Now is Jun time to confess. His family is in shock. And if I don't understand bad, Jun brother doesn't like the idea of Jun being gay??
And Nino's ex died becaus HIV... this is shocking but to the extrem of Nino's behaivor??? Something more had happened in between , ne?? And Jun mom something is bothering Nino and if he doesn't tell Jun he will hurt him. Interesting.

Thanks for your hard work and waiting for more!!^^

[momokan69.livejournal.com]

Nino's parents is nice and Jun's parents indeed understanding ne..
Actually, I was guessing that Kaede might make an appearance again. I thought he's going come and disturbing Jun and Nino relationship
But I never expected he's died :O And it seems that actually Nino and Jun in good terms with Kaede?
Jun mama is right, ne, Nino holding back too much, he should talk :O :O
Looking forward to next! Thanks for updartes!