Tears of snow part 4

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Title: Tears of snow (Jun’s pov)

Author: krystalkatz

Rating: NC17

Length: chaptered

Genre: Au… angst, smut

Pairings: Matsumoto Jun/Ninomiya Kazunari,

Disclaimer: I only own the plot

“Ninomiya Kazunari?” His co-worker said raising an eyebrow “So you’re one of them? A fag?”

Matsu frowned, he hated that term, he had only just moved to back to Japan and Tokyo having spent five years in a boarding school in America, he had only been back twice and that had been three years ago once for a short holiday and the second was for a funeral , he would always be thankful that he had made the trip that first time.

“No, it’s just I’ve heard people talking about him…” He said with a shrug as he continued to wipe the counter, the guy he was talking to hummed in a slightly unbelieving way

“If you know what’s good for you, you’ll stay as far away from him as possible… He’s a complete man-whore, must be good for fags though they all seem to want him… That is until he fucks them over” Matsu chewed his lip nodding faintly it fit everything else he had heard about the man, he sighed running his fingers through his hair as he tried to work out what he was going to do, the easiest option would be to just introduce himself but he had no idea how Nino would react so he quickly decided against that option. While he was thinking the door had opened and two men entered. His follow waiter nudged his arm motioning to them “There he is now, the little one with the black hair” Matsu saw him and he recognised him from all the photos Ohno showed him, even though he was thinner and paler than he was in the pictures, deep shadows surrounded his eyes that looked so empty, like the lights were on but there was nobody home. The guy he was with was slightly cute, but Nino seemed bored as he prattled on and on about his parents wanting to meet him, if anything Matsu thought he was showing more interest in him than anyone.

He knew he should be disgusted but he found himself flirting wordlessly with his body and he was happy when the other guy left. He wasn’t sure how to play it from there so he just did what he would when trying to get a girl back to his place, luckily Nino was horny enough to fall for it. He knew there would be a few questions from his co-workers the next day but he didn’t care, this was the only reason he had started working as a waiter. While he was waiting for Nino to unlock the door his lips found Nino’s throat and the soft moans and groans he received increased his confidence. Although he had fantasied about this for a long time he had actually never been with a man before and he wasn’t sure if he could even get an erection and this was happening a lot more quickly than he had planned, as soon as they got into the apartment the real kissing started and was almost left breathless by the way Nino kissed him, he could feel his body reacting and he was delighted.

Matsu bit back a groan as he watched Nino dart into the living room in search of lube, his member was aching almost painfully and he couldn’t believe he had been worried about not being able to get it up. Nino was fucking sexy he decided looking around the room as he tried to stop himself from touching himself, it was then his eyes fell onto the photo of Ohno beside the bed, his stomach clenched tightly and with trembling hands he reached out and picked up the photo ‘I’m sorry’ he whispered running a finger over the smiling face, fighting back his tears as Nino came back into the room. The smaller guy went even whiter when he saw that he was holding the photo and Matsu felt another painful stab of guilt but he had already knew the best way to get around Nino was to play him at his own game. Nino pulled the picture out of his hands and put it back on the side, Matsu was glad that Nino was already rock hard or he was positive he would have been kicked out without a seconds warning. Before tonight he would have said the image of a guy preparing his ass for sex would have been a complete turn off but the way Nino twitched and moaned as his fingers moved inside of him was a sight he would gladly keep in his mind forever.

 The sex itself was unbelievable, ten times better than any woman he’d ever been with and he had to admit to being oddly proud when Nino came twice in quick succession more so when it was obvious that Nino was surprised. It wasn’t until he stepped into the shower that he felt the knot of guilt forming in his stomach again, it threatened to overwhelm him when he saw the dazed and heartbroken look on Nino’s face when he asked about the guy in the picture. He was positive though that this had confirmed what he had suspected, he was completely in love with Nino. He knew it was strange, but he had fallen in love with Nino almost four years ago although it was painfully obvious that Nino didn’t recognise him at all. That being said they had only met each other once. He went to his own apartment and looked at the photo of him and Ohno that he had beside his bed. With a sigh he picked it up and carried it to his spare room deciding that he really have to finish packing sometime soon, before going back to his bedroom. The next day he had the early shift at the café, in all honesty he wasn’t expecting Nino to show up so he was pleasantly surprised when he did.

He tried his best to remain detached and keep his delight from his face, though he wasn’t able to stop a tiny bit of jealousy showing through when he saw the smile he gave Aiba. He was glad that although Aiba frowned slightly when he looked at him he didn’t seem to recognise him properly either. He knew that soon he was going to have to tell Nino the truth but to help him get over it he couldn’t be like everyone else a treat him with kid gloves. While he had been thinking about Nino, Matsu’s old school friend Toma had shown up and a quick plan formulated in his mind. He had only intended a little light hearted flirting but when Aiba ran from the café with tears in his eyes, it quickly changed and he decided to use his friend to help dig out some of the stuff that Nino was hiding. He tried his best to send his messages through looks to Toma who looked slightly dazed but rather agreeable to the plan. As all three of them left the café Matsu was trying to work out what he was feeling, Toma was an old friend, he had been the one that had helped him get most of his information on Nino so it felt strange that they were about to go into a room and fuck the same guy, but he knew he had to help Nino face his past. Going to the love hotel he pulled his clothes off and kept his gaze fixed on Nino afraid that if he saw his friends naked body he would really lose his erection. He pushed into Nino almost allowing Toma no space on the bed, as he bit and sucked trying to mark Nino as he own. Eventually he had to allow Toma to relieve what must be a painfully hard member and he flipped Nino over so he could suck at him. Seeing Nino with Toma’s member in his mouth caused his jealousy into over drive and he thrust so deeply into Nino wanting the smaller guy to only feel him that he was afraid that he’d break him. At no point during their ‘threesome’ did he allow Toma touch him, wanting to at least be able to look at his friend again. When they had come and sank into a breathless heap on the bed he tugged Nino to him once again making sure that Toma knew who he belonged to. Toma got the hint and giving him a quick wink he left the room saying he had work, when he asked Nino to tell him who the guy in the photo was he hadn’t expected such a honest answer, but he also didn’t expect the way Nino’s voice trembled when he told him, he wanted to probe deeper but he knew Nino wasn’t ready yet, if he tried now he knew the smaller guy would react like an angry cat and he might lose him forever.

The next week was like he was caught between a dream and a nightmare, he was able to sleep with Nino whenever he wanted but he had to keep it like he wasn’t interested in a relationship and he knew that when he wasn’t free Nino was out picking up random strangers. He also noticed that the closer it got to Christmas the thinner and paler Nino seemed to be getting, he knew the reason and he wanted to confront him about it but he wasn’t sure if Nino was ready. As they settled in the bath he was shocked that he could make out all of the faint bones through his skin. When Nino told him his story he had to stop himself from breaking down and crying along with him, he could remember Ohno asking him for the most romantic place to propose in Scotland, he had sighed and called him an idiot for forgetting about Gretna Green, Ohno had laughed and said ‘Oh yeah’

He wanted to tell Nino that he was an idiot for blaming himself that one of the things Ohno loved most about him was the bratty almost selfish side, again in his mind he heard Ohno on the phone, giggling slightly ‘Nino-chan’s mad at me because we haven’t seen each other for a while, but I was always going to surprise him on Christmas day… Ne, Jun-chan, in the New Year will you meet Nino-chan? I know you’ll like him…’ he buried his own pain and told Nino what he needed to hear, Nino reacted how imagined storming out of the hotel. After he had left Matsu finally let his own tears fall hugging himself tightly, feelings of guilt and love washing around inside him as he hoped that he had made enough progress with Nino for him to let the words sink in a little. He didn’t go back to his own apartment but instead stayed in the hotel hugging the pillow tightly smelling Nino’s already fading scent. The next morning he dragged himself to work unable to hide the fact that he had spent most of the night crying

“What, Ninomiya already bored with you?” His co-worker, the same guy he had been talking too that first morning, asked jeeringly

“Shut the fuck up” He snapped turning to the door he saw Nino looking worse than ever. “Shit” he mumbled trying to force himself to focus on his work, in the afternoon someone phoned in sick and he offered to do an extra shift, anything was better than going back to his apartment he decided. With a groan he locked up and made a final check to make sure everything was okay before picking up his coat and going out, his heart thumped loudly as he saw what looked like a heap of clothes and then it almost stopped when he recognised it as being Nino. His face was a complete mess of bruises, his lip and eyes brow were split and thick blood trailed down his face, he put his coat over Nino shoulders and crouched down beside him trying to keep his emotions away as he stroked his face. He guided him to a bench and called for a taxi wishing he could call for the police instead.

When they arrived back at his apartment Nino was fast asleep and he wondered how long it had been since he had had a real sleep, with the help of the slightly confused taxi driver and doorman he managed to get Nino inside without waking him he lay him on the couch and very gently checked his face and body making sure that it was just bruises and cuts and nothing more serious, before going to the kitchen to do an ice pack. His fists clenched tightly when Nino woke up and told him what happened, he surprised himself though by telling Nino that as long as he staying with him only he was allowed to sleep with him, he was even more surprised when Nino agreed to it even though his reason was because he was too messed up

“I’d still come home with you…” He said before he could stop himself and he was dimly aware that he was blushing and he quickly went to change the water and get him some pain medication.

 That night he honestly felt like his Christmas had come early as Nino lay beside him just watching T.V. The next two days he felt he had got to know Nino better than he had in the last week but that was something else that he didn’t know how to handle. He knew he had to tell Nino the truth but the more time they spent together the more he didn’t want to ruin it. He gave a groan as he went to the store to get some more pain medication and some shopping walking around in a daze he tried to find a way to tell him, knowing that if he didn’t soon Nino might never forgive him.

He saw Toma and the both gave each other slightly awkward smiles, trying not to look at each other too much, as he was introduced to Yamashita Tomohisa. Yamapi seemed nice enough and from the way his friend was looking at him he doubted if he would be doing anymore threesomes. Paying for the medicines he thanked the cashier and went home, humming the Christmas songs that had been playing in the shop. He went into his apartment and was surprised to find the living room empty, he frowned about to go into his bedroom when he saw the door to the spare was slightly open he pushed it open and he saw Nino shaking with his photo on the floor the pane of glass smashed. “Shit, Kazu I can explain…”

“Oh really?” Nino sneered, his voice shaking and Matsu knew he was holding in tears “This is going to be good, what you fucked my husband and then decided to complete the set…”

“It was nothing like that, I swear…”

“Fuck… I was fucking falling in love with you…”

“Satoshi was my big brother…” Matsu told him quickly his heart leaping at the confession, Nino blinked staring at him in disbelief “It’s true, my real name is Ohno Jun…”

Comments

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Ohno Jun, omg that's sounds so weird xD still, i don't lose hopes of a treesome xD